Sexy Notti Bitchy Me?

I pick on my skirts to be a lil too sexy.. juz like all my thoughts dey alwaes get a bit notti. wen i'm out wif my girls i awlaes play a bit bitchy. cant change da wae i am, sexi notti bitchy me!

lols. indeed. indeed. but u see... tt isnt who i really am. its juz who i wanna be. ever felt like tt? lols. i guess everyone feels like tt. so tts y i turn to MAPLING! lols. ok.. somewat irrelevant dere but nyehhs. i like it. i cn dress up my character. pamper myself & KICK SOME REAL ASS! lols. besides, no one is dere to question my being. wahahhaa.

anieways... ever felt like bein a totally diff person tt ppl noe u as? its normal i guess. a part of growin up & findin or rather discoverin who u really are. for me... i like to listen to diff lang songs. lols. & in da bathroom, i will play some songs & dance sexily like i will nvr EVER do it in front of my frens. mayb da selected few. wats my fantasy?

i wan to go to a place where no one noes abt my past or noe abt me. period. denn ima create a totally diff me. ima gather all my confidence & make myself sensational. if ure observant enuff. guys dun really go for girls wif looks & shit, dey are also attracted to girls tt carry themselves wif ABSOLUTE confidence. try this girls, GATHER ur confindence b4 u enter a room. den juz JIGGLE ur shoulders a lil. TAKE a deep breath & SMILE. denn, stride in like as tho da world owes u a livin. damn gurl, if u dun turn heads, uve gt to practise hard!

seriously. anieways, continuing, yeah. a place where no one else noes me. and den ima strike up all my confidence & blast others wif my personality, wif who i am & what i am. ima play wif all da cards tt i haf in myself. oh yeahhs. atta gurl!

so yeahhs. enuff fantasizing. tomoro is da BIG dae! lols. wat dae? BBQ @ HAUDY DAE! lols. yippee!! [jumps up & dwn] woohooo! okies. i dunno why im like SO excited. prolly cos ive been cooped up in tis hse for sooo long. plus, im totally boredd. dun even tink abt those homeworks dude/dudette. tt aint me. i am da last min girl. so yeahhs. finally! salvation! civilisation! i'm so goin out tomoro. weee!

anieways. NEWS FLASH!

a guy juz asked me out! lols a Chinese guy juz asked me out! i dun even noe his name. trust me. lol. he came online, saw my pic, greeted me & boom, "wanna go out wif me?" lols. for me, i am pleasantly surprised and delightfully pleased. however, i turned him dwn. firstly, i need to FIND tt CONFINDENCE! lols. next, i am nt yet ready. for pete's sake, i oni noe tt his age! & his looks! average lookin. thk pete. and yes.. lastly & most importantly, im still tinkin of HIM. i dun want to cheat my feelings nor tt guys. so yeahhs. told him to take it nice & slow. but nyehhs. we aint talkin. erms.. HELLO?!

lols. anieways... hve gt no plans for todae. argh! so irritatin. mayb i shud go for da friggin roadshow! lols. im TT boredd larhx. wat da hell. eeek! no wae. it ink i shud juz go surf for more PORNS, VIDS, GAMES & blah. lols. porns? ahh. .. abt gays perhaps. and share it wif. U NOE WHO! lols. teehee. kiddin. anieways. i'm off to surf da net. if deres really nth, den im to be whisked awae by my ROMANCE BOOK LOVERS. lols as in. da hero in da book. wee! rescue me! help me! fuck me!! lols. despo. ciaoz.