He hasnt been online for quite osme time now. I cant help it but feel like as thugh i am being pathetic again. I mean, Nura, you know he has been like that since the day we first met. What the heck?
I cant help but feel that he is so far away again. haizz. Whats wrong with Brian. Maybe things can NEVER work out between the two of us. I guess its time for me to stop thinking about him and focus more on other much more, WAY more important stuff like.... being close with HIM. lols.
As selfish as this sounds, Sharifah has advised me to enjoy the best from the two worlds. Meaning, to work things out with Brian and also try to get things going with HIM. lols. i know. tell ME about it. talka bout being selfihs eh. tehee. cant help it larhx. a girl has gotto have her resources stashed somewhere.
Anyways, nothing much has happened in my life. Nothing really significant. tehee. yeahhs. School is the same. Boring, lame and URGH. and now, i am in school, LIT lesson to be exact, blogging while ears tuned in to the noises behind me. A bunch of lower sec students doing drama and stuffs. lols. Nvrm. Let them grow larhx.
Anyways, i think i shall take my leave now. These people are pissing the shit out of me. Lols. pardon my language. but anyways, i shall leave now. Try to do some stuff with the remaining time left before recess [9 minutes more!]. yeahhs yeahhs. ciaoz.
25 July 2006
22 July 2006
Diff Renditions Of Phantom
Patrick & Emma Rossum. Patrick is oh so so THE MAN!! a guy who can sing.. uhhh mamamia!
Michael Crawford & Sarah Brightman.
Korean Phantom
Phantom On Ice
The couple is SUPERB. Povilas is hot.
cliff richard is HOT for an old guy.
Michael Crawford & Sarah Brightman.
Korean Phantom
Phantom On Ice
The couple is SUPERB. Povilas is hot.
cliff richard is HOT for an old guy.
21 July 2006
the days are gettin better
thank you for making my days enjoyable and the end of school, most-anticipated due to your emails. =) your words lift me up. Come baby, lets soar & fly to break free! =)
-shortest update ever. lols. laters. ciaoz.
-shortest update ever. lols. laters. ciaoz.
20 July 2006
what a Day!
darn. today was a whole load of a crap day. urgh. lols. yeahhs yeahhs. Nothing much happened today in school. lols. but 3 things happened AFTER school. before that, we waited for Mus to finish D&T after school so we watched some of the guys play soccer. Especially oogled at those topless few. Or rather only one worth looking at. BUT, not interested.
Anieways. Case# 1.
Went home with Yati, Ain, Mus and Vivi. You know that big machine that sucks the leaves on the street? Well, it was there larhx. So we made way for it larhx but that Vivi go stick his butt out. lols. Was just kidding larhx. Then the machine made a u-turn and the noose poke Ravi's leg. I was beside him, unfortunately and i was screaming larhx! i hate big machines. worst when its sort of chasing you. The driver was unhappy with Vivi larhx. He kept coming onto Vivi - us. Left with no choice, me & Vivi ran all the way to the block! lols. i was screaming all the way larhx!! tehee. embarrassing sia.
Case # 2.
A frightened cat. On a so called ledge. Tried to get it down. It was too scared. Indian woman. Pink umbrella. Poke Poke. Pull pull. i hated pink then. She went off. We stayed on. Ain, shy. Vivi, tired. Ain climbed onto Vivi shoulders. Shes thin, but terribly heavy. They laughed. They hobbled. They failed. Vivi took the a platform to step up on. And...
Case # 3.
A cockroach was underneathe it. Ain standing over it. She didnt see it. at first. i screamed. she looked down. she saw. she freaked. lols. First time i saw her freaked, apart from oral. lols. vivi pulled her hand. she used yatis PE shirt to slap him. lols. Drama sia.
Anywas yes. lols. hilarious indeed. and all throughout, i was screaming except for case # 2. lols. gawd. and had to leave them to catch the bus cos i had to shit. darn. now i feel oh-so-relieved. tehee. anyways, i shall go now. woohoo. i received an email from him. wee!
thank you so much for being understanding.
Anieways. Case# 1.
Went home with Yati, Ain, Mus and Vivi. You know that big machine that sucks the leaves on the street? Well, it was there larhx. So we made way for it larhx but that Vivi go stick his butt out. lols. Was just kidding larhx. Then the machine made a u-turn and the noose poke Ravi's leg. I was beside him, unfortunately and i was screaming larhx! i hate big machines. worst when its sort of chasing you. The driver was unhappy with Vivi larhx. He kept coming onto Vivi - us. Left with no choice, me & Vivi ran all the way to the block! lols. i was screaming all the way larhx!! tehee. embarrassing sia.
Case # 2.
A frightened cat. On a so called ledge. Tried to get it down. It was too scared. Indian woman. Pink umbrella. Poke Poke. Pull pull. i hated pink then. She went off. We stayed on. Ain, shy. Vivi, tired. Ain climbed onto Vivi shoulders. Shes thin, but terribly heavy. They laughed. They hobbled. They failed. Vivi took the a platform to step up on. And...
Case # 3.
A cockroach was underneathe it. Ain standing over it. She didnt see it. at first. i screamed. she looked down. she saw. she freaked. lols. First time i saw her freaked, apart from oral. lols. vivi pulled her hand. she used yatis PE shirt to slap him. lols. Drama sia.
Anywas yes. lols. hilarious indeed. and all throughout, i was screaming except for case # 2. lols. gawd. and had to leave them to catch the bus cos i had to shit. darn. now i feel oh-so-relieved. tehee. anyways, i shall go now. woohoo. i received an email from him. wee!
thank you so much for being understanding.
19 July 2006
a dream come true or... self delusion?
after months of pining & hoping & crying... atlast he has returned. =) i still cant believe it! i mean, wow. its been like MONTHS! suddenly he came back.
But then... what is going to happen now? I mean.. after missing out on each other for so long now, can we get back to what we had in the past? Am i still being silly? Am i actually clinging onto something that has long gone? What can possibly happen next?
I wasnt overly overjoyed but i was content. It makes me feel guilty at some level. But yeahhs, i can no longer be in a state of denial. Haizz... i dunno what to do anymore. Arghh! I cant lie to myself neither can i to him. *frustrated* but anyways, ima just let nature run its course. yeahh. best solution.
Anyways, did i mention that yesterday, the Careless Whisperer guy came to my school. lols. he was an EX-STUDENT! ahhhhhhhhhhh! lols. but yeahhs. the only fun thing yesterday was Royston Tan's videos AND.... the sound of Allan Wu moaning. Yum Yum. Now i know why he is called SUPERman. lols. ciaoz.
But then... what is going to happen now? I mean.. after missing out on each other for so long now, can we get back to what we had in the past? Am i still being silly? Am i actually clinging onto something that has long gone? What can possibly happen next?
I wasnt overly overjoyed but i was content. It makes me feel guilty at some level. But yeahhs, i can no longer be in a state of denial. Haizz... i dunno what to do anymore. Arghh! I cant lie to myself neither can i to him. *frustrated* but anyways, ima just let nature run its course. yeahh. best solution.
Anyways, did i mention that yesterday, the Careless Whisperer guy came to my school. lols. he was an EX-STUDENT! ahhhhhhhhhhh! lols. but yeahhs. the only fun thing yesterday was Royston Tan's videos AND.... the sound of Allan Wu moaning. Yum Yum. Now i know why he is called SUPERman. lols. ciaoz.
18 July 2006
Depression?
Anyways, i havent been feeling quite right the past few days. Its on days like this that i dont like myself. I mean, i cant stop being trapped & tortured by the past. I WANT to move on but sometimes, some things just pull me back. Sometimes i myself land myself in such predicament. Sometimes, i chance upon it unwittingly.
On days like this i start to question myself, my existence, my thoughts, my maturity, my feelings. I will have lots of thoughts going on in my head, so many emotions coursing through my veins. So many reactions to my body. Probably its just PMS. i often get depressed around that time. i think. i cant help it.
The thing that i will always cry about [silly-ly] is the Brian thingy. I know many of my friends are growing sick of listening to it, about it. But its hard really for ME to forget about him. I know its silly & foolish, not forgetting naive of me to cling onto something so stale. But he was the ONLY one that gave me encouragement when i was down.
My mum. She threw the book that i wrote aside when i showed her. I was sad, hurt. But Brian was there to cheer me up, to make me see things differently. I complained and freaked out about having to write a 20,000 words novel. I had written 12,000 words then and had to submit my novel 3 days from then. Brian was there to encourage me. He said he knew I could do it. He knew i was clever. He knew i would finish it all and he would be so proud of me. He shares my happiness, my sadness. He shares a part of me.
You see, he made me feel wanted, loved, cherished. haizz.. im just repeating myself from yesterdays entry. But really, i cant control myself. i would be so happy one moment, and leave me alone, i would be neck-deep buried in my past & eyes tearing.
I miss HIM. i really do. i promise myself i will forget him but its next to impossibility. i really miss you and it hurts me badly to not be able to say it out loud to you. ive never been the kind of person who publicly shows her love but when it comes to you, im bursting with affections to shower you with. but yeah, its all happening in my dreams. Ciaoz.
On days like this i start to question myself, my existence, my thoughts, my maturity, my feelings. I will have lots of thoughts going on in my head, so many emotions coursing through my veins. So many reactions to my body. Probably its just PMS. i often get depressed around that time. i think. i cant help it.
The thing that i will always cry about [silly-ly] is the Brian thingy. I know many of my friends are growing sick of listening to it, about it. But its hard really for ME to forget about him. I know its silly & foolish, not forgetting naive of me to cling onto something so stale. But he was the ONLY one that gave me encouragement when i was down.
My mum. She threw the book that i wrote aside when i showed her. I was sad, hurt. But Brian was there to cheer me up, to make me see things differently. I complained and freaked out about having to write a 20,000 words novel. I had written 12,000 words then and had to submit my novel 3 days from then. Brian was there to encourage me. He said he knew I could do it. He knew i was clever. He knew i would finish it all and he would be so proud of me. He shares my happiness, my sadness. He shares a part of me.
You see, he made me feel wanted, loved, cherished. haizz.. im just repeating myself from yesterdays entry. But really, i cant control myself. i would be so happy one moment, and leave me alone, i would be neck-deep buried in my past & eyes tearing.
I miss HIM. i really do. i promise myself i will forget him but its next to impossibility. i really miss you and it hurts me badly to not be able to say it out loud to you. ive never been the kind of person who publicly shows her love but when it comes to you, im bursting with affections to shower you with. but yeah, its all happening in my dreams. Ciaoz.
17 July 2006
i confused my feelings with the truth.
Guys who talk sweet-nothings to their gf should be sued! i hate guys like that. And i hate girls who fall into their trap of sweet words. I hate weaklings! Why must the guys spout words that they dont mean. Why must they make empty promises? Why must he say things to make me hope for more? Whay did he make me promises that he could not fulfill? Why did i belive all his words. I was foolish. I was silly. i was lonely.
I hate this part of me. I am always trapped in the past. I cant seem to let go. i Cant learn to let go. Wen everyone told me to wake up and smell the latte, i ignored them. i lament about him, about us. Now look where its got me. A year has passed and yet im still lost in the past, the shadows of our past.
On times like this, i cant help but be depressed. I seriously wonder when this is going to end. many people called me silly, naive, foolish to be falling for him. But i didnt mind. I just liked that fact that i have someone who is there to love me, care for me & cherish me. Someone i cud call my own.
Why must this happen to me so many times? Seriously guys, dont say the L-word unless you really mean it. I think the same goes for girls. But its easier for us to say this kind of words where as its hard for guys. So when you do say it, make sure you really mean it.
To my broken knight,
I dont know what went wrong. But al i can say is that i will treasure the things we shared together for as long as i live. I really hope that one day we will get to get together. For the past a year and a half, i thought you felt the things i was feeling. But then again, i guess i was just confused about my feelings, about you, about me, about us. How could i hope that things between us could really work out? You will still be my knight in shining armor, there to save me when im in distress. =) Thank you for supporting me when no one was there to do so. Thank you for encouraging me when i despaired. Thank you for everything. Thank you for the memories, baby. You are etched in my heart.
I hate this part of me. I am always trapped in the past. I cant seem to let go. i Cant learn to let go. Wen everyone told me to wake up and smell the latte, i ignored them. i lament about him, about us. Now look where its got me. A year has passed and yet im still lost in the past, the shadows of our past.
On times like this, i cant help but be depressed. I seriously wonder when this is going to end. many people called me silly, naive, foolish to be falling for him. But i didnt mind. I just liked that fact that i have someone who is there to love me, care for me & cherish me. Someone i cud call my own.
Why must this happen to me so many times? Seriously guys, dont say the L-word unless you really mean it. I think the same goes for girls. But its easier for us to say this kind of words where as its hard for guys. So when you do say it, make sure you really mean it.
To my broken knight,
I dont know what went wrong. But al i can say is that i will treasure the things we shared together for as long as i live. I really hope that one day we will get to get together. For the past a year and a half, i thought you felt the things i was feeling. But then again, i guess i was just confused about my feelings, about you, about me, about us. How could i hope that things between us could really work out? You will still be my knight in shining armor, there to save me when im in distress. =) Thank you for supporting me when no one was there to do so. Thank you for encouraging me when i despaired. Thank you for everything. Thank you for the memories, baby. You are etched in my heart.
Its Time To Break Free!
So You Think You Can Dance?
We Are All In This Together. =]
When There was Me & You. take that!
Ok. Video uploaded. tehee. im super duperbly hyper. lols. thx to HSM. wekrekeke. yeahhs. im a fanatic person now. nvrm. anyways, click your 'stop' button on your Internet page to stop the song from playing & to enable you to watch the vids. =)
Anyways, nothing much happened from the time i last updated which is...nvrm. Today i had my O level Malay Listening Comprehension. I grew sleepy towards the end. As always. lols.
Anyways, the proverb "its easier said than done" is oh-so-true. i mean wells.. its not easy to go up to the person you like and tell him you like him. I didnt do anything silly as that. But what im trying to put across that, due to THAT, it hurts me so to actually not be able to do anything remotely couply so as to avoid gossips & speculations. Its getting harder. But i will survive. now enjoy the vids. ciaoz.
16 July 2006
Soaring & Flying.
Zac Efron. Male lead actor in High School Musical.And boy can he sing! lols. ive watched High School Musical & i am now infatuated with Zac. lols. Firstly cos he can sing! i go soft, really soft on guys who can sing. Secondly, he is oh-so-cute! and I am a sucker for that too. tehee. man oh man. i wud REALLY love it if my guy can sing larhx. lols. Sing for me!
Anyways, nothing much have happened over the few days i didnt blog. However, i do have a lot in my mind. BUT, whenever i get to blog, all those stuff i have in mind just flew out of my mind. lols. I shall end here for now. But i shall add on later if i have anything else to say. =) ciaoz.
13 July 2006
Elearning suck.
Yes. It really doe. Trust me people, studying from home via Internet is SO not cool. So what if youve got free days off? Youre so pissed anyways, having to understand the shit on the net and doing the exercises. Bluek.
Anyways, do pardon my previous entry on 12th July about my birthday. Cos i had the funnest day ever! Tehee. Thanks to all my dearies; Nas [the Function Organiser], Ain, Yati, Sharifah [ the one who wont stop wishing my hapiie bdae], Sharie, Diana, Syahidah, Wina, Sarah, Vick, Winnie & Mus. Yeahhs. That many people. lols. And i got free ice creams! on the house. lols. We went to Coffee Embassy.
So yeahhs. It was very very fun. lols. so yeahhs. and today, i went out with Jas to watch Pirates of the Caribbean. Its nice really but just unsatisfying. Like The Omen. So yeahhs. Anyways, did most of my Elearning stuff. Im so proud of myself. Oh wait, i havent iron my skirt! argh! ciaoz.
Anyways, do pardon my previous entry on 12th July about my birthday. Cos i had the funnest day ever! Tehee. Thanks to all my dearies; Nas [the Function Organiser], Ain, Yati, Sharifah [ the one who wont stop wishing my hapiie bdae], Sharie, Diana, Syahidah, Wina, Sarah, Vick, Winnie & Mus. Yeahhs. That many people. lols. And i got free ice creams! on the house. lols. We went to Coffee Embassy.
So yeahhs. It was very very fun. lols. so yeahhs. and today, i went out with Jas to watch Pirates of the Caribbean. Its nice really but just unsatisfying. Like The Omen. So yeahhs. Anyways, did most of my Elearning stuff. Im so proud of myself. Oh wait, i havent iron my skirt! argh! ciaoz.
12 July 2006
Hapiie Bdae Nura.
wells wells. In a blink of an eye, as a figure of speech, i am a year older now. I am 16! lols. NC-16 movies, here i come! But, theres more to it than just being 16. its when expectations get higher and so you change. But i dont feel like changing just yet. Not yet.
Up to this point, my birthday is just like any other day. Pathetic & useless. No celebration of any sort and no special treatments. =) oh wells, did i mention that as a year of your life pass, you have to learn to just...grow up? Even if you dont want to, you simply just have to.
Im a bitter person right now as my nephew is getting on my nerves & so is my mum. Its not helping that i have Eworks to do. Darn elearning. argh. i think i might just die on my birthday. ciaoz.
Up to this point, my birthday is just like any other day. Pathetic & useless. No celebration of any sort and no special treatments. =) oh wells, did i mention that as a year of your life pass, you have to learn to just...grow up? Even if you dont want to, you simply just have to.
Im a bitter person right now as my nephew is getting on my nerves & so is my mum. Its not helping that i have Eworks to do. Darn elearning. argh. i think i might just die on my birthday. ciaoz.
11 July 2006
how long has it been?
Havent been updating have i? Dont ask me why. I just dont feel like it. lols. Anyways, i HAVE to blog today. Cos interesting stuff happened.
Mrs Chew told me that there was a bouquet waiting for me at the general office. A card was signed off as Your Admirer. WHOAH. How cool is that? teheee. i am so shy. Mrs Chew was like.. Want me call your mum to collect the bouquet and let her know you have a secret admirer?! lols. hilarious.
Anyways. It contained 3 BLUE roses! my fav flowers on Earth! weee! yepps. so sweet rite? hehe. The card wrote. To Nura, Happy 16th Birthday. From: Your Admirer. i shall upload the pic & show u in the next post. =]
ouhhs. what a wonderful day today was. lols. ciaoz.
Mrs Chew told me that there was a bouquet waiting for me at the general office. A card was signed off as Your Admirer. WHOAH. How cool is that? teheee. i am so shy. Mrs Chew was like.. Want me call your mum to collect the bouquet and let her know you have a secret admirer?! lols. hilarious.
Anyways. It contained 3 BLUE roses! my fav flowers on Earth! weee! yepps. so sweet rite? hehe. The card wrote. To Nura, Happy 16th Birthday. From: Your Admirer. i shall upload the pic & show u in the next post. =]
ouhhs. what a wonderful day today was. lols. ciaoz.
05 July 2006
someone not me.
okies. I seem to have forgotten what i had wanted to blog about. lols. let me just crap around first before i continue on. If till then i still cant recall what i wanted to say, i shall just sign off yeahs?
These past few days, i realise that i have been spending too much time with my friends. [i remember what i wanted to blog about!] Before that, i think i am spending less time with my family, especially my little boyfriend.
I seem to scold him more now. awww, i cant help it. He has got itchy hands [sounds like me...]! And when i do scold him, i will feel heavy-hearted after that. His eyes will be saucers big and will look straight into you. Inside i will go.. "Aww.. honey, youre so sweet.. Im so sorry.." but no. i kept a cool face. teehee. but often, i will play with him and tend to him larhx. lols. he IS still my boyfriend you know.
Proceeding on to the topic i wanted to talk about. I collated opinions from others about this question, "If someone call your bf/gf with a term of endearment, would yu feel irritated?" Something like that. Out of the number of people i sent out to, only 1 replied No. The rest, was a yes.
I have to make this clear that i DO NOT like Shun Wai. Admire yes, proud of him, yes. But he is nothing more than a friend that i really care for. I care for every single one of my friends. Try asking them all. Including those foreign ones. The reason why i call him "Shun Shun" was because we were sittin so close so naturally for me atleast, i prefer calling others by something sweet. For Sharifah, its Pah. For others, you would have heard.
Naturally, for Shun wai, was "Shun Shun". Gradually, the name grew on me such that i cant seem to call him Shun WAI. it seemed weird. But yeahhs, i must spare a thought for the person closest to him. So i shall make an effort to call him Shun WAI or atleast a monotone SHUN. yesh.
But after all that, i cant help it if it really slips. Seriously, ive got sweet names for sweet people around me. Its just the person in me. so yeahhs, to avoid more controversy and gossips, i shall change. haiz... ciaoz.
These past few days, i realise that i have been spending too much time with my friends. [i remember what i wanted to blog about!] Before that, i think i am spending less time with my family, especially my little boyfriend.
I seem to scold him more now. awww, i cant help it. He has got itchy hands [sounds like me...]! And when i do scold him, i will feel heavy-hearted after that. His eyes will be saucers big and will look straight into you. Inside i will go.. "Aww.. honey, youre so sweet.. Im so sorry.." but no. i kept a cool face. teehee. but often, i will play with him and tend to him larhx. lols. he IS still my boyfriend you know.
Proceeding on to the topic i wanted to talk about. I collated opinions from others about this question, "If someone call your bf/gf with a term of endearment, would yu feel irritated?" Something like that. Out of the number of people i sent out to, only 1 replied No. The rest, was a yes.
I have to make this clear that i DO NOT like Shun Wai. Admire yes, proud of him, yes. But he is nothing more than a friend that i really care for. I care for every single one of my friends. Try asking them all. Including those foreign ones. The reason why i call him "Shun Shun" was because we were sittin so close so naturally for me atleast, i prefer calling others by something sweet. For Sharifah, its Pah. For others, you would have heard.
Naturally, for Shun wai, was "Shun Shun". Gradually, the name grew on me such that i cant seem to call him Shun WAI. it seemed weird. But yeahhs, i must spare a thought for the person closest to him. So i shall make an effort to call him Shun WAI or atleast a monotone SHUN. yesh.
But after all that, i cant help it if it really slips. Seriously, ive got sweet names for sweet people around me. Its just the person in me. so yeahhs, to avoid more controversy and gossips, i shall change. haiz... ciaoz.
04 July 2006
the inner me.
I guess it is easy for people to discriminate others. But yeahhs. In my case, it is not discrimination. Its about putting yourself before others. Thats bad.
If i do a survey right now on individuals, asking the question, "Have you put others down so that you can appear to be more superior, cleverer, and shine more than the others?", i bet many would admit yes.
Sometimes i wish that everyone would ask themselves this question, "Would putting others down make me feel better?" If it does, well, I have nothing to say. I guess it is easier to just make yourself "save face" by saying something bad about others. Its the fastest & easiest way to prevent yourself from being put on the spot. What weird humans we have on Earth.
But yes. I guess ive been the butt of jokes & ridicules ever since i was small. ive always been chubby [or rather, FAT]. its the genes in me you see. but yeahhs. ive learnt how to put up with immature people who derives delight through taunting others. No one knew but my childhood was hell. Growing up in a society where weight is a conscious thing, it is hard to unleash my true potential. Instead, i chose to let people think that, "oh, cos she is fat, she wont be able to do it.." oh wells.
But all things must come to an end, whether good or bad. Im glad that i have much more mature friends now [except for a few], who dont call me names. They are friends with whom i can truly be myself. Even if something holds me back, they are there to encourage me. Someone like Meng Chin, he encouraged me to continue running; to reach the finishing point. But like i said, not all. I do have friends still that sometimes hurt me with words they say. I dont know if its intentional or not, it hurt still.
But in this world, nothing & no one is perfect. So we just have to go through life as it is. Although the real world is really a dog-eat-dog world, putting others down, dont make you shine any brighter. With good comes evil. With friends like Meng Chin, i can continue to run this race. The race of my life; and never give up.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were all meant to shine,as children do.
It's not just in some of us,it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."
Beautiful lines i took from the movie Coach Carter. Remember people, you might not know it but you might be others inspiration. Being nice wont hurt or kill. =] ciaoz.
If i do a survey right now on individuals, asking the question, "Have you put others down so that you can appear to be more superior, cleverer, and shine more than the others?", i bet many would admit yes.
Sometimes i wish that everyone would ask themselves this question, "Would putting others down make me feel better?" If it does, well, I have nothing to say. I guess it is easier to just make yourself "save face" by saying something bad about others. Its the fastest & easiest way to prevent yourself from being put on the spot. What weird humans we have on Earth.
But yes. I guess ive been the butt of jokes & ridicules ever since i was small. ive always been chubby [or rather, FAT]. its the genes in me you see. but yeahhs. ive learnt how to put up with immature people who derives delight through taunting others. No one knew but my childhood was hell. Growing up in a society where weight is a conscious thing, it is hard to unleash my true potential. Instead, i chose to let people think that, "oh, cos she is fat, she wont be able to do it.." oh wells.
But all things must come to an end, whether good or bad. Im glad that i have much more mature friends now [except for a few], who dont call me names. They are friends with whom i can truly be myself. Even if something holds me back, they are there to encourage me. Someone like Meng Chin, he encouraged me to continue running; to reach the finishing point. But like i said, not all. I do have friends still that sometimes hurt me with words they say. I dont know if its intentional or not, it hurt still.
But in this world, nothing & no one is perfect. So we just have to go through life as it is. Although the real world is really a dog-eat-dog world, putting others down, dont make you shine any brighter. With good comes evil. With friends like Meng Chin, i can continue to run this race. The race of my life; and never give up.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were all meant to shine,as children do.
It's not just in some of us,it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."
Beautiful lines i took from the movie Coach Carter. Remember people, you might not know it but you might be others inspiration. Being nice wont hurt or kill. =] ciaoz.
03 July 2006
DMB - Finals.
Just look at Shun twirling that mace. Expert! teehee.
You did marvelous Shun. I cant stop saying that. lols. Proud of you!!
When There Was Me & You
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
'Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
[Chorus #1:]
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me feel
Like I could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song
[Chorus #2:]
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe
That I could be so blind
It's like you were floating while I was falling
And I didn't mind
Because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
Song by the High School Musical. I am so into this song now. Darn it hit the bulls eye.
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
'Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
[Chorus #1:]
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me feel
Like I could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song
[Chorus #2:]
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe
That I could be so blind
It's like you were floating while I was falling
And I didn't mind
Because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
Song by the High School Musical. I am so into this song now. Darn it hit the bulls eye.
Life Marketing.
Okay. This is oh so weird. I changed my template to something half-girly, half-idunnowat. Yes. Splendid. To top things off, i have a techno song on! wow! An extreme makeover? Err, i guess yes.
Anyways, today is a holiday. Woke up late. Lols. Cant help it. Ive been losing sleep. Anyways, today as i was ironing my uniform, i came up with a question that YOU should ponder about too.
If you were a living item to be sold, how would you market yourself? How would you sell yourself off in this, lets say, relationship business? Let's try, shall we?
Well, you should pick me 'cause I am simply wonderful. No kidding there. I look for serious relationships all the time. That is probably why i dont have one. Lols. But seriously, if you need someone to lean on to, you can choose me. If you just need someone to listen to, or someone to talk to, you can find me right there by your side. I love to talk, i love to laugh, but if you are not looking for someone to lighten up your days when you are down, you may do a detour now. People might not take me seriously, but trust me, i know when i need to be serious. What more do you need in the person you love?
I will be there to hold you, to comfort you. I will love you til forever comes. Just give me the chance and i will prove to you that i can be the one for you. =] lols. Okay, what a sale. lols.
yes. Thats what i've got to offer, i guess. Nyehhs. Anyways, been at home all day taking care of my dearest nephew. I feel like wringing his neck sometimes! lols. Kidding only larhx. I love him too much to do anything harmful to him. *kisses the top of his head*
I will do anything for my nephew. =] Wait till i satart working and stuff, he will be showered with lots of gifts! teehee. i love kids. I wanna have 4 of my own. *shyys* lols. Yes. i shall go now. Tag me yeahs? Luv y'all! ciaoz.
Anyways, today is a holiday. Woke up late. Lols. Cant help it. Ive been losing sleep. Anyways, today as i was ironing my uniform, i came up with a question that YOU should ponder about too.
If you were a living item to be sold, how would you market yourself? How would you sell yourself off in this, lets say, relationship business? Let's try, shall we?
Well, you should pick me 'cause I am simply wonderful. No kidding there. I look for serious relationships all the time. That is probably why i dont have one. Lols. But seriously, if you need someone to lean on to, you can choose me. If you just need someone to listen to, or someone to talk to, you can find me right there by your side. I love to talk, i love to laugh, but if you are not looking for someone to lighten up your days when you are down, you may do a detour now. People might not take me seriously, but trust me, i know when i need to be serious. What more do you need in the person you love?
I will be there to hold you, to comfort you. I will love you til forever comes. Just give me the chance and i will prove to you that i can be the one for you. =] lols. Okay, what a sale. lols.
yes. Thats what i've got to offer, i guess. Nyehhs. Anyways, been at home all day taking care of my dearest nephew. I feel like wringing his neck sometimes! lols. Kidding only larhx. I love him too much to do anything harmful to him. *kisses the top of his head*
I will do anything for my nephew. =] Wait till i satart working and stuff, he will be showered with lots of gifts! teehee. i love kids. I wanna have 4 of my own. *shyys* lols. Yes. i shall go now. Tag me yeahs? Luv y'all! ciaoz.
02 July 2006
yummy!
beautiful body. husky and sexy voice.
a man not to be missed. darn. he is the definition of HOT.
More pics.
Tehee. a tribute to our DEAREST shun shun. =]
Another pic of him. lols. took it when DMB was playing for our school. Suave!
Okies. This was the parade commander. Darn he was HOT! anyways, ive got a fetish for guys in uniforms. lols!
Okies. this is no ghost picture. Its just that i was walking and trying to take picture with really bright flash. lols. It says DEYI. lols. our posters.
And lastly, the one of many pictures we took using our individual cams! lols. Pretty babes!
Beyond Words.
1st July 2006 was the date that SYF Finals was carried out at the national stadium. Oh garsh, its also a date in history!
Before i go on to the intersting part of the whole entire day, let me just briefly described what went on. I didnt go with the school to the national stadium. Something happened the night before that caused whatever emotions i went through on that day.
Anyways, walked from Kallang MRT to the stadium with Ain, Diana, Dini [diana lil sis], Yati & Nas. lols. So yeahhs. We came quite early you see. We had tickets for the bench seats. lols. And yeahhs, we sat right at the very front & middle of the whole stadium. wahh!
And yes we held posters of our dearest friends; SHUN WAI, Vick, Siti, Sharie. wee! lols. it was REAL cool. Anyways, time to go on to the intersting part.
Our SHUN SHUN won DRUM MAJOR OF THE YEAR 2006!!! weee!! I was with Sharifah carrying drinks that we bought earlier. I put down the whole box and waited for the person to announce the winner. "Wong Wai Shun!!" it took me a moment to make it who it was. lols. YEAHHS! Sharifah & I were screaming like banshees! lols.
Before i go on to the intersting part of the whole entire day, let me just briefly described what went on. I didnt go with the school to the national stadium. Something happened the night before that caused whatever emotions i went through on that day.
Anyways, walked from Kallang MRT to the stadium with Ain, Diana, Dini [diana lil sis], Yati & Nas. lols. So yeahhs. We came quite early you see. We had tickets for the bench seats. lols. And yeahhs, we sat right at the very front & middle of the whole stadium. wahh!
And yes we held posters of our dearest friends; SHUN WAI, Vick, Siti, Sharie. wee! lols. it was REAL cool. Anyways, time to go on to the intersting part.
Our SHUN SHUN won DRUM MAJOR OF THE YEAR 2006!!! weee!! I was with Sharifah carrying drinks that we bought earlier. I put down the whole box and waited for the person to announce the winner. "Wong Wai Shun!!" it took me a moment to make it who it was. lols. YEAHHS! Sharifah & I were screaming like banshees! lols.
That is our SHUN SHUN in action! weee! how cool does he looks?! Shun, we are all so proud of you! You were simply marvelous, hun! =] You did it! You have really done it!
I cannot seem to post anymore pics on now. I shall post more laters. Because we actually took quite a number of pics. lols. Throughout the whole journey home from Marina Bay to Ang Mo Kio, the few of us kep taking pictures. lols. Photogenic Missus.
01 July 2006
What Hurts The Most?
The singer aint really handsome. But the video is really heart--wrenching. I cant help but cry. Listen to the words. It really hurts, u fcuker. Read this & analyse it. You gave me such heart ache. Fine then. We shall cease it all.
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