haizz.. i dunnoe why but my thoughts & mind suddenly swerved to Brian & Brett. lols. urgh. i hate this type of me now. I mean, i like to bring up the past. which is unhealthy. trust me. I'm not really proud of my past u see. so yeahhs.
anieways, todae i watched 2 movies. lols. cos i was darn boredd nyehhs? wat da hell. den i sat in my room, stoning. lols. nahh. i was singing larhx. lols. got nth better to do mahhs. den a thought strucked me. " why didnt i join singing competitions?" den i thought again. ouhhs. its cos i'm shy. lols. seriously. i might be a student leader & all.. so u wud tink tt given da exposure and all.. i'm pretty a confident person. but i'm not. not totally. so yeahhs. my voice, da privacy of my room or bathroom. lols.
and yesh. nvr once did thoughts of HIM leave my mind. i dunno. i like him lots but wen.. wells.. wen i see potential others who might snatch is attention, i feel like i'm bereft of all emotions. i stone. i turn indifferent. but no one noes. except me. lols. so yeahhs. i like da word 'bereft'. for some un-godly reason i dunnoe why. anieways...
i dun wish to revert back to da old me. i dun wan to chat up lots of guys whom i noe i wud nvr meet in my life. so yeahhs. its a waste of time.. but still... dey are da oni ppl i cn turn to in times of solitude. so yeahhs.
i had a dream abt my old old primary school. i dunno why. i juz did. it was.. saddenning in a way... intruiging the other. so yeahhs. i cant rmb clearly wat da heck was goin on but nyehhs. who cares. i dun. really. i dun. ermms.. yeahhs.
i'm currently darn boredd & my heart is feeling restless. so yeahhs. wat do i do naws? anieways.. i cant stop tinkin abt HIM. his on every single thoughts of mine. tt sucks. urgh! its like.. violation of my thoughts! argh. but anieways. i shall BE mature & think SMART. i shall not & will NOT fall for his stupidity or watsoever[i'm spastic. i fall for stupidity.]. i shall NOT & will NOT fall further for him. he's not worth it. we dun haf anything in common do we? Opp. attract? ermms.. mayb not in my case. lols. so yeahhs. ciaoz.
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