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Moments

This song is so.. matching to what i have to say to HIM.

If I die tonight, I’d go with no regrets
If it’s in your arms I know that
I was blessed
And if your eyes are the last thing that I see
Then I know the beauty heaven holds for me

But if I make it through, if I live to see the day
If I’m with you, I’ll know just what to say
The truth be told, girl you take my breath away
Every minute, every hour, every day

‘Cause every moment we share together
Is even better than the moment before
If every day was as good as today was
Then I can’t wait until tomorrow comes

A moment in time, is all that’s given you and me
A moment in time, and it’s something you should seize
So I won’t make the mistake of letting go
Everyday you’re here I’m gonna let you know

That every moment we share together
Is even better than the moment before
If every day was as good as today was
Then I can’t wait until tomorrow comes

Each morning that I get up, I love you more than ever
So girl I’ll never go away, never stray

So every moment we share together
Is even better than the moment before
If every day was as good as today was
Then I can’t wait until tomorrow comes
(repeat)

I love, love, love the moments (oh yeah)
Moments we share together
I love, love, love the moments (oh yeah)
I pray they’d last forever
(Repeat)

i was feelin so down... =[

the bell rang and it was as though all hell broke loose. student streamed out of the classes. Most of them feeling anxious, some dreadness cos they've got the Artsfiesta rehearsal to go to, the booths to set up. Those who are not involved rejoiced & went home 2 hours earlier. Making plans of all sort.

Except this one girl. She looks around her & find that all her friends are involved. She looks around and find them rushing around, standing around, listening to instructions then walking off with a set face to get the job done. She has no part in this grand event. Cos she's going off... so far away from others.

haizz.. ok tts a lil bit dramatic.. but yeahhs. i was really so so sadd on my way home alone... until i later met Ayin, Tempe & Wina. I mean.. well.. I was supposed to be the emcee but i had to back out JUZ BECUS my family & relatives are goin off to Kuantan. =( it sucks more wen well... all of them are like doing stuff together. they are IN THIS together. urgh. dey might not realise it but this one event wud somehow make them closer to each other. nvrm. i aint makin sense.

In short, i'm envious, sad, excited & missing this mega event. haizz.. but nvrm. i'll juz go off to Kuantan and be hapiie. =) yeahhs. tts da spirit gurl.

haizz... the one thing that has been on my mind since da past few daes is HIM. i miss him lots. i dunnoe why but i juz miss him. to make things worst, i'll be gone for like 3 daes. urgh.i'm sure gonna be thinkin of him 24/7. argh!!! i miss him so so so so so much!! how?!?! cant get to see him and all. haizz... i'm really so so sad lorhx... ='(

to top things off in the worst kinda way, i cant even atleast watch the friggin concert. i cant see shun shun performing. argghhh!!!! tis is so so frustratin larhx!! my gawd. life sucks to da max. urgh. nvrm.

to brighten up my dae, i ended up singing karaoke! lols. yepps. at first i was too SHY. altho got no one at home. lols. but den i finally gave in to the temptations & juz sang my heart out. When i sang the song 'Moments', i cudnt help but think of HIM. teehee. *shy* so yeahhs. tts abt all i guess. lols. ciaoz.

oh i miss him so. oh i miss him so. =(

Questionaire

Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneathe until you write the names of all 20 people. Ready...? Start!

1.Neo
2.Sharifah
3.Shun Shun
4.Aaron
5.Jeremiah
6.Brett
7.Cherish
8.Julia
9.Diana
10.Nas
11.Sharie
12.Wei Jian
13.Jasmine Kua
14.Jasmine Low
15.Kenny
16.Jezebel
17.Nicholas
18.Haudy
19.Dominic
20.Kaishun

ok, now for the questions.
1.how did you meet 14?
cheyy. tis one is in the council board. lols. den got closer wen we're in da same class larhx. lols.

2.What would you do if you've never met 1?
Awww. I'd die cos got no nipples to tehh. lols. and oso he's da joker larhx so wif no him den vry sian mahhx. =D

3.What would you do if 20 & 9 dated?
my gawd. tts like weird larhx cos i dun tink they even interact wif one another. lols. plus kaishun is not diana's kinda guy. lols. rite gurl?

4.Did you ever like 19?
Errm, actually no. lols. but i like his cool demeanor & sometimes playful side of him. And his got a hot bod. lols.

5.Would 6 & 17 make a good couple?
Errr... if tis is Brookeback Mountain den i'd sae yes. Nick is physically huge & Brett is ermm.. HUGE. lols.

6.Describe 3.
Shun Shun! lols. he's a vry nice guy actually. playful at times & aggressive sometimes too! like twisting ppl's ear! lols. but he's also disciplined being da drum major & all. then he is helpful too for helping people all da time wif Maths & stuff. lols. and not forgettin, he looks so cute wen he sleeps! wakrakakka. too bad he's got a gf larhx. lols

7.Do you think 8 is attractive?
Yes. In her julia-way. lols. vry nice personality & all. u go Juliao!

8.Tell me sth about 7.
She's TALL. tts one thing for sure. she's cute too! teehee. a vry sweet personalitied gal. =)

9.Do you know any of 12's family?
Errr, like no. lols.

10.What's 8's favourite?
She likes to laugh! lols. and touch her hair & haf lots of fun everydae. =)

11.What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
I'll laugh my ass off. lols. tts impossible. plus its juz NOT possible. lols

12.What language does 15 speak?
Errr.. Engllish, Mandarin & Army commands?

13.Who is 9 going out with?
That's easy. Shahaireen. however u spell tt name. in short.. SHAH!

14.How old is 16 now?
She has recently turned 16! =) hapiie belated buffdae!

15.When's the last time you talked to 13?
Yesterdae larhx. =)

16.Who is 2's favourite band /singer?
all those rockers!! lols.

17.Would you ever date 4?
YESH!! lols. actually no larhx. if aaron carter den its ABSOLUTELY yes.

18.Would you ever date 7?
teehee. yepps. tall is cool too u noe. u cn see our contrast. short fat, tall thin. lols.

19.Is 15 single?
I dun tink so. lols.

20.What is 10's last name?
Err... Arriffin? lols. full name is easy. Nasiha Bte Ariffin eat Muffin. =D

21.Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
like NEVER! urgh.

22.What school does 3 goes to?
School for IDIOTS & SPASTIC ppl. lols. and tts Deyi. =D

23.Where does 6 lives?
somewhere in Australia. tho i'm not really sure where.

24.What's your favourite thing about 5?
He is so so nice to bully. a very very nice guy. lols. funny too!

25.Have you seen number 1 naked?
Errr, how about half-naked? lols. i wud love to! so tt i can TWIST his balls & PULL his dick. wakrakakka. =)

tt was fun. lols.

Beautiful Confession

If envy is a sin then
I am the incurable sinner
for I envy every eye that ever caught a glimpse of you.
I envy the waves that carried your voice,
and the air that touched your cheeks.
I envy even the ground that once served you,
and I confess to you that despite my indulgent sins,
my shameful whimsies and ugly flimsies,
I confess to you, "I love you."

My confessions are as silly as my muted words.
You have been loved by so many more substantial than I,
and what good does my silence or confession possibly do?
So many moments have I sat sheltered by the night in the midst of these books, my mind fulfilled but my heart calling for you.
Only my shame restrains my words from filling pages of books a
nd from whimpering into the night, "I long for you."

tis is not written by me.

Anieways, that text up there.. is straight on the bull's eye! lols. anieways, lets not tok abt tt anymore. makes me depressed.

todae Mrs Chew changed our sitting position AGAIN. haizz. wont she juz let go & live? haiz... nvrm. movin on, we are all now sitting according to our index number. urgh! how frustrating cn tt be? lols. but nvrm. i am sitting somewhere close to Shun Shun still. teehee. and i've got Aaron sitting beside me! weee! lols. and tt Debbie. lols. basically, i'm sitting where da gila guys are. how cool...

anieways, came home early to dae at around 4. found out tt Mum not at hme, dad nt yet home & me wif no key. wee... waited for daddy before i cud come up. urgh. so irritated. but nvrm. its all in da past.

so yeahhs. tomoro we're like goin off at 10.30am! lols. how cool is cool?! yeehaaww! moz prob buying Mac breakfast for tt Shun & Sharifah larhx. lols. we are hungry pigs early in da morn. weee! tink i wanna go now. am halfway through my SS notes lerhx. teehee. ciaoz.

slackerz inc.

urgh. life shucks. oh well mayb da dae wen i find sth worthwhile in my life den i'll truly say tt life is BEAUTIFUL. =D

anieways, haf been slacking these past 2 weeks. aiyo. cannot make it larhx. & da Mid Yr Exams are like next week fridae start le... teehee. sure kena go in S-cube. die larhx. cannot go hme early or go pakto [howevr u spell tt]. teehee.

ystd Shun didnt come to sch but todae he did. lols. was a lil bit lonely without him ystd. cos he's alwaes da one kena bullied or bullying me. lols. i'm so so proud of Shun. so proud of my lil baby bro. wakrakakka. anieways..

came home late as usual. sis called & was grumbling. i dunno wats wrong wif her larhx. been calling me afta sch these few daes. so WADEVA. urghh. so yepps. den stayed in da councillor room wif jas, Bev, Cristal, Cheryl Tan and Neo. lols. da rest went off afta a while left wif Jas, Neo & me. haizz.. for those who noes me well.. i'm sure u noe war broke out...

so yeahhs. played wif my nephew went i got home. needed to pee badly. managed to get it out b4 i did so in da councillor room, 262 SBS bus, walking home and on my living room. lols.

anieways.. i miss him larhx. lols. wat to say.. i everytime miss him. even if he's right in front of me or he's around me somewhere, i wud still miss him. wakrakkaka. i'm an idiot larhx. spastic too. wee! kk. ciaoz.

we did IT!

Gold with HONOURS people! we did it!! yeshh!!! lols. we did it we did it... *dances around* teehee. we [da stud leads] went off earlier at around 8.00am. around 8.45am we reached i tink. yeahh.. den we walked aroun da stadium & all. i played wif Neo's walkie talkie. so fun!

den yeshh.. we started lazing around. & it was friggin hot u noe! da heat was unbearable. we were sweating like pigs & we smell like one too! urghh! it was TAT bad. den wen our shift finish, we all went off like all hell broke loose. lols. half went Marina, Half went Bugis den Agnes & Neo went bak sch wif Miss Foo.

took neoprints wif Kua & Rach Lee. lols. da guys left us so we wandered around. den we walked back to da National Stadium. did i mention tt we walked to Bugis?! lols. and we three were late! wen we arrived, everyone was there. so yeahh..

i was shouting, screaming & blowing my whistle. lols. we cheered & all. and wen it started, i was SO friggin nervous. wen our band came in, we were all screaming like fuck sia. lols. oops sry abt tt. it all went EXCELLENTLY until Shun shun dropped da maze. my heart dropped along with it. oh my gawd. but he recovered vry quickly. as tho nth happened. my heart BLOOMED wif pride. lols. way to go Shun Shun!

i cudnt help it but cried a lil. well not really. tears didnt flow dwn but it gathered. i noe Shun said he'll drop it but well.. it WAS a oh-my-friggin-gawd moment u see. i was overwhelmed. but SHUN U DID GREAT! SPLENDID!

and den we went home. lols. yepps. we did. as in all of us. lols. yepps. den we all stank da bus & all. lols. it was pretty cool larhx. reached home, bathed & hit da sack. i was so tiredd.

den todaee woke up quite early & went Tekka. lols. yepps. whole family. ate at Komala's.. its a veggie restaurant. argh. den walked around. bought stuff den home we went. lols. den wrote some story ironed clothes & now tinkin of doin hw. lols. i.. MISS him. ciaoz.

p.s: i cant WAIT for my Kuantan trip. weee!

lets keep tis short yeahhs.

ok. todae. morning had cheers. shouted but voice not hoarse. YET. then had bio test. dang it ima fail tis test too. shit larhx.

den da band members went off early. rehearsal. final one i guess in school before tomoro's SYF. so nervous for dem. oh yeahhs. da reason for da morning cheering & all is cos of da band larhx. gona cheer for dem tomoro.

so yeahhs. den had Guides. it was KILLING me slowly. SO boring larhx. lols. den ermms... went home. bathed. den went out again. walking home wen it started to rain. argh. ran all da way to da void deck. den went home.

den tomoro am waking up early to iron my friggin skirt. washed my recent ones. so am gonna wear tt short skirt. eew. ermm... den tomoro oso meetin jas earlier. go eat breakfast. haizz.. so tired. kks. me wan sleep lerhx.

dMb, you guys can make it derhx! Shun Shun, wo hui zhi chi ni! jia you, ppl! do us proud yeahhs? =]

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hey y'all. =) haven been updatin haf i? lols. anieways, Shun Shun is cool wif da pics online so yeahhs. dun ask anymore qns aiite? juz enjoy it. its nt everydae u see a guy sleep like tt! lols.

anieways, juz got home from AMK central. went out wif my parents actually. teehee. we were juz walkin around aimlessly wen we saw da Banquet open aledi. so we wenta eat there. one word. y - u - M! teehee. its really vry nice. i was so so full tt i cudnt finish my drink. ooopsies.

den walked around again. den bought ermmm tis one popular shoe now. lols. forgot wat its called. den browse around den went home. lols. anieways, am intending to buy camiosole [howeva u spell tt thingy] and/or a skirt. 7 bucks oni lorhx. teehee. cheap cheap!

kks... i tink i dun really like him tt much anymore. tinkin again... why did i EXACTLY fall in love wif him for?! hmmmms. i dunno. i wudnt wanna divulge too much lest ppl cn aledi guess who. teehee. anieways, who i like now may not be who u tink i like. lols. chim arhx.

OH YEAHS. thankies to those who tagged me or rather FLOODED me. i shall not say who arhx.... yes Jas? =P i feel so loved now. =) u nvr noe wat a short hello or heyys, stay cheerful, can REALLY lift a person's spirit. =) ciaoz.

Baby you, there's no more just getting by,
You're the reason i feel so alive.

tis pics caused me to haf aches everywhere on my bod.

tis is called major puffing!
lols. tis pic is taken wen shun
is sleeping! weee!
look at those cheeks
ladies!




tis is called 'drum kissin!'
lols. he sleep until kiss
the table larhx. i noe u noe
we noe he dreamin of who.
wakrakakakak!


oh wat beautiful piictures! i haf one more pic but i shall not post it.. lols. todae tt stupid shun & neo tag team & attack me. and tt Sharifah oso... BETRAYER! lols. i was like screamin alot larhx. lols. cannot make it.

anieways yes. todae quite a number of free periods. lols. if oni Mr Lee nvr come. aiyah... lols. nvrm. denn todae rot a lot larhx. todae was my playful day. teehee. cudnt stop playin. den Jeremiah 3 daes hols nvr miss me. aiyoo.. sadded.

den todae went home wif jane. lols. is like during one of those daes wen i'm suddenly so so lonely. haizz... sadded larhx. but nyehh. came home & did my Lit hw. dunno how to do da other qn so yeshh.. am sort of complete larhx. =)

anieways, i miss him loads. =( earlier tis morning, i made up my mind to NOT like him anymore. but well.. wen i saw him todae.. i felt tt crush-y feelin creepin up on me again. lols. its hopeless. i'm hopelessly devoted. listen to my new song okies? its real sadd. ciaoz.

ohhh... i cant stop tinkin of him!

URGH!

i am like tinkin of him rite now. each time i tink of him, my heart juz skips lotsa beats. arghhhh!!!! help me. ooofh!

sometimes i juz feel like goin up to him & kiss him smack on his cheek. lols. one of my fren is shocked now rite gurl? lols. its juz so... URGH! so frustratin. but wat da hell. it'll blow over. its blowing over a lil now. lots. i rmb wakingn up afta dreamin of him, asking myself, why in da world do i like him. lols. its was funny.

but yeahh. urgh. it'll blow over soon. in my dream, i dreamt tt he... juz not da guy i wanted. lols. so yeahh.. and i started askin myself again even in tt dream, y i like him in da first place. lol. so yeahh. i'll bide my time. ciaoz.

I MISS HIM. for now.

oh wat a vann-derr-full dae..

ouhh.. had to wake up extra early todae... had my tuition. teehee. postponed it to todae from yesterdae. had a terrible headache for da past two daes. so yeahh.. pardon me yeah?

so yeahh.. ended around 1.15pm like tt. lols. we ended up talking abt our old times. lols. haizz.. i suddenly felt nostalgic todae... lols. cant stop tinking of da past. teehee. anieways, movin on. went home to find no one at home. mum & dad went out. so i took out da ironing board & da iron & iron my way through my uniforms. lols.

tt done, i kept da iron & took out my books. did my admin stuff on da iron board itself. lols. and did maths work. lols. i am so lovin myself! lols. anieways, next Sat is da dae where i will be goin to National Stadium to support my DEAREST lil bro, Shun Shun! teehee. our deyi band is gonna compete. raarrr!!

anieways.. all done, i can now relax. surf a lil mayb. teehee. am so so carefree todae. if oni i'm like tis everydae. wow. how vann-derr-full... =) ciaoz.

time to update on my life...

okies. i stopped at Tuesdae didnt i? lols. Now its Fridae. Happy Good Fridae pepople! teehee. its da hols! wakrakkaka.. and yesh.. Hapiie Bdae Ayin! & hapiie belated bdae Diddy! =)

anieways.. nth much happened ever since da dae i stopped bloggin. lols. lets see ermm.. wednesdae i didnt go anywhere i tink. lols. but wadeva. Yesterdae i went back to City Hall.. go Peninsula.. lols. I dunno y i wanna go dere. i juz do. lols. went to search for my dad's pressie. in da end, i bought him jeans at good prize! teehee. =)

den we [jas, agnes, bev, me] , wenta eat at LJS... i oni noe now tt Bev is really clumsy. lols. but cute. teehee. i used to find her arrogant but she's not.. its juz her face.. lols. and yeahhs afta tt we went home. lols.

i've been rotting pretty much da whole dae todae. so yeahh.. dint wake up till like wat? close to 10.30am. lols. i dreamt of da guy i liked last year. ermmm.. i wonder wat was tt all about.

anieways, i miss him. hehe. i juz wont stop missin him i guess. =) tts my wek spot larhx. haizz.. anieways.. i tink i shall go now. i seriously am clueless on wat to do now. lols. i'm juz bored. urgh.

haizz... wat a dae.

i am oh so boredd rite. now. lols. actually i'm like a grinning cat. cos i've done my LIT powerpoint presentation thingy! lols. i am SO hapiie. lols. wateva Nura.

den ermm... todae assembly was abt prize giving thingy.. u noe sth? tis is like da first time tt i see my whole class so enthu abt Bio lesson. lols. da band members didnt wanna go larhx. lols. noe why? cos we're now learning on Sexual Reproduction in humans. lols.

i asked around on how many kids my classmates want and most answered TWO. hmmm... tt used to be my ideal number of kids too. den i heard abt da pain. i saw da ugly side of it. i NOE da pain & trouble of it all. DEN, i didnt wan ANY. ZILCH. but den i thought again. i want FOUR. lols. lemme tell u why..

i want my husband & I to work hard for each other, for our family. I want us to have four hapiie children. bright and bubbly. =) i can imagine.. them in da family car, watching cartoon... wif my husband juz looking at dem from da rearview mirror thinking abt juz how lucky he was to haf dem all... while i'm away doin da grocery. den wen i come rushing towards da car, my hubby will quickl get out of da car to help me. den he'd think.. i'm fortunate to haf her. =)

i wan each dae to begin wif a kiss and each dae to end wif one too. =) i wan a hug atleast one per dae. i wan words of affections. like, "Love, you honey." "Love you, mummy, daddy." . =) teehee. i'm tinkin too far ahead. lols. but yeahhs. tts wat i dream of to achieve in future.

anieways. i miss him. lots todae. teehee. anieways yeahh.. ju\ cant stop tinkin of him larhx. haizz.. i wonder if he noes.. teehee. i'd die of embarrassment if he does.. haizz.. FORGET IT NURA. ciaoz.

some pics.

oh my Fullerton Hotel.

i am so in love wif tis hotel.

i MUST go there once in my life.

look at them go!

lols. so cute!

like me. =D

oh i miss them all.

i want the old times back!

not many pics larhx. teehee. all expired lerhx larhx. anieways. afta much bellydancing-ing, i declare my hips officially dislocated. teehee. cannot tahan larhx. anieways, i'm off now. go find other stuff to post. teehee.

omg... body aching!

aiyo... body all pain... didnt noe my bag is like SO heavy larhx. teehee. afta sch, wet to Funan wif Neo to get the councillors' stuff. teehee. didnt notice tt place until todae larhx. aiyo... so nua. wadeva tt means. teehee.

den walk walk walk around... juz looking for da files. teehee. so yeahh.. Neo so indecisive.. lols. kiddin larhx. wenta eat at KFC. wahh... tt outlet is like 3 in 1 larhx. KFC,Pizza Hut & Taco Bell. wow! lols. but i didnt noe larhx. i bought shrooms meal.. as alwaes. lols.

denn afta one last round, we went home. eh no, wenta buy Angelina bdae gift. teehee. Hapiie Bdae!! teehee. den FINALLY we went home. and my back is aching. aiyo... oh yeahhs, met Juliao. lols. interesting how in one month cn haf so many ppl's bdae. haiyoo...

so now.. am bloggin.. den mayb later i go off and do some Maths? haizz.. i seriously worry abt my studies larhx. like.. cannot make it lorhx. haizz.. sian larhx. muz jia you like siao lerhx. haizz... 2 more weeks to Kuantan... weee. . .
wats gonna happen to my revisions? haizz....

p.s: i miss him larhx. siao rite? everytime miss him but he dunno. haiyo. lan fei si jian. haiyo... ciaoz.

pick da pics.

here are some of da pics i took. =)

shun shun's new hairdo. lols

tis what we do in class. teehee.

sweet? sad thing is we've divorced.

rmb i said i bought bras? teehee.

my spastic frens dere. lols.

i'm so ORGANISED.

yeshh. i am. no wonder i'm a function ORGANISER. teehee. anieways.. todae told my mum to wake me up at around 9 or 9.30... wanna noe why? come closer... cos i'm cleaning the house!! teehee.

so yeahh... bathed. had my breakfast den switched on the com to play loud music and OFF i go to clean the house! Maid Nura is in da hse!! teehee. i vacuumed all those dusts that haf been mocking at me... GRRRR.. now I haf da last laff.. wahahahha... den mopped the floor... now it smells so Christmassy... i forgot wats da smell called. lols. Pine? errr nvrm. teehee.

den i ORGANISED my poa file... lols. i NOE. ur eyes are growing larger. lols. but u noe... it took my juz a while cos... lots of worksheets are missing! lols. oopss.. Mrs Luah is gna kill me.... =S

and now.... i am juz.... slacking. oh yeahh, did i mention tt i actually ticked away all the tasks i've done?! lols. WOW. i LOVE da new & improvED me. =D

serious business now, awwww... sad to sae, i miss him more... i dunno why but i juz do. lols. for those who noes me... i noe u tink i'm obsessed but ohhh... wait till u're havin a deep crush.... it'll be crushing on you!! teehee. but yeahh.. my heart juz somersaults wenever i tink of him, see him or sth... haizz... i'll go off ironing my clothes now. my last task. and mayb daydream of him.. lols. i tink ima burn my unifomr. oops. ciaoz.

"Oh i can't stop thinking about you. Your face sets a smile on mine. You evoke such hapiie thoughts in me."

i've got my MOUSE back!!

teehee. i juz cant contain my joy!! i need to hop around!! *hop hop hop hop hop hop hop hop hop* okies okies. theres a lil earthquake here. ermmm.. nvrm. i'm so so hapiie. teehee. and guess wat color it is... GREEN. lols. those lime green!! teehee. i'm SO excited.

lols. anieways, haven been blogging much haf i? lols. been either lazy or REALLY busy. so yeahhs. weee! i dun believe it... but i am like so hyper active!! teehee. muz be da work of da mouse larhx. lols.

so yeahhs.. todae went for tuition again. lols. it lasted longer den 2 hours actually. so yeahh.. my head & eyes were like glazed... lols. den Jas, jia jun, laogong & PIG, came along. den we went off to walk around and stuff. lols. we ate Jack's Place cakes... YUMMY! simply delicious!!

teehee. anieways.. i'm off to bathe now. lols. so tiredd. and my parents are like watching some Indian true ghost stories. argh!! i'd better go now. lols. before i decide not to bathe at all!! lols. arghh!!!!!!

ps: i'm so hapiie tt i've got a mouse bak! ciaoz.

No mouse!! how to surf webbies?!

Okies.. tts a really stupid title but yeahh.. i've got no mouse... so it takes me like 3 times longer to get things done on the com. urgh. its cos da spring in the batt compartment broke so yeahh... da VOLTS juz cant move. lols.

anieways.. havent been updating haf i? haizz.. wat to do... so sadd larhx... been sort of busy & all... lets juz sum it all up aiite?

told Mrs Ang tt i cant do the emceeing for the Arts Fiesta thingy.. haizz... u noe why? cos i'm goin Kuantan! haizz.. i dunno to laff or to cry.. lols. but yeahh.. den ermmm... den on tt dae tt i told Mrs Ang tt i cannot go is we had a meeting. PSCs... & da CEC council. WOTeva. it was pretty intersting larhx. not da first part tho. da first part was BULLSHIT. so yeahh.. teehee. oops. pardon me lang.

denn yepps.. haizz.. i still cant believe tt tis yr i'm takin my Os... BELIVE IT NURA!!!! teehee. i mean is like SO fast larhx. den all da stuff is like i dunno lorhx. die lerhx. da most jia lat is my BIO. haizz.. surprise tt i didnt sae maths? teehee. its bio lorhx. haizz...

i find tt... mayb its better to forget him bahx. i mean.. urghh. but i cant u noe. cos its not alwaes tt i haf a crush which i am.... one way or another close with. at least we're talking yeah? unlike my other crushes.. i dun even talk to them. they dun even noe tt i exist! atleast he noes.. i guess... so yeahh... but wat da heck. i dunno larhx. mayb its not da time yet. haizz...

Footprints

tis is a story tt was told to me by a fren.

A man was walking on the beach with God when his whole life flashed past him. he realised that there was always two sets of footprintsduring the cause of his life. One his, the other God's. But what disturbed him most was that in the worst part of his life, when he was down having to do things beyond his capability, he saw only one set of footprints. So he asked God. "Why did you disppear when I needed you most?" And God replied. "During all your trials and tribulation my child, i did not leave you...". "I carried you," he continued.

God helped him & stayed with him through all the tough times. He was there. He IS there. He is ALWAYS there.

It was really a nice story. I dunno if it was to boost my morality or not. But thinking again... i realise that i am so afraid of disappointing the people around me. Even God.

I'm afraid of disappointing Miss foo right now by not giving a good proposal. I know i shouldn't make excuses abt tis & tat.. but u see, i simply don't know how to do. And with that, i disappointed myself.

I'm so afraid of flunking my studies. i So wanna study abroad and all... but i cant seem to find tt discipline to actually DO sth abt it. My family has sacrificed a lot for me. They sacrificed almost everything for me... and i don't want to disappoint them. i MUSN'T.

Sometimes i just feel like giving up. Raise my hands up high, shout "I surrender!", and just crawl into my private whole & curl up to sleep. often now, i feel so tired. i feel so lethargic. i feel so.... dead. i cant seem to find the old me no more. i want the old me back.

Dear God, we had a talk the other day didn't we? I want you to know that whatever i said, i ment it. The tears that i shed were pure. PLease God, guide me. Show me YOUR light.

life is gettin to be vry boring....

yeahh... its getting to be very monotonous.. life tt is. i dunno if its juz me... but i dun feel so vibrant anymore. i'm juz oh so so tired these daes.

anieways, Mrs Chew changed our sitting positions... Shun Wai & Sharifah are now sitting tgether while i was left to sit wif Benedict & Jeremiah. i mean.. wat da hell?! i dun mind if u make me sit wif ppl who cn help me... but Ben... Jeremiah?! oh my gawd. tts like so ruining my life. and she was laughing abt it. i was so pissed & sad. afta recess, i was sulking... But Shun Wai came bak. lols. but sharifah had to go off so it was left wif da two of us. teehee. hapiie family!

den didnt go for Guides. went for da emceeing thingy.. haizz.. it was pretty ok i guess da performances... but oh well... we're gonna come up wif da script ourselves.. or rather I am gonna come up wif da script myself. lols. i dunno whether to laff or cry. plus i've got my hw to so & dat sickening proposals. seriously.. i tink we shud juz wrap up tis dinner thingy & throw dem away.

but anieways.. todae... went off for tuition at AMK library. lols. sat near tis Tomato Room. its actually a room used for tuition purposes by authorized ppl. lols. but it got pretty irritating wen da ppl keep walking pass us.. den todae covered da chapters tt i was lagging bhind ... now its pretty handle-ble. lols. wafeva. and den supposed to meet Jas but my batt was low & all so we cudnt contact. plus she was late. den i called her but no one picked up. so i assumed she was in da middle of sth.. so i left.. called her again but no one answered.

it wasnt wen i reached home tt she called me. she said she now at da library. oh frush! i'm so sorry Jas!! now u see wat hps fo to us? we are SO dependent on hps. haizz.. so yes.. did i mention da fact tt i've yet to eat a proper breakfast & lunch?! tis morning i went around to eat breakfast but none was ready. i dun like MacD tho. so yeahh... ate bread. aww... so anieways.. i'm off now to slack mayb. i juz got no mood.... mayb i'm off to watch my SHAKESPEARE IN LOVE! ciaoz.