Baby Carrier

Lol. i still cant believe tat i'm actually usin da baby carrier to carry my darlin... lol.. i mean.. da reason y i didnt wan to use it in da first place was cos it was troublesome and errr...unfashionable...lo but yeahh... all da rest are like busy doing this and tat and i hafta take care of him.... but i wanna play da com to so yeahh... i strapped him on and now here i am typin happily... [not really..his head is blockin my view some times.. lol]

so yeahh... im so bored.... Mike sent me an e-mail.. =) he's a sweet guy... [mike, if u're readin tis, dun blush...] (= lol so yeahh... hmmm... todae i actually woke up freakin early..i dunno y...i had been wakin up frequently in da middle of da nite in da middle of my dreams... hmmm... so yeahh....

anieways..i'll hafta go wash my school shoes soon..lol itz like...covered in soots of black... [wad am i talkin??] anieways..in hort i juz hafta wash it... den oh yeahh... i bought new shoe [pink!], 2 shirts [pink!]. haharx...so happy..and a long skirt.. [pink!] lol... i duno y but i like pink nowadays..and i'd received a handbouquet of roses[3] each from two of my aunts... [rmb da entry abt my aunt thingy??] so yeahh.. haharx..anieways..i beta go now..see ya!

You And Me

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

Insanity

i am feelin melancholic at da same time angry or frustration maybe? let me juz type watever i'm feelin... i'm goin insane actually..some of dese things wont make sense to u...

fcuk Brian for playin wif a lil naive gal's heart... fcuk Brett for tellin lies and pretendin to be a great guy... fcuk all teachers who are out to make my life miserable!! fcuk Jasper for all da false pretence... fcuk Nura for bein sooo garn stoopid..for lettin ppl control my life! for lettin ppl climb all over me!!!! argh!!! fcuk me!!!!!

fcuk WL for makin me like him! suffered insomnia for two fcukin weeks!!!! fcuk him for bein so macho and all-so-perfect [in my eyes]... fcuk him for likin someone else... fcuk him for makin me lose interest in sch... fcuk everyone.

okies i'm done... now..lemme try to write more vulgarities in all my sentences... [tis gettin fun!]

kanina... HT hit my tits ... nabei..tink not pain izzit? den dat bloody GC, MJ, JO, AS, NR, JJ... made me waste my bloody precious time on stupid interview. didnt even go for it!! nabei... hong gan arhx.. [wats da meanin anieways?? goodness..] nabei..call me go interview den afta dat..forget abt me.. tink wat? i bloody pillar izzit?? cheebai... make me waste time.. kanina...

kakakakka..okies..it does sound funny.. cos i'm nt usually da kind of person who uses tis kinda words... oops... lol too vulgar..dun worry..tis is probably da last time..

Forget It.

Well.... the interview for the post of the president was...... nothing. I didnt go through it. 'Cause.... they simply forgot about me. =P lol. riduculous isnt it? but who cares? i dun mind really.

anieways...todae bcos of da err.. "interview", i didnt go for Guides for most of the time. Yong Meng tortured them still...tis time was even worser, they had to run around and actually do pumpings! Yong Meng bully girls!!! haizz.... sadistic guy..still can laugh around wif his frens while torturing my poor guides...

so yeahh... finally the week is over... [yay.] my body is aching still...especially my spine area... wonder if deres sth wrong... [hmmm..]. Had my A.maths test todae... garsh..i'm failing it.. AGAIN. argh!!! i so wanna do vry well for my studies but its like... so out of the qn.... haizz..sadded..

anieways, todae nth muc happened... Cikgu Normila was angry at me and Andri i guess..cos we were suppose to do a presentation but Andri didnt bring the diskette, knowing tat i've had it saved on my schooldna account but Cikgu took it as an excuse tat we wanted to escape.. [!!!] haizz...teachers assume too much... but yeahh..

i find tat i'm like turnin into a 'bad' girl..i mean nt as THOSE kinda bad gal..but juz... rebellious? I seem to be doing everything wrong and rude nowadays... i dunno y.. plus it sort of matters to me to make good impressions on others... haizz..i'm going bonkers!

anieways...da past few days..i realised i havent been looking forward to coming to school... its different when i liked WL.... its like..coming to school is BEAUTIFUL during those days but now...it juz sux. COnsidering da fact dat i dun understand A.Maths & E.Maths [and Mr Lee is not helping by making me look like da worst student he ever had..], Physics [i've stopped listening to Mr Ang da past few lessons..i wonder why..], POA [i cn NVR understand those concepts..], Bio[al those terms and stuff..haizz...]. Now do u noe y i'm like a total failure?

school juz sucks nowadays... how miserable can ur already miserable get? it juz sux big time... haizz... if only i still like WL as muc as i liked him in da past..at least goin to sch and facing these teachers is tolerable... life is a torture nowadays...

Wake Me Up When All Bad Things End

I cant believe how tired i am rite now! my eyelids are half drooping... i cant help it! i'm juz soooo sleepy..

dere was a false alarm yesterday about the debate being today... so i practically rushed through all the debate notes and stuff... den i've been sleepin late da past few days...lol been reading all da past boks of Harry Potter.... =)

anyways, i'm da emcee for the National Day cum Leadership Handover Ceremony. =) so is joshua [suzy].... =) so yeahh...den i need not do marchin larhx...hehe...but i prefer to march.... a lil bit of both...

so yeahh...tomolo gt a. maths test.. chap 4 n 5...haizzz...sian...i go study a bit den i o sleep... =) bye. sry arhx..nt in da mood to blog...

Absolute Pain!

Urghh!!! If Yong Meng were my junior, i'd kill him!! =) lol nahhh... juz tat he is so irritatin. "timer....no horsekick.." haizz... so pressurising.. haharx..den keep lookin at my feet... i noe larhx my feet vry cute..vry small.. lol but no need untill see like tat rite?!

then dat Kenny... oops sry..Encik Kenny... wahhh.. make us turn 180 degrees repeatedly for few spins... wahhh.. dizzy! den his timing os fast..we cannot keep up larhx...

but we split ourselves into several gropus den mine was under my DEAREST baobei! =D den me, Wendy and Wei TIng... we three.. super trio!! haharx! all sec threes larhx... den we super good larhx... hehe..

then yes...now... my body aching...wud really appreciate a full body massage... haizz... in my dreams bahz... anyway..me not going to the band concert liao... bcos of me darling Mamat..... gt his errr... ceremony? party? aiya..sth of some sort of tat larhx... so yeahh..cannot go watch concert..Sadded.

Sadded was actually created by Juliao.. lol we got caught on it.. [she's great wif makin new word trends... many many...la..wat can dat gal nt do??!! =) ] so yeahh... tt word is like..copyrighted eh? lol stupid assembly..patent..design...trademark and copyright..haizz..ppl nowadays gone bonkers...nth beta to do... poor thing lar.. =)

tomolo some more gt derhx Muster Parade thing...FULL U!!!! argh!! it juz adds up to my already miserable life... nvrm.. i shall.. SMILE =D yesh..a smile can do wonders =) so...SMILE! =D (=

Irony of Life

The funny hing about life is that.... the things that revolve around you are rarely true... i mean..people think up of excuses to get themseleves out of trouble or some sort of misunderstanding...

My aunt called me todae and she was like apologising all da time for forgettin my bdae.. my bdae for god's sake!! and tt was lik... 12 days ago?! seriosuly i dun mind but da fact dat we were on da phone for like 5 mins wif her spoutin all sorts of excuses... its sick!

and now... my family is lik havin a fite wif my neighbour... some trouble of some sort... and yeahh... my dad is so angry and fuming dat he actually swore! he swore!! my dad NEVER swears... so yehh..i guess u cn lik guess from da situation now... so sadd...

anieways..rotted myself at hme... no hw... juz edited my novel... =) tink i'm gna post dem up here. hope u guys enjoy it.. =) and do post sth like comments or tag da board.. =)

Frustrated.

Frustration! tts wat i'm feeling rite now. cos of da stupid msn... i cud actually log in yesterdae!!! i was so friggin happie!!! den juz now wen i switch on the com and tried to log in, i cant. Urgh!!

but i guess i've like adapted myself to not using MSN... =( so yeahh... anieways, did i mention to u dat i've been reunited wif Ming Xian!!!!! oh garsh... i miss her loads!! i still cant believe tat we're talking abt da same ming xian as da one YEARS bak...

she's now bak in Korea so yeahh... haizz...cud haf gone on da school Korea trip this August...but got no cash so yeahh... but nvrm... we can still keep in contact through email.. =) hmmm..so happy..

anieways..didnt do much todae..had POA test which i noe i will fail. =P hmmm and during Physics Mr Ang didnt come so Parmes, Pris and me talked about Harry da ENTIRE period. lol. it was interesting tho.. Parmes seems to noe all da names.. Pris da details and i juz add on... lol i cant wait to read da th book..am still waitin for Pris to lend me... =( awww...if only mama had let me order da book... =(

Save Me.

Dear God,

I know you are the only one who knows the real me. For that, i'm glad.

I just want to say that i really regret all the things i've did. The things between You and me. I still don't know why i do those things and i have no idea how to stop myself from doing so.

There are times when i can control myself. Times when i am proud of myself.

But now, it seems i'm defeated again. I'm so strickened by the hauntings.

I need You, dear God. Please guide me to the right path and please instill such

confidence in me such that i would journey through the path full of confidence and not hesitation. I want the strength to journey through that path without straying. For that, i need You.

Dear God, please, please, i beseech you to guide me again this time.

And i will try my very best not to stray again. Please, save me.

I've sinned,

Nura

over-protected?

I am so irritated with my sis' attitude. What's her probe? So what if i'm wasting MY money? Can't i just have fun with my friends? It's not as if i ALWAYS go out. It's just this week , being the week of my birthday. It's just so friggin' frustrating. And also who does she think she is? Everyone asks me why she is the one who's being the "mother" or the decision maker. It's so frustrating that she treats me like a kid still - "I'll go down to your school and meet your friends." What the heck?!

I just don't understand. Other teens are like going out ALL the time and coming home late. The latest i reach home usually is around 7 plus. I don't splurge all my money. Even when i go out the past few days i don't ask for much money. And it is not as if i'm out doing bad things, i just want to destress. I'm just so friggin frustrated!!!!!

A group of us were supposed to go to Cheng San CC for some stupid show. After the tea-break we decided to leave and go play arcade instead at YCK. They went to POPULAR instead to buy stuff first then later decided to go. In the process, my sis found out abt us escaping the show and that she told me to go back home. I later asked her if i can go to YCK. at first she naggged then she smsed asking the details so i decided to call insttead -faster. Wen i caleed, she started nagging and all. den she said her famous line , " Since Monday i'm coming your school, i'll meet your friends.". SHe said the exact same things when i was in PRIMARY school. How can i not be humiliated? i mean please larhx, i'm like in sec 3 now. Why must she always do this to me? What will my friends say? It's easy for her to say all those bullshits but what about me? During primary school when she always say that, i get scared. Now i get pissed.

I just don't understand why she can't be like other sisters. Just shut up and lead your own life. It's so frustrating!!! Now my friends are like having fun without me second time this year. GREAT.

Brian, David, Brett

well well.... Brian, David, and Brett.... i'm sure those who are close to me noes abt them... and am wondering wats up wif dem now...well....

Brian sort of disappeared mysteriously... i've got no idea where he went.. da last time i heard from shari was that wen he called Brian's number, it was some guy named Will who picked it up and dere wasnt any Brian there... uh oh..

David... he still comes online but errr... RARELY. haharx...and yeahh.. we're frens now.. nth more ... a lil bit less.. [??] hmmm.. and heard before dat he was living wif Brett but lter kicked him out cos of some stuff..

Brett... hmmm.. he's gone too.. never online now.. but i noe he's real and out there... got to noe from Ed that he's somewhere around... hmmm.. he's the one tt left a BIG impact in my life somehow... hehehe... watever it is, he's da best. =)

and now.... wat do i talk abt??? errr.. i seriously dunno... wahahhaha... nvrm.. i ciao first.. bye bye.. oh yarhx.. i no longer tink of HIM liao.. wahahaha.. goood lorhx.. bye bye..

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Nura!!!! haharx! FInally i'm like 15!! yay!! can haf I.C lerhx... hehehe... so happy.. anieways, todae my fwens were extremely sweet to me.. =) thx u guys. den.. didnt haf a celebration....YET.

early morning, received a BIG bottle filled wif sweets from Cheryl, Agnes, and Jasmine. a joint- pressie. then later i received well - wishes from fwens. then my dear ermm.. Expressoz da second, gave me Nora Robert bookS. hehe =)

we're having the celebration on Fridae =). Fridae no GUides', so happy. den my class was supposed to go to some ferry trip.. me and sharifah went through the whole theory part but wen it came to da real excursion, we realized we cudnt go. b4 dat, i had da intuition that we cudnt go... hmmm... is cos we didnt hand in the indemption form. so yeahh! nice bdae pressie!! so we didnt go.. we went j8 instead to get pressies for Prissy and Cheryl. =)

then went home late.. =( so yeahh not so late larhx.. 6 plus like tat den come home..hehehe.. den yar larhx.. todae bdae horx, todae i see him lotz. haharx.. da past few daes i havent been seeing him.. which is good considering the fact that i want to forget him. But then wahh..todae see him lotz... thiking twice lerhx.. haharx.. me better go now bahx. so tired. bye bye. =) Happy Bdae!!

Eeew - learning

Oh my garsh!! itz like so friggin stoopid!! y cant dey juz haf normal lessons? i dun friggin' understand wat they are trying to sae.... urgh!!! tiz is FRUSTRATING!!!! argh!!!!

but i'm goin bak sch tomolo... cos i got Powerpoint mahh.. sadded larhx..but nevermind... Nas and Ayin are gonna be there too so yeahh.. we're coming early to book a place for ourselves... wahahhahaha... friggin cute.

aniewaes, didnt do muc todae... 'cept for slackin ard in da canteen afta sch... saw him several times todae.. =D was lookin outside of class wen he suddenly appeared.. scared me half till ecstacy... Lol but i was happy.

so yeahh... now i'm like sitting and rotting.. haizz..i go play K-Raiders.. haharx..see ya!!!

hao suan orhx...

wahh pianngg..todae i carried Irfan whole dae.. from to Polyclinic to J8 den bak home.. wahh pianngg..buai make it derhx..hehe

i changed my template again... on da tagboard horx, da space for typing ur msg is blank wen u type but is still can use..u juz type den afta u click "tag", den ur tagged msg will appear.. =)

wahh piangg..i read all my fwens blog horx..theirs is really power mann.. all those words all come out.. i read oso like vry interesting lorhx... mayb i shud write like tt oso larhx.. stylo milo...

anieways..todae is holidae so stayed at home and rot 'cept for da first part of da day...da earlier part i meant... den now rotting.. waiting to do my Guides' work den iron uniform..yesterdae too lazy to iron..haharx..

come to tink of it..is like all my fwens their blog has like..lotz of vengence.. so yeahh..itz juz not me.. i dun lotz of vengence all da time... once in a while oni.. let of frustration larhx.. me happy person mahh..oni now quite irritated.. cos da page keep going to da msn web-based chat conversation..vry hard for me to type..

stoopid msn larhx..cannot work..haiyo! waste my time...nvrm larhx. juz found out got E maths ws need to do...sianz... beta go do now den...bye bye! s2 [looks like a heart]

ahhh... ( =

"Don't look no further. Baby, I'm back here!" haharx =) i'm backk!! hehe.. anieways.. itz been SOOOO long!! Todae is my bf 1st month bdae.. =) who else if not my dearest nephew, Irfan! we dun call him Irfan tho, we call him Mamat, short for Mohammad. so yeahh.. bad news... my MSN still cant be used and the MSN Microsoft Technical Support have yet to contact me.. haizz.. cant really chat comfortably on the web-based Msn... so sadd.. Anieways, June holz is LONG gone, and i'm looking forward to July. which is like now. >.< cos.. my bdae comin mahh..haharx.. cant wait... hafta sae that i'm kinda sad tho... cos itz like..i dun tink i can celebrate my bdae happily wif all da presence of the E-07. =( but i guess i'll juz cherish da moments together wif dem larhx =)... Mondae is Youth Day holz.. =D am going out wif my bf to Polyclinic den go Bishan.. lol not realy bf larhx..my nephew larhx..my sis wants to go Bishan..so we go lorhx.. itz Sunday todae.. and i've finished my A maths hw.. hehe.. interesting lorhx.. den later maybe iron my uniforms so tomorrow free.. =) can happy happy go out larhx... anieways.. i dun tink i'll be posting anymore pics here... go to da links there click on My Pics.. will link to my photos webbie =) i betta go now den.. =) adios!