wat a beeeeauuutiful dae!

lols. i'm lying. anieways. todae a lot a lot a lot of FREE PERIODS!! lols. weee!! so hapiie. spent my time dunno doing wat oso. lols. i am like oh SO forgetful.

anieways.. i am da emcee for da NIGHT concert. lols. so hapiie! me & Mirliana are involved as da emcees for da night concert for Art Fiesta. lols. i am like SO excited lerhx!! yay!! lols

met Mrs Ang juz now abt da emcee thingy. den afore tt was discussing wif Neo abt da council board thingy. haizz.. he is like so enthu abt it... hopefully he wont neglect his studies anymore. jia you!

then it was raining! lols. i LURVE rain! den Neo was already nagging & nagging. den Shi Li joined us. lols. so da three of us went home together larhx... =) shared umbrella wif Shili tho i was already wet. diao. lols

and now i am home. soon going off to bathe.. do my homework den mayb juz chill a lil bit. lols. i am such a good GIRL. =) ciaoz.

i'm on the top of the world...

i dunno why but todae i'm like super hyper. lols. some might say its an every day kinda thing for me but todae i was REALLY hyper. lols.

i woke up todae wif tis msg in mind, i cn still rmb... "yippee! itz mondae. muz wake up wif a positive attitude todae. yay!" then i went back to sleep. lols. wen i woke up, i was late. lols.

den todae, i listenend to all da lessons in class. there wasnt any Physics &... wat was da other period. oh yeahh... Social Studies. i was like so friggin happiie. lols. had a really INTERESTING talk wif Sarah & Winnie. lols. it was friggin funny. i still cant believe those gurls are like tt. which is cool! unlike other gurls... yea gurls, rock on!

den todae came home early oso.. lols. 2++ i at hme lerhx... teehee. so guai rite? i NOE... den did all my English homework larhx. my compo & letter writing. lols. i bought lotsa new things todae. i bought new foolscap, new pen and.... new BRASSIERE!!


oops, forgot to add an S to dat. lols. i bought TWO. lols. one pink & yellow. i shall take pics of it den show u larhx. NO! not wif it on ME. aiyo.. juz like tt oni... lols. i feel so LOVED todae. awww...

anieways.. i finished all my homeworks, except for English Newsweek... ermmm... i've got no new book to read... and so i'm bloggin. maybe later i go write story? lols. its been a long time sia... so yeshh.. i shall go away for now.. teehee. ciaoz!

Pink Chiffon!

Your signature color is Pink Chiffon

There's nothing saccharine about you — your sweetness is one hundred percent natural! A gentle, thoughtful romantic like you must be paired with a color that's soft and warm — but still has a subtle sophisticated sheen. That's why Pink Chiffon is the perfect color for you! You're probably known for making the most of every situation and trying to see the best in people. But while you may be cheerful and innocent at times, you're nobody's fool. You may see the world through rose-colored glasses, but you can still see, after all.

While you make wise insights time after time, it's probably your good nature and perpetual optimism that are what you're known for and what make you a joy to be around. Even those who sometimes make fun of your Pollyanna-like proclamations will turn to you when they need a friend and some cheering up. So keep pink, Chiffon. With you around, the world's a better place!

What's Your Signature Color?
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Well well well... would you just READ that?! lols. anyqys.. haven been updating haf i? anieways... been pretty busy these past few days..

had the parent teacher meeting.. had quite a lot of negative remarks. arghh!!! but Mrs Chew was vry nice abt me. lols. awww... even Mrs Luah is being understanding. i'm like so so touched but yeahh.. Mr Lee was da cruelest one!! i was killed by him. oh my sorrowful heart!

anieways.. had tuition and all.. so yeahh.. nth much to update on. btw.. did i mention tt BRYAN's BACK! lols. yepps. tt cute guy is back. weee!! i've gt my fren back..

anieways.. i miss him lots! lol. i mean.. i dunno... my feelings for him cn sometimes be so intense..haizz.. but i tink.. its juz not da time yet... yeahh... like many of wat happened btwn me & my crushes.. they never knew. lols. so yeahh.. =) ciaoz.

life shucks...

urgh.. i took a day off from doing homework. my eyes are juz so so sleepy!! todae had a meeting abt da dinner thingy.. its in June. da 2nd. argh!!! lols. crazy me.

anieways... nth extraordinary happened todae... teehee. except mayb da dinner part but i shall not divulge anything tonite. mayb tomoro... lols. yepps.. anieways...

I CANT STOP THINKING OF HIM!!!! arghhh!!! tt sucks to da core larhx. i mean.. wat da hell.. here i am trying to forget him but its like so so so hard. haizzz... anieways... my entries from now onwards are like gonna be short. cos my mind is wandering and i am really really tired. haizz.. and i still cant believe MT Written Paper for O lvl is in less den 2 months time! argh!! ciaoz.

Firefly come back to me...

changed my song according to my mood... haizz... life has been pretty ko i guess. teehee. lols. but well.. atleast i'm finally taking up the path to better student. i am actually doing some of my homeworks. nopes. its actually MOST of my homeworks.

anyways.. one thing's for sure.. i miss him loads. i juz cant stop thinking of him larhx. haizz.. its so hard larhx... is like.. rarely see him now larhx.. aiyox.. so sadded larhx...

but nevermind. i shall juz strive to work hard AND play hard! yesh! anieways.. sry for da short post. no feeling larhx.. lols. aiite. ciaoz.

Firefly come back to me
Make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
Tell me that you're lonely too.

P A I N

arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! my body ache all over!! OMG. it aches like siao larhx! and all bcos of wat? bcos of kayaking! urgh. i oso had a cut on my ankle. ouchie. =( tis was wat happened.

18th March 2006
Dionne smsed me late late at nite wen i was aledi asleep, that she cudnt go. so wen i read it early at like 5.35am.. i was like... ''wat da fcuk...'' . Hui Ting backed out. Joce said she's sick. and now dionne. arghh! i felt so.. wadeva. tts like da most ugliest way of waking me up! i thought of not going at all... budden i thought again. wat da hell.. juz cos dey not going den i oso dun go? hmmm..

in da end... i WENT. there weer oni a few ppl larhx.. like less den 20 actually. lols. so yeahh.. i'd expected a lot of ppl... so yeahh.. i was da loner there.. everyone came in 3s or 2s... i was like.. LONELY....

on da bus throughtout the whole journey to the place ermm... Lim Chu kang dere.. forgot da name of da place... i talked on the phone with Hui Ting. lols. she was dere to cheer me up! yeah! thx sista! so yepps. denn went dere... blah blah blah.. partnered wif tis gal called Grace from Ping Yi Sec...

she was like irritating larhx. ''eh, turn left turn left.. i wan go to my frens..." it was like so friggin irritating larhx. so wat da heck... den blah blah blah.. we found out sth terrible. our kayak got crack!! PANIC ATTACK!!!! cos our kayak got water larhx.. at first i thought it was normal.. but i thought wrong. uh oh...

so we had to kayak back to shore.. being the amateurs tt we are.. we cudnt kayak bak!! DOUBLE PANIC ATTACK!!!! and da next thing u noe... i was surfacing from da sea. we CAPSIZED!!! lols. my GAWD. and our instructor told us to swim bak to shore wif da kayak.. we tried but wat da hell.. da current was pulling us larhx. thk GOD we were wearing lifejacket.. else i'd DIED.

to keep da story short.. a male saved us. he's.... tall dark & handsome... NOT! he's a cute apek larhx... lols. cute rite? he took us into his boat. so yeahh.. wadeva it was.. more things happened. cut myankle against tis moldy rock... urgh. and yeahh...atlast we ewre back on shore. waited for like 20 minutes? or less? for other kayakers to come bak. den Grace & me decided to skip it. NO MORE kayaking.

den made new frens.. wif Suba & Ming Xi. teehee. they are a cool pair! seriously. totally. so yeahh.. we clicked so fast. den from den on.. things started falling into place. lol. i got to know 2 girls from Chong Cheng Sec... Cheryl and.. i dunno da other name... and Grace turned out to be pretty nice too. lols. so yeahh...

19th March 2006
so todae i woke up wif aching body and all. it really hurts la.. my arms cannot tahan larhx.. aiyo... b4 tt.. da nite b4.. i had really strange, scary dream/s. its like all jumbled up larhx.. until i was totally breathless. da funny part was tt i kep FARTING! lols. and oso wen i burped rite... its so... gas-sy. urgh. so yeahh.. den went to breakfast.. den home.. den did bio notes.. chatting. and yeahh.. seriously. life is slacking rite now. urgh. help me pls.

what a boring dae!

cn u believe it? i've been rotting da whole dae todae! argh!! cannot tahan lerhx larhx! so tut lorhx. do nth at hme.. tho gt hw.. but like no feeling to do nehh...

todae i woke up like around 10++ ?! lols. late rite? cos atlast todae need not wake up so early to go sch. toade no sch!! yay!! den watched tv... around 12++ den i go bathe... weeee! smelly smelly horx? lols.

todae i WAS trying to do my hw.. but den da feeling is juz not there... teehee... gets a lil worrying now but wat da heck...

tomoro got my kayaking course. weee! cant wait sia.. teehee... am going wif Joyce & Dionne. teehee. both my juniors lorhx.. but nvrm.. since hui ting pangsehh me.. i shall still enjoy myself! yay!!

anieways, i miss him lots. i noe i told Jas tt i no longer like him. but well, its nt really tt easy to JUZ forget someone. i really dun like him anymore but tt doesnt stop me from juz tinking of him. lols. i'm not sure if tt makes sense. wat da hell. ciaoz.

weeee!

guess wat peeps? today 407 made bread, yogurt & rice wine! weeeee! lols. it was fun really u noe...

todae had SS early in the morn. then afta tt wenta brunch wif debbie, jas, jane & sharifah. lols. we laff & tok abt lotsa things... then yeahh.. afta we ate ate ate.. we proceeded to da Home Econs room.. time for some cooking!!

its been like wat? 2 years since we all last cooked in that room? lols. it was cool u noe. Mr tan pre-prepared all the stuff so tt tomoro we need not come bak lah... we made our own bread & all... mine was in a shape of a tortoise.. Jane helped me make! lols. it was real cool.

then yeahh... went home wif da 3 pigs & Pris... den the pigs went off to buy the stuff for Flag Dae & Pris & I went home together. lols. den i was feeling a lil bit restless cum lethargic. i dunno wats wif da combination but yeahh... and now i'm here blogging. teehee. i've gotta go find my frameless specs la... cos my eyes now cannot wear tis spec le.. haizz.. stupid lah....

oh ya.. i made a layout of wat i wan my room to be like in da future. i'm starting to save up now. weee! but tis nt easy lor.. prolly in like 3 months time? haizz.. tts hard man... but nvrm. tis shall be my first serious personal project eva. yeah! ciaoz.

weeee!! no more camp!

teehee. cn u belive it? camps' over!! woohoooo!! its like.. da MOST relaxing camp eva... and oso da most boring larhx... cos.. we nvr do much actually... its basically juz tent pitching.. axemanship and outdoor cooking oni mahh... denn make us stay until like 3 daes 2 nites lorhx.. haizz..

anieways... my patrol won the award. yay!!! its sth like the house thingy... but tis time oni Guides involved larhx.. DUH.

anieways... life has been pretty stressful larhx.. wat wif my sis breathing fire dwn my neck. urgh! and now the chers have changed the dinner date again. and moz prob it wont even be a DINNER. it'd be like erm... BBQ??!! tts like so tut rite?! Neo aledi resign. gave up lerhx. den Joon Wei now askin me How... ermmm.... refund?! weeee!!!! ima sadist. =)

anieways, todae POA, i learnt sth. i RE-learnt Trading & Profit &Loss account. wakrakakakka. so fun rite?! teehee... anieways.. den wenta J8 wif Joyce & company.. lols. it was so stupid lorhx. sit dwn dere for like an hour & a half juz eating & talking. weeee! so i guess tt'll be prolly all for tadae bah... sry nvr blog often. too busy larhx. doin nth. diao. ciaoz!

a BBq to remember... teehee.

afta all those upheavals of fights wif my family, they finally relented to let me go for the bbq. BUT, jas didnt go. urgh. pangsehh lorhx!!

so met up wif da three pigs. got extremely wet b4 we even got there. cos it was raining so damn heavily! wakrakakka.. i oni brought along one t-shirt.. on which i didnt intend to change to cos i didnt intend to get wet. met up at the YCK mrt. for once, all came on time. lols.

wen we came in to the condo, Neo, Dominic, Alson & Nick if ia int wrong were there. lols. i thought nth of Neo warning me to keep my hp in my bag. lols. bad choice. anieways.. went up to Haudy's condo.. nvr been in a condo b4 so wat da heck.. its really REALLY nice...

turned out that a few other ppl were there aledi.. & yeahh... Shane was there too. lols. shane.. our deal hasnt been fulfilled... so yeahh... denn we got bad news.... uh oh...

da bbq pitt cudnt be used!!! arghh!! da guys were bu shuang lerhx... Nick was in a foul mood lorhx.. so yeahh... $300 worth of food cant be bbq-ued lorhx.. BUT. the guys had really wonderful ideas... they decided to COOK!!

how sweet is tt?! so da small; kitchen was SO occupied lorhx. lols. blah blah blah... we had da food cooked. and guess wat? i actually pulled out heads of prawns!!! urghhh!!! ask Vani & Guan Yi... lols. i was so so squemish. blargh!

so yeahh.. they decided to go swimming then.. i was tempted too. the pool was glorious at nite... so yeahh.. tempting... but Haudy said those w/o swimming costume cannot enter so yeahh... i contented myself wif juz dipping my feet. but den it seemed like some fully clothed were in..

Neo got out of da pool & wet me. soon enuff, Shun joined in & they two pushed me dwn. arghhh!!!! Shun, hw cn u do this to me?!! but Shun, ur body not bad la horx? lols. my lil baby bro. weeee! i go complain to mummy lerr... but horx, Sharifh put up a huge fight wen we tried to get her in. lols. she was rolling on the pavement for ppl's sake! lols. but in da end. she got DUNKED!!

so yeahh.. tts basically wat happened. teehee. to Jas, u missed out on the fun gal! and yeahh... mum didnt really nag. went home wif Dominic & Neo. took same bus. den it was home sweet home time.. teeeheee... it was really nice u noe... last year of school & yeahh.. tis is how we shud party. the most memorable BBQ indeed. ima miss them all. awww shucks... ciaoz.

P.S: i sipped a lil bit of alcohol! weee! beer. from thailand. diao. thx Shane!

life totally suck.

oh fuck it. tis fucking post got deleted. wat da fuck. goddamit. even my fucking computer is going against me. wat the fuck sial...

i hate my fucking life rite now. its juz so fucked up. i juz hate my life & my family rite now. i juz hate dem all. i dun receive that family support from them. wat did my mum do wen i showed her da book i published? put it aside & tended to other stuff. wen she suddenly wanted to brag abt sth abtr her children.. DEN she remembers abt it.

what does my family do wen i fail my tests, wen my teachers complain abt me? they scold me & threaten me. BUT my frens encouraged me to study harder... they talked to me abt wat i did to deserve da scoldings.... THEY supported me.

i dun see the joy & grandness of being scolded & embarrassed in front of my peers. my sis resorted to tt wen i was in primary school. for gods sake! how old am i?! i'm fucking 15! wats her fucking prob?

so wat if i've been flunking my tests?! i NEED support. i CRAVE for support. do dey noe tt i've been contemplating on wat paths to take for my future career so tt i cn support THEM?! do they noe tt da money they gave me, i keep thinking thrice of how to spend it & why i shud spend it?! NO!

they dunno anything abt me. they misunderstaood my intention. they misjudged my intention. they doubted my words & intention. they dun seem to noe me at all. THEY. THEM who were supposed to know me inside out. They who shud show me moral support. teach me moral courage. show me family love. i juz dun understand dem.

haizz...

i so stressed la! got tt cheerleading thingy.. SIAN. and Fan! arghhh!! i feel so tut lorhx...

todae.. i cudnt help but be a lil depressed. sth happened earlier tis morning wen i was abt to get out of da hse... dad & mum were fighting... bcos of me & stuff... more of my thang kinda thingy.. huh? nvrm. wadeva. so yeahh.. depressed me a lil. cudnt help but cry while walking to school & in da council room. thk gdness no one saw. yeah.

so todae stayed for cheerleading practised. played wif Mao Hui. lols. *plays tt sexy song* Mao Hui keeps trying to tickle me. lols. BUT. i tickled him back. he's VRY ticklsh dwn dere.... where? his legs larhx... lols.

and yeahh... stayed till like 5++ den i felt SO lethargic.... i cudnt take it anymore larhx... so yeahh... went home instead of accompanying my mates to buy the stuff.. i'm really sry yaar? i was really lethargic & darn pissed i dunno why.. so i didnt want to be a bitch & fcuk u guys up aiite? sry yeah?

so tis Saturday am off to Haudy's hse. mayb staying over? dunno larhx. prolly not. mom wont allow it. haizz... i dunno why but sometimes i find tt... my parents pay attention to me at da wrong time. haizz.. and my sis. my gawd. she's still using the tactic she did wen i was in primary school.. "i'll come dwn ur school & meet all ur frens..." she nvr quits embarrasing me in front of my peers. WHY?!

and its not helping much wif me missing him. i cudnt help it but wen i thought of someone cheating on him... i felt.. urgh. tt gal is a bitch. lols. anieways.. haven been receiving morning greetings from him.. another him larhx. he's coming back on da.. 22 if i aint wrong?! haizz.. nvrm. i tink i need to go off now. one things for sure.. I MISS HIM.

Love. Love. Love.

haizz.. wat da heck.. i juz cant stop thinking of him lorhx.. but nvrm. i shall strive hard to forget him la. teehee.

anieways, nth much happened. juz been missing him lots & lots. lols. plus yeahh.. now gonna be vry busy lerhx.. guess wat?! i am like the CHEERLEADING LEADER. lols. so i'm a CHEERleader. lols. cool ehh? and our House Name has been changed to HERCULES. teehee. so cute rite?!

and yeahh.. todae was da PSL investiture. it was their first so yeahh.. but it was pretty cool u nooe.. atleast they had a dance u noe.. haizz... so sadd.. councillors didnt haf lor.. all cos not enuff time & ppl not attending. lets wait till its ur turn to organise. hah!

anieways, todae had meeting abt da Student Leaders' Dinner & Dance. so yeahh... we're doing it next SATURDAY. 18th MARCH. in erm... SCHOOL HALL. lols. yeahh.. so wat da heck larhx.. =) .

and people, do appreciate wat we haf for you okies? its not easy to cater to everyone's needs. thx yeah? ciaoz.

bf & gf suffers same fate...

I was violently ill yesterday yea? Had a very very bad twisted tummy pain...teehee.. but afta a good rest, i was ok..

now my bf had to go to da hospital yesterdae... KK hospital.. da A&E section... =(.. the whole family went ya noe? and yeahh.. dere wasnt many people.. but we hadta wait for a long time still... we went off at 11++ pm.. den yeahh.. i smsed Jas & Seng.. trying to keep my mind distracted...

He received injection & all.. Doctor diagnosed it as stomach flu. ='( i was so so sadd.. but i didnt show.. my sis was already so tired... & my mum so worried... da males were worried too but they didnt show.. so wat da heck.. i'm considered half-male? eh? lols.

we hadta wait for my bf to pee cos they needed to do some tests... so yeahhh... afta all da kaboom & kabaam... we all went home at 2++ am or 3++ am... all i noe is tt i was dozing off in the taxi... and i remembered that we reached home at around 3.45am.. lols. cos i was groggily changing out of my friggin pants..

and now yeahh.. tis morn woke up at 10.45am. lols. did my malay compo.. & now proceeding to da SS sourced-based qns. i tink i AM deteriorating. shit. cos i dun understand some stuff. yikes! ciaoz.

What Hurts The Most

This song is so so beautiful.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

[chorus]
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

[chorus]

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Song by: Rascal Flatts

The highlighted words are those that fits da bill of my situation. haizz...

i'm sick.

went for tuition this morning... finished my E Maths homework & started on new chapter for E maths. teehee. met up wif Jas & wenta pay my phone bill... den we went for lunch at KFC. as usual, i ordered shrooms' meal... i changed da drink to Milo tho this time.. and urgh. it was THICK! and yeahh... straight afta my meal, i had a terrible tummy ache!

i tink its cos of tt Milo... so Jas & I rushed to da bus stop to go my hse... jas waited downstairs... budden she later smsed her parents called cos dey wanted to go out... so she left first.. shortly afta tt, i went to da toilet again. argh!! it hurts!

afta all those toilet visits.. i was so weary, i read a lil & went off to sleep! and now i am awake!! and so so healthy!! lol. okie dokie. i tink tts mainly all.. oh yeahh.. Brett's considering travelling to Singapore... to meet me! lols. how cool is tt?! ciaoz!

3 March 2006

the Walk of my Life

i walked from home, to the 7-eleven uphill, downhill, to Neo's house, to Bishan Park then walk home. wat the hell...

surprisingly tho my feet dun hurt. lol. its all cos of tt Neo's fault! urgh! he's not at all gentleman-ly. urgh. he cycled all da way and nvr accompany me. wat da heck... so tut rite.. and yeahh.. now i noe where Mr Lee Lik Teck lives. eew.

anieways.. had Guides todae... Alson & Zhen Kai [ itink tts da spelling] took us.. its for our proficiency badge. arugh!! lol. wat da heck. anieways.. nth much happened really. went home wif Debbie, Kua & Neo.. teehee... ciaoz.

Oh What A Day...!

Well..well..well.... today during VE lesson, Mrs Chew singled me out to have a small chit chat. She asked about my plans and everything. About my future larh basically. then she said sth abt me everytime play wif Shun Wai.. haizzz

but seriously, now the three muskeeteers haf been paying attention during class lorhx! Shun teaches us Maths while the other two of us just help in everything we can. But Shun is actually smart. go boi !

todae afta school, stayed back in class for dunno wat reason wif Sharifah... den we went off in the end wif Neo & Diana... but as we left the MRT station [buy bus pass], Diana went off. Then the three of us idiots wenta watch movie.

Neo wanted to watch Final Destination 3 but i didnt want to. It looks scary. so yeahh.. we wenta watch Big Momma's House 2 . Its actually boring but some scenes spiced up the whole movie. so wat da heck. den blah blah blah.. lotsa things happened todae in which i am vry lazy to type & share wif u ppl. so yeahh... printed out alll those notes & all. den yeahh.. hafta now go wash all those kitchen stuff that Neo bought. ciaoz.