My Bad

i wrote tis juz now and i tink i pressed sth wrong cos the whole thing went blank again... *argh!!!* irritatin.. anieways... i was saying... its real hard to maintain relationships online... really hard... i mean... there is a serious need of trust and everythin...

December 8 2003, i got to know 2 guys... Brett and Brian... i'd known brian quite some time back but on tat day, i really really got to noe him... i juz got to noe brett on da same day... these two guys... made deep impact on me actually... yeah..

i really wud like to meet tis people face to face..i want them to get to noe me beta... online... i feel tat i am a different person... offline..i tink i'm a better person... i want to drop all these false pretense...

wif brian... i really want to feel his touch and kisses.. i want to feel him... see him and talk to him... wif brett... i want to get to noe him beta... i want him to noe tat our frenship is important to me...

i tink online, i am totally totally different... i want to be the nura that everyone who have been wif me before noes. i dun enjoy cybering... i do it cos... i'm juz bored... and wif brett... its hard to chat wif him online... da atmosphere seems different... only in emails can i really 'talk' to him and be myself... wen he's online and i try to chat wif him.. i juz dunnoe wat to say to him.... da same goes for brian a lil bit...

tis coming december 8... i dunnoe if i'll be happy... brett doesnt seem to chat wif me much nowadays... and brian... he hasnt been online since November 9.. Life really seem so bleak sometimes... i guess i beta go now... i'll send in a lil sth done by David... i spent Christmas wif him last year... tis year... mayb i'll be spendin it alone... my family dun celebrate it... :( see ya peeps...