okies. sorry guys for haven been blogging conscientiously. teehee. anieways, i'm juz so tired of blogging sometimes. lol. but well, its like a routine already so wat da heck.
anieway, my links are dwn at da moment. lol. sth crazy goin on. still tryna figure out da link parts. lol. anieways... new things happened & yeah i tink i'm pathetic now. haizz
i met this new guy called Chris. as always, from the net. haizz. he's not like other guys i usually chat too. he doesnt haf a hot bod or hot face. but he's gd-lookin. he's got piercings & tattoo but doesnt lok at all menacing. he's really sweet u noe. he is so into kids and all. father material.
now da thing is.. he said he's got this intense feelings for me. and tt he had been thinking of me, him & kids while he was working. wellll... its usually the kind of thing tt I wud be thinkin abt but now it seems to go da other way round. lol. i dunno whether to be comforted or not. teehee. i dun wan it to be another of those Brian - David episode.. damn. i'm such a klutz man. wats wrong wif me.
i juz realise tt. the oni guys i noe are those from my school. those who, i meet & go out wif as frens are guys from my own schools. talk abt widenning my social circle. urgh! its so sad man. darn it. yati asked me along to some gig and i said i'd think abt it and she said sth tt made me think hard... "how are u gonna meet new peeps if u dun go out?" tok abt ouch. lol. but i dun mind
wat she said is kinda true. da oni time i go out is to da library or go out wif frens. haizz. sadd sia. i wanna meet guys. as frens first but well. i juz haf got not enuff confidence. da one guy whom i befrended is called Azi. and we smsed & i went out wif my sis to meet my bro in law actually, den still my sis' bf. my bro is frens wif him. he's 19 or 20. but well, wen i meet him, i got tongue-tied cos he's really cute. so i didnt tok to him or een dare to look at him. lol
in da end we stopped smsing and all. later i heard from my sis, he said tt i seem arrogant and seem disinterested in him. lol. double ouch. teehee. yepps. i tink tt sort of scarred me from meeting other guys. hehe. so yeah, i'm such a sad person. triple ouch. anieways, ciaoz.
13 December 2005
10 December 2005
SnowQueen
Darn. My feet is aching right now. I can take it no more. now am at da KB cyber cafe again. lol. wif Ravi & Yati. teehee. Mom aint at home. fed up so aint goin to sis' hse. so i met up wif yatee la. teehee. now i noe how Richard looks like. eew.
Anieways, SnowQueen was cool!! teehee. we were 15 minutes late tho cos Rahmat was darn late. waited for like 45 mintues for him yet he didnt arrieve. so yeahh tt was at AMK. den went City hall... denn saw Mami & her fren & her fren daughter. lol. but Rahmat was still not dere. so we waited for him for like a few minutes budden afta tt me & da other two went to da Esplanade first.
da Snowqueen was really nice. it was really like da sh ow i saw on the tv. lol. but it was cooler to be like watchin on on ur face. but well, now i dun feel like blogging ya. so yepps... blog later. ciaoz.
Anieways, SnowQueen was cool!! teehee. we were 15 minutes late tho cos Rahmat was darn late. waited for like 45 mintues for him yet he didnt arrieve. so yeahh tt was at AMK. den went City hall... denn saw Mami & her fren & her fren daughter. lol. but Rahmat was still not dere. so we waited for him for like a few minutes budden afta tt me & da other two went to da Esplanade first.
da Snowqueen was really nice. it was really like da sh ow i saw on the tv. lol. but it was cooler to be like watchin on on ur face. but well, now i dun feel like blogging ya. so yepps... blog later. ciaoz.
dun look no further!
Weeee!! It's 7.32am here but i'm all perked up. teehee. wanna noe why? *comes closer* *whispers* i'm going to watch Snowqueen todae! *jumps up & dwn* weeee!!
yesterdae my aunt asked if i wanna go watch Snowqueen so i said why not. so todae i was sound asleep [atlast!] wen my mum woke me up wif da baby. she had to shit. lol. so i was groggy & took da baby to sleep beside me. den AGAIN she woke me up. my aunt was on da fone. she asked if i wanna go to Snowqueen. wth?! i nodded my head & got up straight afta tt. lol. its at 12. meeting up wif my aunt at 11 at Esplanade!
so now i cant wait. dunno wat to wear actually. lol. sth..... nice? duh! oh yeah. one nite, i REALLY cudnt sleep tt i tink i hallucinated it. suddenly i woke up [ahh at last i slept] & found da conditio of da room to be diff. u noe those scenes on movies wen dey make dark looming room? ahh sth like tt. den my eyes hurt like siao!! i dunno y. it juz hurt. so wen i lie on my tummy, i'd wanted to brush sth off my face wen i actually POKED my eye. POKED. i got long finger nails darn it!!
so now. i'ma wear a black sleeveless shirt. elegance man. and mayb... jeans? lol. yeppp jeans mayb. wif da jackset. yepps. denn i'm done. weeee!! so pretty aiite? teehee. alritey denn. i'll blog later tonite to tell u abt da show. weee! ciaoz.
yesterdae my aunt asked if i wanna go watch Snowqueen so i said why not. so todae i was sound asleep [atlast!] wen my mum woke me up wif da baby. she had to shit. lol. so i was groggy & took da baby to sleep beside me. den AGAIN she woke me up. my aunt was on da fone. she asked if i wanna go to Snowqueen. wth?! i nodded my head & got up straight afta tt. lol. its at 12. meeting up wif my aunt at 11 at Esplanade!
so now i cant wait. dunno wat to wear actually. lol. sth..... nice? duh! oh yeah. one nite, i REALLY cudnt sleep tt i tink i hallucinated it. suddenly i woke up [ahh at last i slept] & found da conditio of da room to be diff. u noe those scenes on movies wen dey make dark looming room? ahh sth like tt. den my eyes hurt like siao!! i dunno y. it juz hurt. so wen i lie on my tummy, i'd wanted to brush sth off my face wen i actually POKED my eye. POKED. i got long finger nails darn it!!
so now. i'ma wear a black sleeveless shirt. elegance man. and mayb... jeans? lol. yeppp jeans mayb. wif da jackset. yepps. denn i'm done. weeee!! so pretty aiite? teehee. alritey denn. i'll blog later tonite to tell u abt da show. weee! ciaoz.
09 December 2005
tell me that it's over
Oh well. Haven been blogging yeah? lol. been meaning to but cant seem to find da discipline to actually log in & blog. lol. anieways, i found sth rather neat. it ws cool really. but i'll post it later. or as u've seen it up dere [da post b4 tis] , abt da Cancerian & Tauran? tts da one.
lol. stupid la. but its kinda nice to read abt ur own horoscope ya? wee! anieways, got to noe tis guy called Chris. well... he aint TT gd looking but he's really really sweet. lol. he's one of the two guys who proposed marriage to me. teehee. denn Shane & Eddie want to meet up wif me. lol. its not Shane TEOH. its another shane. seriously, he's cute! he;s got dimple for gawd's sake!!
anieways, todae, 9.30 am i was aledi in sch. got meeting. waited for Mr Zaman & all. finished a lil afta 12 budden got another meeting & finished at 3. lol. abt 4 1/2 hours dere? wow. lol. rotted & all. oh yeahh and Cheryl hee left me to drown wen she didnt turn up & we had to each explain our... proposals. lol. thk God Agnes helped. Thkies Ah-gh-neh. teehee.
anieways, Xmas is approaching fast. haizz.. wonder who i'll be spending it wif. i seriously wan company u noe. haizzz.. sadd la.. if u wana celebrate wif me or atleast cuddle up wif me, call me up ok? sms me or sth. or email me or tag me. thkies ya. =)
lol. stupid la. but its kinda nice to read abt ur own horoscope ya? wee! anieways, got to noe tis guy called Chris. well... he aint TT gd looking but he's really really sweet. lol. he's one of the two guys who proposed marriage to me. teehee. denn Shane & Eddie want to meet up wif me. lol. its not Shane TEOH. its another shane. seriously, he's cute! he;s got dimple for gawd's sake!!
anieways, todae, 9.30 am i was aledi in sch. got meeting. waited for Mr Zaman & all. finished a lil afta 12 budden got another meeting & finished at 3. lol. abt 4 1/2 hours dere? wow. lol. rotted & all. oh yeahh and Cheryl hee left me to drown wen she didnt turn up & we had to each explain our... proposals. lol. thk God Agnes helped. Thkies Ah-gh-neh. teehee.
anieways, Xmas is approaching fast. haizz.. wonder who i'll be spending it wif. i seriously wan company u noe. haizzz.. sadd la.. if u wana celebrate wif me or atleast cuddle up wif me, call me up ok? sms me or sth. or email me or tag me. thkies ya. =)
08 December 2005
You're Gone
"what will i do if i cant be wif you
tell me where do i turn to
baby where will i be
now that we are apart
am i still in your heart
baby why dun u see
that i need you here wif me"
`the truth remains you're gone.
I love tis song! lol. Gone by 'N sync
'B' for bloody & bastards. Bloody Bastards.
okay. i dunno if itz purely coincidental or fate or watsoever, but i actually got to know Brett the same dae i got to noe Brian. tok abt fate or mere coincidence!
but well, it proves tt gettin to noe guys wif da name startin wif B on Dec 8 is not recommended.
Both disappoint me in some ways. u noe, actually sitting back and lookin at myself. juz reflectin bak on who i am and how i reacted, i find tt i was stupid. i mean, wats da point of hankering afta two guys who barely know me? its true, dey dunno da real me. so far its me behind a facade of other 'mes' on da net.
"i used to think i haf da answers to everythying
but now i noe tt life doesnt always go my way
...all i need is time, a moment that is mine while i'm in betwn."
but well, it proves tt gettin to noe guys wif da name startin wif B on Dec 8 is not recommended.
Both disappoint me in some ways. u noe, actually sitting back and lookin at myself. juz reflectin bak on who i am and how i reacted, i find tt i was stupid. i mean, wats da point of hankering afta two guys who barely know me? its true, dey dunno da real me. so far its me behind a facade of other 'mes' on da net.
"i used to think i haf da answers to everythying
but now i noe tt life doesnt always go my way
...all i need is time, a moment that is mine while i'm in betwn."
Happy Anniversary, Baby
It's two years now. Well, it would have been yeah? Just wanna say that i really treasure all those moments we had. lol. foolishly said, i felt ur love going through all those cables. =)
But oh well, it still hurts to noe tt u wont tok to me again. i saw that u were online a few daes bak on yahoo msn. y didnt u reply baby? i miss u so much baby, i miss u so. Anieways, Happy Anniversary, baby.
But oh well, it still hurts to noe tt u wont tok to me again. i saw that u were online a few daes bak on yahoo msn. y didnt u reply baby? i miss u so much baby, i miss u so. Anieways, Happy Anniversary, baby.
06 December 2005
I Love...
Before i die or anything, i juz wanna tell this people tt i love dem. in alphabetical order.
A - Ain ; Ayin ; Abang Man ; Apple
B - Brian ; Brennan
C - Chris ; Cherish
D - Diana ; Diyana
E - Eddie ; yeah i like u, u silly beng.
H - Hidayah ; Hui Ting [stupid ckn]
I - Irfan =)
J - Julia ; Julie ; Jason [sry we were not meant to be]
L - Linda
M - Mami ; Mamat
N - NURA =) i lurve myself
O - Osman ; Oyah
P - Parmes
R - Ryan ; Ravi ; Rahmat
S - Sharifah ; Shari ; Shalz
V - Vani
Y - Yatee
i lurve these people wif my heart & soul. i may not say it or show it buti feel it.=)
itz not tt i'm gonna die. but i juz wanna expresse my profound love to these people. those whose names are not here ; either i've forgotten [ouch] or u disappoint me [double ouch].
A - Ain ; Ayin ; Abang Man ; Apple
B - Brian ; Brennan
C - Chris ; Cherish
D - Diana ; Diyana
E - Eddie ; yeah i like u, u silly beng.
H - Hidayah ; Hui Ting [stupid ckn]
I - Irfan =)
J - Julia ; Julie ; Jason [sry we were not meant to be]
L - Linda
M - Mami ; Mamat
N - NURA =) i lurve myself
O - Osman ; Oyah
P - Parmes
R - Ryan ; Ravi ; Rahmat
S - Sharifah ; Shari ; Shalz
V - Vani
Y - Yatee
i lurve these people wif my heart & soul. i may not say it or show it buti feel it.=)
itz not tt i'm gonna die. but i juz wanna expresse my profound love to these people. those whose names are not here ; either i've forgotten [ouch] or u disappoint me [double ouch].
Hey Sexy Momma!
i changed da bedsheet. i cleaned da room. i cooked. i cleaned da hse. da oni thing i'm missin is a guy comin hme from work and kissin my forehead. lol .
aiite. i spent my dae doin nth muc actually. lol. denn i chatted to ppl i noe on da line and one vry cute guy. lol. Chris. he's sweet ya. asked me if i had sex & i said n ot until i'm married and he said... wat if we meet & we like each other & everything goes well.. wud u marry me? teehee. tts like ermm... 2 marriage proposals b4 i even hit 18. lol. wat a joke man.
anieways, tomoro is da dae of me tuition. dunno wat to expect. weee! nrm me. okies.. me left fingers got some beige-y colored nail polish.. while me right has da transparent one. lol. it lookes weird. & my nails are friggin long. weeee! especially da ones on my left. vry long ya..
anieways, i'm off to shake my booty booty to da music!! been shakin all dae. lol. now dat my music box is workin, i cn even jiggle all da way in my bathroom! weeee! kk. soon gonna jiggle dere. teehee. need my aromatic cream bath. my dearie cream bath, here i commmmmeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kinky. =P ciaoz.
aiite. i spent my dae doin nth muc actually. lol. denn i chatted to ppl i noe on da line and one vry cute guy. lol. Chris. he's sweet ya. asked me if i had sex & i said n ot until i'm married and he said... wat if we meet & we like each other & everything goes well.. wud u marry me? teehee. tts like ermm... 2 marriage proposals b4 i even hit 18. lol. wat a joke man.
anieways, tomoro is da dae of me tuition. dunno wat to expect. weee! nrm me. okies.. me left fingers got some beige-y colored nail polish.. while me right has da transparent one. lol. it lookes weird. & my nails are friggin long. weeee! especially da ones on my left. vry long ya..
anieways, i'm off to shake my booty booty to da music!! been shakin all dae. lol. now dat my music box is workin, i cn even jiggle all da way in my bathroom! weeee! kk. soon gonna jiggle dere. teehee. need my aromatic cream bath. my dearie cream bath, here i commmmmeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kinky. =P ciaoz.
05 December 2005
Weeee!
12am. mother daughter. watching Hindi movie. Kal Ho Naa Ho. tears. lol yepp stayed til late to watch da movie tt meant "Tomorrow May Not Be" . i tried hard not to cry resulting in a horrible headache. lol
plus. yesterdae da turbulance effect from the wave thingy stuck wif me even til late night. lol. i closed my eyes and felt myself bobbing up & dwn wif da wave motion. lol. horrible. and now i still haf dat headache.
sis & hubby came over to our house to spend da nite wif me nephew. and each of us looked like grilled prawns. lol. i looked so much darker now man. u cn juz see da sunburn takin effect. lol.
and in two daes time, i'm off for my very first tuition lesson. lol. da tuition agent asked if i wan female or male teacher. i pondered for a while acutally before she actually asked da qn. if its a male, if he's gd-lookin, i wont be able to learn anything except the contours of his face prolly. lol. if he is not gd-lookin, somehow someway i wud develop feelings for his inner traits. lol. tts weird rite? haha. so i'd rather not take any chances and preferred a female one. teehee.
anieways, everytime i scratch myself now it feels as tho i'm tearin my skin apart. ouch! teehee. aiite denn. i'll go now and type me remainin story. lol. yeahh in case some of u wonder, my book is published yeah ; Picking Up The Pieces, but its not for da public unfortunately. but oh well, it suck anyway. i'm writing a new story. a short one i tink but i'll post dem on Chocolate. aiite? see ya. hope u guys drop in there once a while. see ya! ciaoz.
plus. yesterdae da turbulance effect from the wave thingy stuck wif me even til late night. lol. i closed my eyes and felt myself bobbing up & dwn wif da wave motion. lol. horrible. and now i still haf dat headache.
sis & hubby came over to our house to spend da nite wif me nephew. and each of us looked like grilled prawns. lol. i looked so much darker now man. u cn juz see da sunburn takin effect. lol.
and in two daes time, i'm off for my very first tuition lesson. lol. da tuition agent asked if i wan female or male teacher. i pondered for a while acutally before she actually asked da qn. if its a male, if he's gd-lookin, i wont be able to learn anything except the contours of his face prolly. lol. if he is not gd-lookin, somehow someway i wud develop feelings for his inner traits. lol. tts weird rite? haha. so i'd rather not take any chances and preferred a female one. teehee.
anieways, everytime i scratch myself now it feels as tho i'm tearin my skin apart. ouch! teehee. aiite denn. i'll go now and type me remainin story. lol. yeahh in case some of u wonder, my book is published yeah ; Picking Up The Pieces, but its not for da public unfortunately. but oh well, it suck anyway. i'm writing a new story. a short one i tink but i'll post dem on Chocolate. aiite? see ya. hope u guys drop in there once a while. see ya! ciaoz.
04 December 2005
Tiring Dae Babe
phew! went swimming todae wif my family & relatives. lol. went to Jurong. so tut lor. nth muc dere really 'cept for da slides, da waves & da turning turning thing. lol. spent my time at da turning turning thing.
go round and round da pool so many times. den at da Wave pool oso. waited for the waves oso. wahh.. altho is at swimming pool hor but it felt like at some sea lor. scary!! went as deep as 1.6M. but is damn deep derr lorr.. hahar. but we were on da buoy la.
den afta tt go da round round thing wif me nephew. lol. he loved it!! lol. he paddled wif his legs. so clever rite! hehe. anieways..now me vry daark. tink i'm gonna go put some lotion on. lol. so tut. pain lor. see ya. ciaoz.
go round and round da pool so many times. den at da Wave pool oso. waited for the waves oso. wahh.. altho is at swimming pool hor but it felt like at some sea lor. scary!! went as deep as 1.6M. but is damn deep derr lorr.. hahar. but we were on da buoy la.
den afta tt go da round round thing wif me nephew. lol. he loved it!! lol. he paddled wif his legs. so clever rite! hehe. anieways..now me vry daark. tink i'm gonna go put some lotion on. lol. so tut. pain lor. see ya. ciaoz.
03 December 2005
turning
My life is turnin for da better now i guess. my tuition's set. A & E maths. 100 bucks per month. cheap rite? its face to face someore. nice. ok lar. atleast i got wat i wanted. and sort of accomodate wif mum. yea..
anyways, todae went to Toa Payoh to search for a buoy for my nephew. tomoro we goin Jurong for a swim!! lol! we'll be off by 10 tomoro. meetin up wif my aunt & uncle. lol. we're gonna haf fun baby!!
anieways... todae quite a couple of thoughts ran through my mind but i forgot wat. lol. sadd la. anieways.. now i wan to go off ler. got nth to sae. teehee. cya. ciaoz.
anyways, todae went to Toa Payoh to search for a buoy for my nephew. tomoro we goin Jurong for a swim!! lol! we'll be off by 10 tomoro. meetin up wif my aunt & uncle. lol. we're gonna haf fun baby!!
anieways... todae quite a couple of thoughts ran through my mind but i forgot wat. lol. sadd la. anieways.. now i wan to go off ler. got nth to sae. teehee. cya. ciaoz.
02 December 2005
frigginly stuupid.
well well well... can u believe tt i'm actually at some cyber cafe wen i actually ahaf a com at home? lol its tupid i noe but i juz had to get away from mama and diddy.
its gettin pretty stressing sittin at hme. mum keeps askin me to pick a friggin tuition entre. so stressed! but anyways, i'm now out wif Ravi & Yati. da two ppl wjom in da past i wudnt actually go ouit wif. i mean not on such a close rapport but ppl change ya? and i like it. =) firstly, i wanna thk dem for bein here for me. =) teehee.
anieways, am goin off now. mum actually smsed me. lol. sometimes i sympathise wif her. sometimes i love her a lot. sometimes she juz puts WAY too much stress on me. stangely, i miss my family now. oh well. i'm a sad case ya? ciaoz.
its gettin pretty stressing sittin at hme. mum keeps askin me to pick a friggin tuition entre. so stressed! but anyways, i'm now out wif Ravi & Yati. da two ppl wjom in da past i wudnt actually go ouit wif. i mean not on such a close rapport but ppl change ya? and i like it. =) firstly, i wanna thk dem for bein here for me. =) teehee.
anieways, am goin off now. mum actually smsed me. lol. sometimes i sympathise wif her. sometimes i love her a lot. sometimes she juz puts WAY too much stress on me. stangely, i miss my family now. oh well. i'm a sad case ya? ciaoz.
01 December 2005
FUCK it!
I hate my life rite now. 'Quit and start work" my dad keeps sayin and its gettin on my nerves! i so hate my life. its at tt point of time tt i realise i AM useless!!
i so hate it now. everyone is blaming me for tis and tt. wen my dad's phone bill goes up its alwaes me! wat abt Mama whose alwaes using da fone to tok to my aunt?! y wen da electricity bill goes up dey blame me for playin on da com so much?! wat abt Mama switchin on da com from mornin den nvr off it til i later take over to play?! wat abt Mama playing com and watchin tv at da same time?! y is it alwaes me?? y is it cos i'm da youngest?! wat da fuck sia.
i'm so fucking pissed riite now. so fucking pissed. i've had thoughts of running away from hme but tt doesnt solve it all. fuck it. my life suck shit. i hate my life now. i've got no one i cn really tok to. Brett is busy wif his fucking things. i'm starting to think twice as to y i call him a gd fren. god, i feel like a cheap slut. fucking whore. fuck you. oh wat da fuck. darn it!!
life juz suck rite now man. i'm friggin tired of my mum askin me to call up tuition centres. "find cheap ones and those subjects tt u wan.." wtf?! cheap?! since wen education is cheap?! wat da fuck sial. quit school? alrite denn. i shall go work. be a fucking whore. get loads of money within hours. oh if lucky, minutes!! i'll be a fucking whore and i'll be a fucking laughing stock in da family.. "haha. study abroad. yeah rite. piece of shit aint she now?!" i cn hear tt comin from my relatives. fuck shit.
i'm gettin da fuck outta here. go brush my fucking teeth. and fuck my fucking self. i hate myself like tis. but i cant help it. wen no one seems to tink u're worthy, wen NO ONE is dere for u... u r juz branded da biggest LOSER & LONER on da face of Earth. thk you. now. fuck off.
i so hate it now. everyone is blaming me for tis and tt. wen my dad's phone bill goes up its alwaes me! wat abt Mama whose alwaes using da fone to tok to my aunt?! y wen da electricity bill goes up dey blame me for playin on da com so much?! wat abt Mama switchin on da com from mornin den nvr off it til i later take over to play?! wat abt Mama playing com and watchin tv at da same time?! y is it alwaes me?? y is it cos i'm da youngest?! wat da fuck sia.
i'm so fucking pissed riite now. so fucking pissed. i've had thoughts of running away from hme but tt doesnt solve it all. fuck it. my life suck shit. i hate my life now. i've got no one i cn really tok to. Brett is busy wif his fucking things. i'm starting to think twice as to y i call him a gd fren. god, i feel like a cheap slut. fucking whore. fuck you. oh wat da fuck. darn it!!
life juz suck rite now man. i'm friggin tired of my mum askin me to call up tuition centres. "find cheap ones and those subjects tt u wan.." wtf?! cheap?! since wen education is cheap?! wat da fuck sial. quit school? alrite denn. i shall go work. be a fucking whore. get loads of money within hours. oh if lucky, minutes!! i'll be a fucking whore and i'll be a fucking laughing stock in da family.. "haha. study abroad. yeah rite. piece of shit aint she now?!" i cn hear tt comin from my relatives. fuck shit.
i'm gettin da fuck outta here. go brush my fucking teeth. and fuck my fucking self. i hate myself like tis. but i cant help it. wen no one seems to tink u're worthy, wen NO ONE is dere for u... u r juz branded da biggest LOSER & LONER on da face of Earth. thk you. now. fuck off.
Hard To Say I'm Sorry
aiite. someone said to me, "Maybe you're looking to hard or you're not looking at all" . I believe, i am the earlier one. lol. so i've told myself, like its my new mantra , wen i see any guys, i'd go.. "no dun look. dun try to hard.." lol i tink soon i'll be falling into da latter.
anyways, i juz realise that its hard to fall out of love. lol. its not really a juz thing but well yeahh. in a week's time, its my so called anniversary wif Brian. the second year. i nvr knew in that one year, so many things can happen. anieways, enough lamenting.
anyways i juz realise tt in other ppl's blog, dey write abt wat they did for that day. but well, mine is mostly abt wat i'm feleing. tts a great contrast ya? =) oh shit. i feel sadd again. darn it. lemme get it all out aiite? next post alrite?
anyways, i juz realise that its hard to fall out of love. lol. its not really a juz thing but well yeahh. in a week's time, its my so called anniversary wif Brian. the second year. i nvr knew in that one year, so many things can happen. anieways, enough lamenting.
anyways i juz realise tt in other ppl's blog, dey write abt wat they did for that day. but well, mine is mostly abt wat i'm feleing. tts a great contrast ya? =) oh shit. i feel sadd again. darn it. lemme get it all out aiite? next post alrite?
make the right decision babe
well, i read a book by James Patterson tis morning called ''Sam's Letters to Jennifer'' . It was really nice u noe. and yeahh, rite now my nephew is crying so badly and my mum is trying to pacify him - get him to sleep. and wat is da SUPERB aunt doing? listening to loud music, blogging, chattin wif Geraldine discussing on sch events. lol
"so lemme slip away!! lemme slip against da current!!" lol. Vindicated. i LURVE loud music baby. lol. so yeahh, todae i practiced a lil self-discipline by not switchin on my com until at around 2. lol. so hapiie.
right. great. now i'm battling wif my mum. she increased da volume of da tv. lol. and wats on on tv if not Commando. right. nice. so now i'm trying to lose myself to da vry loud music of mine. teehee. hehe.
anieways, i'm goin off now. wanna chat wif Ger more abt da stuff we're lining up for studs in our sch. its a whole new year next year!
"so lemme slip away!! lemme slip against da current!!" lol. Vindicated. i LURVE loud music baby. lol. so yeahh, todae i practiced a lil self-discipline by not switchin on my com until at around 2. lol. so hapiie.
right. great. now i'm battling wif my mum. she increased da volume of da tv. lol. and wats on on tv if not Commando. right. nice. so now i'm trying to lose myself to da vry loud music of mine. teehee. hehe.
anieways, i'm goin off now. wanna chat wif Ger more abt da stuff we're lining up for studs in our sch. its a whole new year next year!
30 November 2005
i'm lovin' it!
yippee! afta so long, i've finally changed my template! teehee. da previous one is da longest i had on. ahakz.
anieways, if da song dun suit ya, do inform. i juz fell in love wif dis song wen i heard it. teehee. so swwweeeeet! lol
anieways, now dat my template has changed, ima blog in more. lol. juz lookin at it sets my heart to type in more. anieways, following Ravi's advise, ima start writing again.=) da published book was ermmm shaky but pretty good attempt. ima do more ya.
ima start wif writing short stories again i guess. i tink i've got an iea forming up in here. teehee. ibetta go type it out. see ya peeps! oh yeah, to catch my short stories, click links and go to Chocolate if i aint wrong. yepp. see ya!
anieways, if da song dun suit ya, do inform. i juz fell in love wif dis song wen i heard it. teehee. so swwweeeeet! lol
anieways, now dat my template has changed, ima blog in more. lol. juz lookin at it sets my heart to type in more. anieways, following Ravi's advise, ima start writing again.=) da published book was ermmm shaky but pretty good attempt. ima do more ya.
ima start wif writing short stories again i guess. i tink i've got an iea forming up in here. teehee. ibetta go type it out. see ya peeps! oh yeah, to catch my short stories, click links and go to Chocolate if i aint wrong. yepp. see ya!
itz sad. so sad.
my life has been very boring the past few daes. been just sitting at home and doing nothing. had several arguments wif my mum in da mornings but den yeahh.. things are ok afta tt.
but yesterdae in da late afternoon, i went to the library. read a book den borrowed 8. lol. den ermm... went home but mum said she wanted to go to the Bazaar at AMk Central. so yeah.. waited for dem...my whole family la. den went bak to central. lol. den walk walk walk... wen S-11 to eat dinner. vry late dinner actually.. den off we go hme in da rain.
yati smsed me in da wee morning to tok on da fone wif Ravi but i off my fone cos da batt was vry muc dead. so yepp. heard dey chatted till 4.30 in da morn. lol. cute. anieways.. i'm now searchin for a job. sth permanent i guess. my family is truly suffering now. feel so depress sia. haizz..
anyone, noe of where to get good jobs? apart from fastfood joints. either sms me or email me ya? or juz drop me a msg on da tagboard. thkies ya. greatly appreciate it. =)
but yesterdae in da late afternoon, i went to the library. read a book den borrowed 8. lol. den ermm... went home but mum said she wanted to go to the Bazaar at AMk Central. so yeah.. waited for dem...my whole family la. den went bak to central. lol. den walk walk walk... wen S-11 to eat dinner. vry late dinner actually.. den off we go hme in da rain.
yati smsed me in da wee morning to tok on da fone wif Ravi but i off my fone cos da batt was vry muc dead. so yepp. heard dey chatted till 4.30 in da morn. lol. cute. anieways.. i'm now searchin for a job. sth permanent i guess. my family is truly suffering now. feel so depress sia. haizz..
anyone, noe of where to get good jobs? apart from fastfood joints. either sms me or email me ya? or juz drop me a msg on da tagboard. thkies ya. greatly appreciate it. =)
28 November 2005
would you be my girlfriend?
can i sae this? i haf got NO idea on how to be a gf. yepp. i dunno. i noe tt i wud act weird in front of someone i like. yeahh. tts totally weird.
and yeahh.. i've nvr been in a relationship here. so yeahh.. wat da heck. i'm not sure if i'm making sense. tis chinese guy, saw my pic and all and we chattted and he asked me to be his gal. but ermm.. i dunno. haven meet so cant sae. den he said he's injured cos he was in a fight. well... ah beng? urgghh! not sure nehh.. how? wat if i really dun like?
i prefer someone like me. romantic... sweet. someone like... well.. Brian. darn it. damn brian! shit assed! i gotta go now. *sigh* see ya.
and yeahh.. i've nvr been in a relationship here. so yeahh.. wat da heck. i'm not sure if i'm making sense. tis chinese guy, saw my pic and all and we chattted and he asked me to be his gal. but ermm.. i dunno. haven meet so cant sae. den he said he's injured cos he was in a fight. well... ah beng? urgghh! not sure nehh.. how? wat if i really dun like?
i prefer someone like me. romantic... sweet. someone like... well.. Brian. darn it. damn brian! shit assed! i gotta go now. *sigh* see ya.
26 November 2005
Hapiie Hour
Weee! todae i had an enjoyable dae without gettin my ass busted! teehee.
i was supposed to go out with Hui Ting but she pangsei me at the last minute lor. well, partly itz my fault i guess cos i invited Shari & Tem [Syahidah] in at da last minute.
hui ting said she didnt feel like leavin home. itz one of those daes wen u feel tt u wud rather stay at home den go out.. yepp. lol. so yeahh, i went out wif tem & Shari.
so i met Tem earlier but since we were both late in meetin each other, we decided to wait for Shari. we tot of goin to J8 first. but we forgo dat & waited for Shari. lol. LOTS of train went by but Shari didnt come. we were to catch 'Just Like Heaven' at 1.50 at Plaza Singapura but it was nearly 1.15 den. but thk god he arrived in da nick of time!
den we wenta watch da movie. sat three rows from da front. lol. eyes pain u noe. den we took some pics. walked around a lil. oh!! 'Red Lily' da third book from Nora Robert's Garden Series is out!! well..if oni someone cn get it for me for Xmas... *hint hint* lol
den we went to Bugis to eat. Spent abt an hour i tink. eating & toking. den we walked to Esplande. along da way, explored some shops. nice... :P teehee. den reached Esplande at around 6.35pm ? so yeahh.. took lotsa pics around dere [will be posting dem tomoro.] den went home. lol. pretty boring u may sae but we had lotsa fun! and all those pics. my garsh. both my memory cards were full! teehee.
anyways, i'm off to chat wif Joe now. gdnite ppl!
i was supposed to go out with Hui Ting but she pangsei me at the last minute lor. well, partly itz my fault i guess cos i invited Shari & Tem [Syahidah] in at da last minute.
hui ting said she didnt feel like leavin home. itz one of those daes wen u feel tt u wud rather stay at home den go out.. yepp. lol. so yeahh, i went out wif tem & Shari.
so i met Tem earlier but since we were both late in meetin each other, we decided to wait for Shari. we tot of goin to J8 first. but we forgo dat & waited for Shari. lol. LOTS of train went by but Shari didnt come. we were to catch 'Just Like Heaven' at 1.50 at Plaza Singapura but it was nearly 1.15 den. but thk god he arrived in da nick of time!
den we wenta watch da movie. sat three rows from da front. lol. eyes pain u noe. den we took some pics. walked around a lil. oh!! 'Red Lily' da third book from Nora Robert's Garden Series is out!! well..if oni someone cn get it for me for Xmas... *hint hint* lol
den we went to Bugis to eat. Spent abt an hour i tink. eating & toking. den we walked to Esplande. along da way, explored some shops. nice... :P teehee. den reached Esplande at around 6.35pm ? so yeahh.. took lotsa pics around dere [will be posting dem tomoro.] den went home. lol. pretty boring u may sae but we had lotsa fun! and all those pics. my garsh. both my memory cards were full! teehee.
anyways, i'm off to chat wif Joe now. gdnite ppl!
25 November 2005
Intermission Ended.
lol. self-taken pics are oftenugly in my case. but
wat da heck. me bf at da bak.
lol.
me & vani.we were feelin exceptionally
SWEET.
Food! glorious food!dwn at Pastamania.
in da lift at National Library.itz huge !!
Photograph - Nickelback
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red?
And what the hell is on Joey’s head?
This is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneakin’ out
This is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must’ve done it half a dozen times
I wonder if it’s too late
Should I go back and try to graduate
Life’s better now than it was back then
If I was them, I wouldn’t let me in
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It’s hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say , time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye
We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we’d know
We said someday we’d find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel
Kim’s the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She’s had a couple of kids since then
I haven’t seen her since God knows when
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It’s hard to say,time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say,time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye
I miss that town
I can’t believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it
If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change
[chorus again]
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red?
And what the hell is on Joey’s head?
This is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneakin’ out
This is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must’ve done it half a dozen times
I wonder if it’s too late
Should I go back and try to graduate
Life’s better now than it was back then
If I was them, I wouldn’t let me in
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It’s hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say , time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye
We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we’d know
We said someday we’d find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel
Kim’s the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She’s had a couple of kids since then
I haven’t seen her since God knows when
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It’s hard to say,time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say,time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye
I miss that town
I can’t believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it
If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change
[chorus again]
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me
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heart-warming!
hehe. i tink i'll be a copycat! i tink those who frequent her blog wud noe who i am copying ya? lol. i'm shameless. Garsh!
dearest Vani ; lol. yes i remember that all too clearly too! and tts all thx to our dear Parmsy-Warmsy. did i mention tt on tt morning, the first thing i tot of was, "i'm going out with Parmsy-Warmsy today," lol.
bella-iest Diana ; lol. dun we juz LoVe to rape each other?! lol. and yes, given the opportunity, i'd rape Mr Potter too. i'd kill Myrtle again & get in the bath tub wif him. i realised, its huge ! lol. & as for Brett? naww. Potter is too hot for anybody. Brett cant hold his stick to Potter's. :P
craziest Yati ; oh gurl, i wanna watch it again too!! hehe. moz prob i AM. muahahahaha. wanna join me gurl? den we can like u noe.. oogle at Potter's bod & ermm.. curly & wispy armpit hair. did u realise his nipples got hair too?!
lol! enuff abt hair & all. lol. thx for tagging u guys!! luv y'all!!
dearest Vani ; lol. yes i remember that all too clearly too! and tts all thx to our dear Parmsy-Warmsy. did i mention tt on tt morning, the first thing i tot of was, "i'm going out with Parmsy-Warmsy today," lol.
bella-iest Diana ; lol. dun we juz LoVe to rape each other?! lol. and yes, given the opportunity, i'd rape Mr Potter too. i'd kill Myrtle again & get in the bath tub wif him. i realised, its huge ! lol. & as for Brett? naww. Potter is too hot for anybody. Brett cant hold his stick to Potter's. :P
craziest Yati ; oh gurl, i wanna watch it again too!! hehe. moz prob i AM. muahahahaha. wanna join me gurl? den we can like u noe.. oogle at Potter's bod & ermm.. curly & wispy armpit hair. did u realise his nipples got hair too?!
lol! enuff abt hair & all. lol. thx for tagging u guys!! luv y'all!!
pretty tame life
oh garsh, i'm so friggin boredd! yikes! i tink all my systems are switching off any moment now. nothing interesting has happened da past few daes!!
went for da 3 dae SPH camp thingy & yeahh. Saw 2 eurasian guys, Mark & Daniel if i'm not wrong. hehe. Mark is 16... a very low voice ; baritone as dey called it. Daniel is... i duno. Just saw him from afar and chanced upon his name wen his fren called him.
hehe. da food dere were DELICIOUS!! lol. oni some looks and/or taste weird. lol. Genevieve, Amanda, Yong Jie & Mrs Sng got pretty tired of me saying, "tis taste weird " lol.
den wat else? nth muc happened afta tt. Brett didnt come online. i led a very boring life da past few daes. no ne online tt i cud tok to or watsoeva. Joe was sweet tho. he tried to hanky-panky but i turned him dwn so many times. lol. Sry Joe. hehe.
tmro am goin out wif Hui Ting. yay!! enjoyment at last!! going Orchard... den go Esplanade den Bugis. hehe. moz prob. we're trying to be very notti on tt dae. hehe. try to chat up some ang moh. lol. we are gals who are unwanted ; atleast for me. so yeahh... gonna take lotsa pics & yeahh. lol. cant wait for tomoro!! anieways, i'm gonna go off now. go chatrooms better. hehe. see ya!
went for da 3 dae SPH camp thingy & yeahh. Saw 2 eurasian guys, Mark & Daniel if i'm not wrong. hehe. Mark is 16... a very low voice ; baritone as dey called it. Daniel is... i duno. Just saw him from afar and chanced upon his name wen his fren called him.
hehe. da food dere were DELICIOUS!! lol. oni some looks and/or taste weird. lol. Genevieve, Amanda, Yong Jie & Mrs Sng got pretty tired of me saying, "tis taste weird " lol.
den wat else? nth muc happened afta tt. Brett didnt come online. i led a very boring life da past few daes. no ne online tt i cud tok to or watsoeva. Joe was sweet tho. he tried to hanky-panky but i turned him dwn so many times. lol. Sry Joe. hehe.
tmro am goin out wif Hui Ting. yay!! enjoyment at last!! going Orchard... den go Esplanade den Bugis. hehe. moz prob. we're trying to be very notti on tt dae. hehe. try to chat up some ang moh. lol. we are gals who are unwanted ; atleast for me. so yeahh... gonna take lotsa pics & yeahh. lol. cant wait for tomoro!! anieways, i'm gonna go off now. go chatrooms better. hehe. see ya!
22 November 2005
Singapore Press Holdings Camp
well, i went for it. itz da first dae so yeahh..everything is kinda mellow. hmmmm, mostly sat through the theory from ermmm 9++ till abt 4.45?? yepp. lol
hmmmm, Mrs Sng called me at 9.17am & i JUZ woke up! but cos my fone cant receive any fone calls... i rejected her call but my mind was racing. i TOTALLY forgot abt da camp thingy, i meant, i tot it was on Wednesdae so yeahh..
i bathed & called Mrs Sng. lol. we agreed to meet at 9.45. arrived at Braddell but didnt see da others. saw Mrs Sng & her husband drove us to da building. sweet ya?
so overall it was pretty ok. Gen, Amanda & Yong Ji i tink is his name. yepp, i was da oldest. grreat. i feel old now. lol. cya!
hmmmm, Mrs Sng called me at 9.17am & i JUZ woke up! but cos my fone cant receive any fone calls... i rejected her call but my mind was racing. i TOTALLY forgot abt da camp thingy, i meant, i tot it was on Wednesdae so yeahh..
i bathed & called Mrs Sng. lol. we agreed to meet at 9.45. arrived at Braddell but didnt see da others. saw Mrs Sng & her husband drove us to da building. sweet ya?
so overall it was pretty ok. Gen, Amanda & Yong Ji i tink is his name. yepp, i was da oldest. grreat. i feel old now. lol. cya!
21 November 2005
hopelessly devoted to euu..
i love this guy to pieces. well, i noe itz stupid & silly and totally retarded of me to still be tinkin of him afta all this while... but i miss him.
i'm nt someone who forgets a person easily. especially when we are emotionally tied.atleast for my side tt is. well, xmas is comin & i've got no idea wat i'll be doin. i remeber mentioning tt i miss da past.
well, i do. da past... it was so much easier for my life to go on by. There were lots of people to tok to ; Dave, Brett, Brian, Joe, Mike & Orion. but now, it seems like i'm so alone. *sigh*
i wrote to Brian once. lol. "so i got this letter from this girl ... and it was so cute cuz it says "thank you mr. postman" on the edge and it made me laugh ... but this girl always makes me laugh ... and onetime she made me cry ... but we won't talk about that ... i just love her so much ... i wish she was here with me ...". oh garsh, i love him so much.
"i love you as the flower loves the sun" ... as much as a need as a want, much lust but infinitely more love.."
how much truth does that hold now? oh garsh... i keep cryin juz by readin his emails. i noe itz stupid u guys... but i cant help it. i miss him. i can never forget him. never.
itz a beautiful daee!!
we wenta da National Library.these are da books that we 3 took. 
tts a big tree ya? hehe. xmas is comin' [sniffles]
tts a big tree ya? hehe. xmas is comin' [sniffles]& dya see da two idiots at da base?!
ohhh. there dey are! lol
and guess who we saw? lol.
ohhh. there dey are! lolIndia & Pakistani brides at
matchmaker.com
and guess who we saw? lol. Batman!! tho he was juz lip-syncing!
da pretty babys!! weee!
da pretty babys!! weee! errmm, in da Ladies.
wot da hell is she tryna do?!
wot da hell is she tryna do?! if ur answer is "i dunno", well, mine too!
hehe. Parmsy-Warmsy!! we're at some cafe waitin for dat Vani.
hehe. Parmsy-Warmsy!! we're at some cafe waitin for dat Vani.richie gals arent we, Parmsy?!
Yay!! I saw me baby!!
weeeeeee!! i watched Harry Potter & The Goblet Of Fire at last!!! lol. i am SO friggin' excited!! lol
i watched it wif Yati. oni da two of us. lol. i cried when Cedric died cos Harry cried & it sort of got to my heart. hehe. silly i noe but i'm nt cold-hearted u noe. however, quite a couple of things were cut out or rather altered in the movie... so yeahh.. AND.. Harry didn't kiss Cho Chang. I hafta to sae tho, she IS pretty.
anieways, da cast looked fairly da same from da 3rd movie. oni Fred & george looked HANDSOME ; wicked. lol. and me & yati cracked up all da time. "heyy, wud u go to da dance wif me?" =P lol. so yati, wud u? =D
anieways, my internet was off yesterdae. cos of some telephone line problem. hehe. so now i'm bak!! and lotsa things happened u noe!! hehe. i'm sure u wud noe wat by now [wen u read tis entry. tt is.]
cy'all! =)
i watched it wif Yati. oni da two of us. lol. i cried when Cedric died cos Harry cried & it sort of got to my heart. hehe. silly i noe but i'm nt cold-hearted u noe. however, quite a couple of things were cut out or rather altered in the movie... so yeahh.. AND.. Harry didn't kiss Cho Chang. I hafta to sae tho, she IS pretty.
anieways, da cast looked fairly da same from da 3rd movie. oni Fred & george looked HANDSOME ; wicked. lol. and me & yati cracked up all da time. "heyy, wud u go to da dance wif me?" =P lol. so yati, wud u? =D
anieways, my internet was off yesterdae. cos of some telephone line problem. hehe. so now i'm bak!! and lotsa things happened u noe!! hehe. i'm sure u wud noe wat by now [wen u read tis entry. tt is.]
cy'all! =)
18 November 2005
sorries!
hmmm i cant link anyone of u people yet. so i apologise ya. =)
but i will get right dwn to it really soon.
thanks for waiting!
huggies to all.
i'm crazy.
yeah.
bye.
=)
but i will get right dwn to it really soon.
thanks for waiting!
huggies to all.
i'm crazy.
yeah.
bye.
=)
16 November 2005
details forgotten.
lol@ emb. oh yes i rmb tt now! we came back to our chalet like at 11 plus near midnight. and by the time it was my turn to bathe, it was past midnight.
and Banu who was da first to bathe, said she felt as though someone was watching her and all. so i was got frightened and told emb to accompany me INTO da bathroom. lol! itz hilarious seriously!
dere were two cubicles. one to bathe da other to pee or watsoeva. emb accompanied me to both. told emb not to peek! lol. and emb was like.. "u asked for it!" lol. but emb didnt peek at all. hehe. thkies! i was closest to emb towards da later part of da nite. hehe. and da wee mornin too. and yeahh.. thkies to all da peeps who came for da chalet! and to those who kept askin me if i was ok... hehe i am so touched! :D
and Banu who was da first to bathe, said she felt as though someone was watching her and all. so i was got frightened and told emb to accompany me INTO da bathroom. lol! itz hilarious seriously!
dere were two cubicles. one to bathe da other to pee or watsoeva. emb accompanied me to both. told emb not to peek! lol. and emb was like.. "u asked for it!" lol. but emb didnt peek at all. hehe. thkies! i was closest to emb towards da later part of da nite. hehe. and da wee mornin too. and yeahh.. thkies to all da peeps who came for da chalet! and to those who kept askin me if i was ok... hehe i am so touched! :D
weee!
okies. i am goin for another day camp which is lasting for 3 daes at da Singapore Press Holdings. lol. Mrs Sng called me this afternoon to tok abt it all. I thought it was in December!! lol. and yeahh.. she asked me if i wanted to proceed on in the debate class thingy. Nope. i'm just not ready. yet.
haizzz.. tokin abt December, Christmas would be arriving not so soon but soon. lol. and yeahh... i miss my past. hehe. all those times of chatting wif David during the late nights. camming and singing! lol. and durin da daes where i chat wif brian and all. hehe.
last year christmas was sadd for me. it used to be receiving of emails by my frens from all over da wolrd but yeahh previous yr it was juz plain sadd. tis year.. i wonder wats gonna happen. hehe. mayb will be out? aint sure.
anyways, i'm off now. am so friggin' bored. hehe. cya y'all!
haizzz.. tokin abt December, Christmas would be arriving not so soon but soon. lol. and yeahh... i miss my past. hehe. all those times of chatting wif David during the late nights. camming and singing! lol. and durin da daes where i chat wif brian and all. hehe.
last year christmas was sadd for me. it used to be receiving of emails by my frens from all over da wolrd but yeahh previous yr it was juz plain sadd. tis year.. i wonder wats gonna happen. hehe. mayb will be out? aint sure.
anyways, i'm off now. am so friggin' bored. hehe. cya y'all!
15 November 2005
i want to ride my bicycle...
a song by Queen. and i SO disagree wif dem. my pantat ochey aledi u noe! meaning my butt sore aledi! lol. and itz juz nt mine alone lor... is 12 other people oso. had our chalet yesterdae. quite disappointin cos da people who were suppose to come didnt turn up. but wadeva. denn me, Jasmine & Melissa went to East Coast earlier to check out where's da chalet. den we rented bikes overnite ar. tt was at 1.20pm. we were at da jetty at around 2 sth.enjoyin scenery and wind. den we met up wif da rest of dem. oh & tt was af ta da long ride bak to our chalet and den meet da rest again at da bicycle rental shop. 5.30 meet bak at chalet. all go cycling. at 4.45 however, da food we ordered were to be delivered. so da few of us rushed to carpark D2. it was tiring. really. weee. food. glorious food. budden, i cycled out wif Ger to buy thongs at 7-11. long ride again.butt ochey ler. den saw Rudy squattin by da roadside. da 309 geeks left him behind cos dey had bikes where he had to run afta dem. geeks! so i accompany him ride/run until Ying Chao came bak to save him. den off i wen bak to da chalet. tiring! night riding! afta bbq, we all chiong go jetty. chiong chiong chiong... reach jetty. den i climb over da barrier together wif others to sit on da ledge. once drop, u drown. i noe mama wud kill me alive but it WAS cool. den climb bak. and we cycled all da way bak to da other jetty. meaning goin through da long ride to our chalet den proceedin on from dere to Bedok jetty i heard. WTH?! my kneecaps were really burning! i cudnt take it anymore!! so had difficulties. blah blah. reach jetty, i lied dwn. cannot endure ler. cross my leg, cannot uncross. lol. TTS hw bad it was. but wen goin bak, i took da double rider bike. i sat wif Josh. hehe. he paddled all da wae 'home' while i tried to tok to him so as to not make hin slp. u go Josh! den dey wanted to bbq again. den i and hui ting went upstairs wif da rest. dey play games, we tok & tok den play play. den afta a while, me & hui ting lie dwn on da beds. ready to slp. but i cudnt slp. bluek. 4 sth most of us woke up except for cheryl & gang. so wat did we do? wee mornin riding!! lol. we went to da jetty AGAIN to catch sunrise but wen they saw lightning, dey decided to go bak. so we wenta Mac instead. sat there for 15 minutes juz relaxin our muscles. nvr order anythin lor except Ye Sheng. afta breakfast at 6 [fang jun ate my hashbrown]. we cycled bak to chalet. woke da rest up ask dem go breakfast den we all chiong in da room. 2 straight hours, no disturbance. all peace. all slept. morning woke up again, see da rest gone. oni da few of us. went dwnstairs. den ended up slpin on da table! lol. den later went up again & slept again. atlast! go home time!!! hehe. skipp da rest. CYCLE again to bicycle shop, return bikes den we use our legs to bring us to da bus staition. & from dere, we all went home. phew. now eatin maggie. lol. leg vry suan. cannot tahan lor. but yeahh.. it was really fun lor! oni now me nt gonna ride bicycle or a VERY long time. cya! |
11 November 2005
tired.sick.die-ing.
the camp's over. awwww. lol. i glanced a lil at Brendan then it's over. he's cute la but well, way too old for me. hehe.
anyways, todae mainly tok a lot. shared abt our Amazing Race experiences & stuff. den ermmm we had lunch denn... oh yahh we saw great vidds. lol. those entertainment kinda thingy lar.. vry interestin!
hmmm. am vry tiredd rite nw. haf been havin da flu for quite some time now. and nw gt da flu too! poor me. hehe. den wat else? oh yahh, todae afta da camp thingy rite, we saw an injured bird... poor thing! lol.
den went to da NTUC to buy da chalet food but...no money! lol. and jasmine waited for us for 45 minutes but we didnt buy anything! lol. she was like... wat da heck! lol. vry funny.
and brett. i'm hurt by what u said. i dun wanna hear abt u. heart broke. u hurt me. ouch.
anyways, todae mainly tok a lot. shared abt our Amazing Race experiences & stuff. den ermmm we had lunch denn... oh yahh we saw great vidds. lol. those entertainment kinda thingy lar.. vry interestin!
hmmm. am vry tiredd rite nw. haf been havin da flu for quite some time now. and nw gt da flu too! poor me. hehe. den wat else? oh yahh, todae afta da camp thingy rite, we saw an injured bird... poor thing! lol.
den went to da NTUC to buy da chalet food but...no money! lol. and jasmine waited for us for 45 minutes but we didnt buy anything! lol. she was like... wat da heck! lol. vry funny.
and brett. i'm hurt by what u said. i dun wanna hear abt u. heart broke. u hurt me. ouch.
10 November 2005
Oompa Loompa
| US got Holly, India got Bolly. Singapore neh? Singapore got... i see Oli! lol. tt was da conversation that took place between me & Yan Ling at Orchard. The student leaders were having our Amazing Race there! lol. and yeahh. it was part of the Leadership Programme. i didnt noe Amazing Race cud be SO friggin' tiresome. but we saw Olinda & Najip Ali. wow. we ran to da first checkpoint. & ran all the way to the second i tink. not sure but we ran till my lungs felt as though it was on fire. lol. i hafta say tho tt da Newbies were a cool bunch of people. Atleast in my group. dey were really havin' a good time from wat i saw & my grp laff alot! the Oompa Loompa consisted of 15 student leaders. we had 7 old ppl & 8 newbies i tink. hehe. a lot of peeps man. yepp and we had lotsa fun. oh yeahh. Brendan is cute! he's one of da instructors around. wee! |
06 November 2005
"Melodi rintihan hati ini..."
pheeew... itz been a greatt time so far all this Hari Raya-ing. lol. and yeahh.. i like good outside.. but in pics i suck man. eew. haizz..
anieways, todae went over to my second uncle house afta 5 long yrs of dispute. WOW. da womenfolk cried except for me and it was well... overwhelming. yepp.. den we stayed dere for quite a long while.. den we were off. tt is afta seekin forgiveness and all. tt sorta thing lar.
sooo... next week i'll be friggin busy! wif councillors' stuff, CAmp.. hmmm dentist thingy... den go hari raya-ing again... wot else? oh yeahh.. been chattin quite frequently wif Brennan. poor baby.. he's havin prob wif his gal... awww... *hugz Brennan* hope everything goes well for u hun!
time to go! ciao!
anieways, todae went over to my second uncle house afta 5 long yrs of dispute. WOW. da womenfolk cried except for me and it was well... overwhelming. yepp.. den we stayed dere for quite a long while.. den we were off. tt is afta seekin forgiveness and all. tt sorta thing lar.
sooo... next week i'll be friggin busy! wif councillors' stuff, CAmp.. hmmm dentist thingy... den go hari raya-ing again... wot else? oh yeahh.. been chattin quite frequently wif Brennan. poor baby.. he's havin prob wif his gal... awww... *hugz Brennan* hope everything goes well for u hun!
time to go! ciao!
04 November 2005
"you gotta go find ur shining starr..."
oh well... itz da 2nd dae of Hari Raya & i've been ... Beeee zeeee!!! oh garsh! i keep washing and washing da friggin dishes & lay out da plates for peeps to eat. lol. i am now an accomplished waitress. thk yew!
anieways... da first day me family all seek forgiveness... i cried wen i was wif my sis... awwww... lol den yepp yepp... collected money money and more money. lol den i tink afta tt took lotsa pics... ermmm not really a LOT la... juz enuff to get by.. lol
anieways... me wanna go away for a while now... oh yeahh.. been chattin a lot of Di, Brett, Kenneth and some other ppl.. lol nice peeps dey are.. anieways.. goin now. ciao.
anieways... da first day me family all seek forgiveness... i cried wen i was wif my sis... awwww... lol den yepp yepp... collected money money and more money. lol den i tink afta tt took lotsa pics... ermmm not really a LOT la... juz enuff to get by.. lol
anieways... me wanna go away for a while now... oh yeahh.. been chattin a lot of Di, Brett, Kenneth and some other ppl.. lol nice peeps dey are.. anieways.. goin now. ciao.
02 November 2005
my tears of love turned into tears of hate.
My dad cried. tts da first time dat i see him cry juz like tt. and itz cos of TT person & his family. my so-called neighbour. i'm tellin u guys. i've nvvr seen my Dad cry so if dey come to my hse to seek forgiveness, i'd ignore dem. nuh uh. fcuk dem all. actin' arrogant in front of me. well den, we'll let da battle begin den.
enuff of tis. anyways, my life has been topsy-turvy. sometimes i cant take it stayin at home. other times i dun wish to leae home. ahhh... hmmm wat else.. oh yeahh.. been chattin wif brett.. got re-acquinted wif Joe. lol. tt guy is actually 17! and he's blonde. aiite.. himbo?! =P lol
anyways. Selamat Hari Raya you people out there. we'll go out soon yeah? =) see ya all!
enuff of tis. anyways, my life has been topsy-turvy. sometimes i cant take it stayin at home. other times i dun wish to leae home. ahhh... hmmm wat else.. oh yeahh.. been chattin wif brett.. got re-acquinted wif Joe. lol. tt guy is actually 17! and he's blonde. aiite.. himbo?! =P lol
anyways. Selamat Hari Raya you people out there. we'll go out soon yeah? =) see ya all!
"how cud tis happen to me..."
oh well, todae is da last dae of fasting and tomoro it'll be Hari Raya. =) well, somehow tis year, i dun haf da MOOD.
anieways, i find tt Brett and me are drifting apart. afta tt one nite especially. we juz sort of... drifted. i wanan chat wif him but i dunno wat to talk abt.. we didnt haf tis kinda prob before... and now.. he alwaes seem to be busy...
anieways, todae i wenta haf my hair cut. =D ermm layered and shorten. hehe. i tink i lok nice.. tho ermm not much diff.. i'm not even gd-lookin in da first place..so yeahh wat da heck.. aniewaes...am off to help clen da hse AGAIN. da things to clean juz goes on and on... haizz. see ya. oh yeah,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir & Batin.
anieways, i find tt Brett and me are drifting apart. afta tt one nite especially. we juz sort of... drifted. i wanan chat wif him but i dunno wat to talk abt.. we didnt haf tis kinda prob before... and now.. he alwaes seem to be busy...
anieways, todae i wenta haf my hair cut. =D ermm layered and shorten. hehe. i tink i lok nice.. tho ermm not much diff.. i'm not even gd-lookin in da first place..so yeahh wat da heck.. aniewaes...am off to help clen da hse AGAIN. da things to clean juz goes on and on... haizz. see ya. oh yeah,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir & Batin.
31 October 2005
30 October 2005
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oh well, da past few daes haf been goin on fine. =) yesterdae Diana [bdae gal], Nas, Shari, Syidah, Sharifah and me, hit da town. Walked around at Far East, Nas searchin for new shoes for Hari Raya. lol. she's got a big feet cos da shoes she liked didnt carry her size. lol.
den me and Diana were like buying fruits & pretending we werent malays. lol. we were speaking in mandarin.. those basic ones lar... lol. it was lame actually. da other three, Shari, Syidah and pah went off to some other shops larr.. lol. den we walked around and Nas & Diana went Wisma while da rest of us went This Fashion to look for clothes.
Shari was boredd to tears! lol. Syidah & Pah kept tryin on clothes tho they had no intention of buyin at first. but later dey each bought one. then i showed Pah da blouse tt i bought.. [i'll send in da pic] & yeahh we spent abt an hour or so there.
den we wenta buy Old Chang Kee food.. Diana and Me had started a lil bit... den we took da Mrt to go to Bugis la.. but durin tt time, it was already breaking fast time.. and i told dem to juz haf a bite so dat their fasting wont be annulled. wadeva u call it. but those idiots carried on to eat... den ppl kept lookin at us lor.. haizz..
den we took lotsa pics at Bugis!!! lol. we had wanted to eat da da rows of Chinese stalls, halal of course, but it was too crowded tt we went to the Raffles Hospital and ate at the Banquet there. lol. it was cool . but dere wasnt anythin dat appealed to me. so i followed into Diana's footstep - i bought fruits and honeydew milkshake. =D
hmmmm wat else? nth much actually. slept REALLY late again. was chattin wif Brett adn Hui Ting and some other more peeps. lol. oh ya... Pris went to Genting without telling me lor.. so sadded. few daes bak i slept at 3.30 am den yesterdae i slept ar 2.30 am... haizz.. i still feel weird bein in tt room.
den me and Diana were like buying fruits & pretending we werent malays. lol. we were speaking in mandarin.. those basic ones lar... lol. it was lame actually. da other three, Shari, Syidah and pah went off to some other shops larr.. lol. den we walked around and Nas & Diana went Wisma while da rest of us went This Fashion to look for clothes.
Shari was boredd to tears! lol. Syidah & Pah kept tryin on clothes tho they had no intention of buyin at first. but later dey each bought one. then i showed Pah da blouse tt i bought.. [i'll send in da pic] & yeahh we spent abt an hour or so there.
den we wenta buy Old Chang Kee food.. Diana and Me had started a lil bit... den we took da Mrt to go to Bugis la.. but durin tt time, it was already breaking fast time.. and i told dem to juz haf a bite so dat their fasting wont be annulled. wadeva u call it. but those idiots carried on to eat... den ppl kept lookin at us lor.. haizz..
den we took lotsa pics at Bugis!!! lol. we had wanted to eat da da rows of Chinese stalls, halal of course, but it was too crowded tt we went to the Raffles Hospital and ate at the Banquet there. lol. it was cool . but dere wasnt anythin dat appealed to me. so i followed into Diana's footstep - i bought fruits and honeydew milkshake. =D
hmmmm wat else? nth much actually. slept REALLY late again. was chattin wif Brett adn Hui Ting and some other more peeps. lol. oh ya... Pris went to Genting without telling me lor.. so sadded. few daes bak i slept at 3.30 am den yesterdae i slept ar 2.30 am... haizz.. i still feel weird bein in tt room.
28 October 2005
move OVER, Nora Roberts.
...and here comes da new author, Nura Osman. =D wakrakakakaka... as u cn prolly guess, i've received my published book. itz Mine.
ohh yeahh... i found several errors there as mentioned by Mrs Sng. lol. horrible la.. but yeahh... i'm so happy that i haf accomplished my dream - to write a book. yay!!
i guess itz sort of nice to achieve ur dreams. Mayb i shall now proceed to my next step to gain more self-confidence. I shall start to sing. in public. wakrakakakka.. jokin... cos u see, wenever i sing or scold in public... [da scoldin occurs to shoutin durin camps or watsoeva] my upper lip wud twitch. and it seems and feels funny. lol. so yeahh...
anyways, i wanna go away now... i'll blog again later. see ya! oh yeahh...
SCHOOL'S OUT!
ohh yeahh... i found several errors there as mentioned by Mrs Sng. lol. horrible la.. but yeahh... i'm so happy that i haf accomplished my dream - to write a book. yay!!
i guess itz sort of nice to achieve ur dreams. Mayb i shall now proceed to my next step to gain more self-confidence. I shall start to sing. in public. wakrakakakka.. jokin... cos u see, wenever i sing or scold in public... [da scoldin occurs to shoutin durin camps or watsoeva] my upper lip wud twitch. and it seems and feels funny. lol. so yeahh...
anyways, i wanna go away now... i'll blog again later. see ya! oh yeahh...
SCHOOL'S OUT!
24 October 2005
itz slowly sinkin in....
oh well...i'm havin difficulties tryin to put the old Brett into the new one. i'm not sure if i like him this way. He's converted to Islam and yeahh.. itz kinda nice to noe tt he's willin to embrace Islam. Though his reason was just that he's interested in it.
amd dave is on his way to Islamic World. lol. i dunno wat to sae abt tis. i mean tho my opinion means nothing but... it does feel weird to be all saint wen long ago we did outrageous things together. now its like... so proper. lol.
anyways, i'm gladd to haf brett bak in my life. Cant say much wat undoings he's doing to me rite now but yeahh... he'll foreva be my fren. lol. now i noe da true meaning of foreva frens. we got sort of separated due to some problem. itz been close to a year i guess since we last chatted. now we're bak to gether. there wasnt any awkward moments... except wen we were each absorbed wif our own things. him mainly gettin to noe Islam deeper. lol.
oh well... time for me to like.... start polishin my social skill and get to noe more ppl out dere. i cant cling on to brett anymore. =) and yeah.. he fell for Nas! lol.
amd dave is on his way to Islamic World. lol. i dunno wat to sae abt tis. i mean tho my opinion means nothing but... it does feel weird to be all saint wen long ago we did outrageous things together. now its like... so proper. lol.
anyways, i'm gladd to haf brett bak in my life. Cant say much wat undoings he's doing to me rite now but yeahh... he'll foreva be my fren. lol. now i noe da true meaning of foreva frens. we got sort of separated due to some problem. itz been close to a year i guess since we last chatted. now we're bak to gether. there wasnt any awkward moments... except wen we were each absorbed wif our own things. him mainly gettin to noe Islam deeper. lol.
oh well... time for me to like.... start polishin my social skill and get to noe more ppl out dere. i cant cling on to brett anymore. =) and yeah.. he fell for Nas! lol.
"wat haf we done to da world...."
well, isaw the Earth Song vid by Michael Jackson. well... it sure sent torrains of thoughts coursing through my mind.
itz really sadd to see da things we're doin to our world. but yeahh... soon we are da ones to regret too. foolish arent we? tho powerful people are taking care of some of da things done to da world and us, dere will still be remnants of it lying around. like how da war will scar not juz da people but also da soldiers. seein their fellow mates die before them.
itz time we humans step aside and view our world through immortal eyes. itz time tt we ponder over our actions and ask ourselves why we do that. itz time for a change. we need compassion and love not aggression and war. we wan mercy not unpardonness. oh boi. it sure is time for us all to change.
itz really sadd to see da things we're doin to our world. but yeahh... soon we are da ones to regret too. foolish arent we? tho powerful people are taking care of some of da things done to da world and us, dere will still be remnants of it lying around. like how da war will scar not juz da people but also da soldiers. seein their fellow mates die before them.
itz time we humans step aside and view our world through immortal eyes. itz time tt we ponder over our actions and ask ourselves why we do that. itz time for a change. we need compassion and love not aggression and war. we wan mercy not unpardonness. oh boi. it sure is time for us all to change.
23 October 2005
"it goes to show u nvr really noe abt me..."
suicide. tts wat i used to tink abt. i asked Eleanor once if takin painkillers all at one shot wud kill, she said no.dey are suppose to kill da pain arent they? lol.
i feel like a total failure. oh wait. i am. i fail as a student. i passed oni 3 subjects. Pathetic me. =) heyy, patheticism is my name. as a daughter, i failed miserably too. =D i'm grieving my mum. she's gone on and on abt such a lazybum i am. abt how i often hog da com. and dat i dun help wif da housework. but does she noe abt me worrying abt my own studies? abt how we r gonna survive now once sis moves out.
i hafta get a job. and den i'll hafta juggle my time. wif councillor, school and work. soon. i'm searchin for job now. i hate my life tis moment. no offence to Allah. but yes. I know tis is one of Your tests in my life but yeahh.. i'm failing as a human being. i cant take it. Please, show me Your guidance. Lend me Your strength. Your patience.
i feel like a total failure. oh wait. i am. i fail as a student. i passed oni 3 subjects. Pathetic me. =) heyy, patheticism is my name. as a daughter, i failed miserably too. =D i'm grieving my mum. she's gone on and on abt such a lazybum i am. abt how i often hog da com. and dat i dun help wif da housework. but does she noe abt me worrying abt my own studies? abt how we r gonna survive now once sis moves out.
i hafta get a job. and den i'll hafta juggle my time. wif councillor, school and work. soon. i'm searchin for job now. i hate my life tis moment. no offence to Allah. but yes. I know tis is one of Your tests in my life but yeahh.. i'm failing as a human being. i cant take it. Please, show me Your guidance. Lend me Your strength. Your patience.
F.A.S.T.I.N.G
F - faithful to Allah
A - able to endure
S - self-disciplined
T - turn away from temptations
I - ignore wat negative things ppl hafta sae
N - never succumb to temptations
G - God ; Allah is there to guide you.
weee! itz like... hmmm... 19 daes of fasting le... hehe... btw it goes on for 29 daes. hehe Jane asked once. so yepp... and please people, even wen u r fastin and ur frens are not, theres nth " kesian dia..." abt it. y shud u make fastin look like a chore? its not. seriously. tis year... i noe i'm a better person. =) i've improved!
last year i was able to fast for da whole month. hehe. cos my monthly finished juz daes b4 fastin started. tis year i tink da same is gonna happen. 10 more daes. i wanna ace through it. my thang is not here yet. i dun tink it will come for like a few more weeks cos i've been pretty stressed. wif exams, results and councillors' stuff. hehe.
seems to me now i like to update my blog. lol it all comes wif DA mood ya noe. so yeahh.. am tinkin of workin now wif nas.. we are both searchin for jobs. hehe anyone wif any idea where or how to get one, please contact either one of us! hehe thkies. hafta go nw. cya!
A - able to endure
S - self-disciplined
T - turn away from temptations
I - ignore wat negative things ppl hafta sae
N - never succumb to temptations
G - God ; Allah is there to guide you.
weee! itz like... hmmm... 19 daes of fasting le... hehe... btw it goes on for 29 daes. hehe Jane asked once. so yepp... and please people, even wen u r fastin and ur frens are not, theres nth " kesian dia..." abt it. y shud u make fastin look like a chore? its not. seriously. tis year... i noe i'm a better person. =) i've improved!
last year i was able to fast for da whole month. hehe. cos my monthly finished juz daes b4 fastin started. tis year i tink da same is gonna happen. 10 more daes. i wanna ace through it. my thang is not here yet. i dun tink it will come for like a few more weeks cos i've been pretty stressed. wif exams, results and councillors' stuff. hehe.
seems to me now i like to update my blog. lol it all comes wif DA mood ya noe. so yeahh.. am tinkin of workin now wif nas.. we are both searchin for jobs. hehe anyone wif any idea where or how to get one, please contact either one of us! hehe thkies. hafta go nw. cya!
"if only for today, i am unafraid..."
weeee!!! Hari Raya is approaching - FAST! hehe.. anieways, been pretty slacked actually. sis made some kuehs and i was da first to down da chocolate kueh thingy..wakrakakaka
anieways, i'm sry i havent been updating..been pretty out of sorts. anyways... lemme juz briefly recall wat happened to me.. [poor mem]
hmmmm... somehow i felt a lil melancholic da past few weeks and thought of the past a LOT. but yeahh... wat da heck i'm ok now. =) [u go gal!] and yeahh.. in school..it cudnt been better. been slacking a lot. tho i need to pick up pace wif my studies. i am seriously deteriorating! haizzz...
hmmm todae went to Geylang to get my clothes changed. The zip broke. wahahaha.. i was gentle u noe..but da zip...haizz.. =P den i've alwaes have dis weakness of not bein able to be walkin around wen fasting else m back will suffer and i'll haf massive headache. i tot i wud faint dere and den but yeahh... i prayed and prayed it wud not happen. i dun wan to break my fast or embarrassed myself. hehe.
yesterdae nite, Dave came online. it was pretty... interestin to see some arabic prayers as his nick so yeahh.. asked around and found out tt he's gonna convert to Islam. hmmmm interestin rite? yepp but i'm glad he's willing to embrace Islam. =) den as i was abt to log off wif Di, Brett added me. i was goin WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!! lol
ppl wont believe da depth of frenship we shared. nobody will understand i guess. hehe. anieways.... my Picasa is dwn now so cant post anymore pics... haizz... i'll try again... see ya!
anieways, i'm sry i havent been updating..been pretty out of sorts. anyways... lemme juz briefly recall wat happened to me.. [poor mem]
hmmmm... somehow i felt a lil melancholic da past few weeks and thought of the past a LOT. but yeahh... wat da heck i'm ok now. =) [u go gal!] and yeahh.. in school..it cudnt been better. been slacking a lot. tho i need to pick up pace wif my studies. i am seriously deteriorating! haizzz...
hmmm todae went to Geylang to get my clothes changed. The zip broke. wahahaha.. i was gentle u noe..but da zip...haizz.. =P den i've alwaes have dis weakness of not bein able to be walkin around wen fasting else m back will suffer and i'll haf massive headache. i tot i wud faint dere and den but yeahh... i prayed and prayed it wud not happen. i dun wan to break my fast or embarrassed myself. hehe.
yesterdae nite, Dave came online. it was pretty... interestin to see some arabic prayers as his nick so yeahh.. asked around and found out tt he's gonna convert to Islam. hmmmm interestin rite? yepp but i'm glad he's willing to embrace Islam. =) den as i was abt to log off wif Di, Brett added me. i was goin WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!! lol
ppl wont believe da depth of frenship we shared. nobody will understand i guess. hehe. anieways.... my Picasa is dwn now so cant post anymore pics... haizz... i'll try again... see ya!
21 October 2005
"i got it rite here baybee.."
Okies... i officially need tuition... *burst into tears* I failed soooo many subjects!!! itz REALLY time for me to buck up ya noe... haizzz...
so sadd lorr... i oso scared i mite be among those but on the promotion list...to see whether anot to put those in those list, to sec 4... haizz... scary u noe...
anieways..nth much happened.. been slackin alot.. oni yesterdae stayed in sch till like around 5 like tt... gt some NIE malay thingy.... hmm..den outside da school, we used da crumppled paper and da file given by da NIE peeps, to play a game of so called baseball-cum-badminton game. lol it was fun actually until those choir peeps saw OTHER choir peeps...
hmmm den todae went to play pool... tho i oni played like 3/4 of da game... cos i dunno hw to really play mahh.. i see da rest like a bit pro [excludin sharie], so i dun play liao.. in da end we two wenta play da arcade instead. lol. lamer ritez?
anieways... been havin lotsa things to do tho slackin... hmmmm got da chalet thingy to do and all.. haizz... but anyways... altho things are not goin smoothly in my life, there hasnt been things runnin out of hand.. hmm... am i really a geek? [wat a qn, i noe.] cant help but ask myself.
i envy the loves my frens lead. so carefree and...fun.
so sadd lorr... i oso scared i mite be among those but on the promotion list...to see whether anot to put those in those list, to sec 4... haizz... scary u noe...
anieways..nth much happened.. been slackin alot.. oni yesterdae stayed in sch till like around 5 like tt... gt some NIE malay thingy.... hmm..den outside da school, we used da crumppled paper and da file given by da NIE peeps, to play a game of so called baseball-cum-badminton game. lol it was fun actually until those choir peeps saw OTHER choir peeps...
hmmm den todae went to play pool... tho i oni played like 3/4 of da game... cos i dunno hw to really play mahh.. i see da rest like a bit pro [excludin sharie], so i dun play liao.. in da end we two wenta play da arcade instead. lol. lamer ritez?
anieways... been havin lotsa things to do tho slackin... hmmmm got da chalet thingy to do and all.. haizz... but anyways... altho things are not goin smoothly in my life, there hasnt been things runnin out of hand.. hmm... am i really a geek? [wat a qn, i noe.] cant help but ask myself.
i envy the loves my frens lead. so carefree and...fun.
16 October 2005
"one sweet day.."
Baby,
Boyz II Men:
Sorry I never told you, all I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
Cause you've flown away, so far away
Mariah:
Never had I imagined, living without your smile
Feelin, knowin' you hear me
It keeps me alive, alive
Together:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (together)
One sweet day
Mariah:
I'll wait patiently to see you in heaven.
Boyz II Men:
Darlin' I never showed you (no no no)
Assummed you'd, always be there
And I, I took your presence for granted
But I always cared (I always cared)
And I miss the love we shared
Together:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (together)
One sweet day
Boyz II Men:
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Mariah:
Yeah Yeah and Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray
Together:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (together)
One sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (together)
One sweet day
Sorry I never told you, all I wanted to say
I just want to say that i still miss you baby. I miss you so much that only God knows how much i cried for you. I want you back in my life. I love you. And I miss you.
Boyz II Men:
Sorry I never told you, all I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
Cause you've flown away, so far away
Mariah:
Never had I imagined, living without your smile
Feelin, knowin' you hear me
It keeps me alive, alive
Together:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (together)
One sweet day
Mariah:
I'll wait patiently to see you in heaven.
Boyz II Men:
Darlin' I never showed you (no no no)
Assummed you'd, always be there
And I, I took your presence for granted
But I always cared (I always cared)
And I miss the love we shared
Together:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (together)
One sweet day
Boyz II Men:
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Mariah:
Yeah Yeah and Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray
Together:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (together)
One sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (together)
One sweet day
Sorry I never told you, all I wanted to say
I just want to say that i still miss you baby. I miss you so much that only God knows how much i cried for you. I want you back in my life. I love you. And I miss you.
"i dun care..."
oh well.... its friggin sian rite now... have got nth to do at hme now.. lol stupid rite? i noe but yeahh...
haven been goin out much tho.. ermm.. juz wenta da library yesterdae nite to return my books.. den borrowed some too usin diddy's card. hehe anyways, nth much happened u noe.. cos its like friggin borin..
todae is like oni Sundae.. tomoro oso no school... haizz.. wahahaha... markin dae mahh... haiyo.. sian lorr.... haha but i tink now i wan to go off le.. i noe i haven been updatin vry well.. hehe juz gt no mood lorr.. paisehh la. see ya!
haven been goin out much tho.. ermm.. juz wenta da library yesterdae nite to return my books.. den borrowed some too usin diddy's card. hehe anyways, nth much happened u noe.. cos its like friggin borin..
todae is like oni Sundae.. tomoro oso no school... haizz.. wahahaha... markin dae mahh... haiyo.. sian lorr.... haha but i tink now i wan to go off le.. i noe i haven been updatin vry well.. hehe juz gt no mood lorr.. paisehh la. see ya!
15 October 2005
"come join my world..."
oh well.. exams are over... but its like.. so sian now.. lol ironic isnt it? wen got exams, we complain sian cos muz study and all.. now exam finish we sian cos gt nth to do...wahahah.. weird ppl we are..
so yeahh... been fasting..for 11 days aledi.. wahahaha... hmmm wat else? hmmm dunno lar... lotsa things happenin rite now.. social life, love life.. i turn they are all takin a turn now.. hehe..
hafta go now.. not in da mood to update yet. so yeahh.. see ya!
so yeahh... been fasting..for 11 days aledi.. wahahaha... hmmm wat else? hmmm dunno lar... lotsa things happenin rite now.. social life, love life.. i turn they are all takin a turn now.. hehe..
hafta go now.. not in da mood to update yet. so yeahh.. see ya!
14 October 2005
"where we're gonna be wen we turn 25..."
Well... i just found out this morning that Si ming and Marion are in Canada!! awww.... me so sadd le.... two of my buddies are gone yet again... haizz... da first was Ming Xian..
Sadd sia... hehe... but yeahh... i still got frens here dun i.. its juz tt... i wonder wats gonna happen to us in da future? =) well, i hafta go now... i noe da entry is hsort.. i'll tell u more later.. got Graduation Day Ceremony... hehe... gd bye..
Sadd sia... hehe... but yeahh... i still got frens here dun i.. its juz tt... i wonder wats gonna happen to us in da future? =) well, i hafta go now... i noe da entry is hsort.. i'll tell u more later.. got Graduation Day Ceremony... hehe... gd bye..
12 October 2005
"every nite i pray on bended knees..."
1 more paper to go!!! [physics] hehe..but i'm nt sur whether to laff or cry... cos I had my Bio and A. Maths papers today... ='(
Bio was emmm ok i guess but even if i pass its borderline..but i doubt it. tt i'll pass tt is. and A. Maths... confirmed i'll fail. Why? Cos of all the 11 questions given to do, i am SLIGHTLY confident abt da first paper. the rest... hmmm... lets juz stop talkin abt it aiite?
anieways... its like now Wednesday... so fast da days went by altho tis Monday Jas and i were like goin... "itz gonna be a looong week.." but yeahh.. da worst has ended. i tink.
so yeahh... been tinkin abt my life and all.. hmmm i'm a failure. i'm like hopeless in studies... hopeless in everything that i do. My life suck. My lovelife suck, my personal life suck. haizzz... sadd sia... anieways...i beta go now... headache... hehe and laziness...
Bio was emmm ok i guess but even if i pass its borderline..but i doubt it. tt i'll pass tt is. and A. Maths... confirmed i'll fail. Why? Cos of all the 11 questions given to do, i am SLIGHTLY confident abt da first paper. the rest... hmmm... lets juz stop talkin abt it aiite?
anieways... its like now Wednesday... so fast da days went by altho tis Monday Jas and i were like goin... "itz gonna be a looong week.." but yeahh.. da worst has ended. i tink.
so yeahh... been tinkin abt my life and all.. hmmm i'm a failure. i'm like hopeless in studies... hopeless in everything that i do. My life suck. My lovelife suck, my personal life suck. haizzz... sadd sia... anieways...i beta go now... headache... hehe and laziness...
10 October 2005
"can we work it out..can we be a family.."
"I ran away today, ran from the noise. Ran away. Don't want to go back to that place. No choice, no way."
i'm so fed up wif my mum. wats her problem? i came home with da notion from sch to come home and watch the movies i have in my com to rid my mind of stress. it was workin wen i enjoyed watching What A Girl Wants.
My mum tol me to accompany my sis to the hospital wif da baby for da check-up. but i didnt want to. I was plannin to start crackin afta Coach Carter. And my mum was like "How could you? Your sis has to carry da baby and da bag.." and i was like.. dun other women wif infants do tat? tts y they are independent?? and she was like but ur sis is fastin.. wat da heck?
heyy, goin out carryin a baby and a bag which is not even heavy, doesnt beat da fact of goin sch and crackin ur brain doin maths sums and findin words to write for u friggin literature. its psychically challengin and dat beats da physical challenge.
anyways, i'm juz so frustrated wif my mum. its either her or sis gettin on my nerves. STRESSED.
"in a family portrait we look pretty happy. lets play pretend like it comes naturally..."
i'm so fed up wif my mum. wats her problem? i came home with da notion from sch to come home and watch the movies i have in my com to rid my mind of stress. it was workin wen i enjoyed watching What A Girl Wants.
My mum tol me to accompany my sis to the hospital wif da baby for da check-up. but i didnt want to. I was plannin to start crackin afta Coach Carter. And my mum was like "How could you? Your sis has to carry da baby and da bag.." and i was like.. dun other women wif infants do tat? tts y they are independent?? and she was like but ur sis is fastin.. wat da heck?
heyy, goin out carryin a baby and a bag which is not even heavy, doesnt beat da fact of goin sch and crackin ur brain doin maths sums and findin words to write for u friggin literature. its psychically challengin and dat beats da physical challenge.
anyways, i'm juz so frustrated wif my mum. its either her or sis gettin on my nerves. STRESSED.
"in a family portrait we look pretty happy. lets play pretend like it comes naturally..."
09 October 2005
''How do i love thee"
How do i love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My sould can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I lvoe thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with passion put to use
In my old griefs, and that with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love i seemed to lose
With my lost saints, - I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! - and, if God choose
I shall love thee better after death.
Elizabeth Barrett Browning
Sonnets from the Portuguese
"we're all to blame..."
Hurricane Katrina. Hurricane Rita [??]. Tsunami. 9/11 incident. Wars. wat in da world is da world comin to? As quoted from Ashlee, a fren of mine, "Give three years and we'll see how the world is. That is if there's any left." I second that.
What's wrong with us humans that we cant refrain from sins? Its true that i'm not even fit to preach others abt tis but its time someone does. One fav topic is sex. ALL religions forbid premarital sex but its like a trend now for people to sleep wif others. Sex is da joining of two souls into one. In fact its called 'making love'. Sex is crude. This act is sacred and should be just within the two lovers. Why go around changing partners?
Wars. Every religion found in this world preaches about the goodwill of life. God created us for us to beget harmony but look wats happening rite now? We are killing each other. What right do we have to kill the lieves that God granted? Who are we to play God by sentencing our own verdict? Itz really sad really. God sees us as brothers and sisters. You don't kill your own siblings, do you?
Maybe all these natural disasters and wars are the last straw to God's patience with us. We've sinned too much. Maybe God wants to start anew. That's why he's down on his fours to scrub on the surface of the Earth. God have mercy. =)
What's wrong with us humans that we cant refrain from sins? Its true that i'm not even fit to preach others abt tis but its time someone does. One fav topic is sex. ALL religions forbid premarital sex but its like a trend now for people to sleep wif others. Sex is da joining of two souls into one. In fact its called 'making love'. Sex is crude. This act is sacred and should be just within the two lovers. Why go around changing partners?
Wars. Every religion found in this world preaches about the goodwill of life. God created us for us to beget harmony but look wats happening rite now? We are killing each other. What right do we have to kill the lieves that God granted? Who are we to play God by sentencing our own verdict? Itz really sad really. God sees us as brothers and sisters. You don't kill your own siblings, do you?
Maybe all these natural disasters and wars are the last straw to God's patience with us. We've sinned too much. Maybe God wants to start anew. That's why he's down on his fours to scrub on the surface of the Earth. God have mercy. =)
"SPCA to da rescue!!!!"
okies, tis mornin i'm suddenly so bored so i'd decided to like update u peeps on da interestin life i've been leading!
well...there was tis once... Ayin, Nas, Sharifah, Shari, Rainer, Me and three other chinese peeps... we sort of came to waitin for a lil kitten to come dwn form da ermm... second storey platform.. yeahh... tried many ways to get it down but it was such a scaredy cat...
so Rainer called SPCA... and yeahh..we waited and waited... but dey didnt come.. lol so we ended up gettin da help of da ermmm indian construction workers. One of dem said to Rainer dat da "cat up there two daes no makan" lol means never eat. so yeahh.. dey got a ladder to bring it dwn but da supposedly sacredy cat LEAPT down. Great.
in da end we all went home. wasted time rite? but cos its fasting month so its a good deed done. errr yeah.
well...there was tis once... Ayin, Nas, Sharifah, Shari, Rainer, Me and three other chinese peeps... we sort of came to waitin for a lil kitten to come dwn form da ermm... second storey platform.. yeahh... tried many ways to get it down but it was such a scaredy cat...
so Rainer called SPCA... and yeahh..we waited and waited... but dey didnt come.. lol so we ended up gettin da help of da ermmm indian construction workers. One of dem said to Rainer dat da "cat up there two daes no makan" lol means never eat. so yeahh.. dey got a ladder to bring it dwn but da supposedly sacredy cat LEAPT down. Great.
in da end we all went home. wasted time rite? but cos its fasting month so its a good deed done. errr yeah.
08 October 2005
"somebody saveee...ME! "
hmmmm.... i dun understand y my family cant be like normal other families? i mean, dey sun seem to understand me enuff... i've thses thoughts before not long back.
i dun like goin to my sis's hse. not bcos it suck or wat but itz juz plain boring goin dere. dere's oso no com. well, purely, theres no entertainment. itz juz so... sucky. Plus, i've every intention to study for Maths [y as i'm typin this i feel tt i've deluding myself? lol] so yeahh... freakin sianz.
my only setback is my fears. i fear bein alone. i hate bein alone. my mum said to me dat if i didnt wan to sleepover at my sis's hse den i stay at hme alone and sleep. other peeps wud be thrilled but i'm not. Cos i've got no company. i juz DISLIKE bein alone. i dunno y. mayb itz cos my imagination will run wild. wateva it is... i juz dun like sleepin at my sis's hse. Pure Boredom.
Aniewaes, da exams have been pretty good actually. =) but yeahh... lotsa nerves gettin cranky. Fasting + Exams dun go along quite well... they r juz plain incompatible. so yeahh... life curently sucks. so wat da heck.. am positive i'm failing my A & E Maths and my POA and moz prob BIO.
i dun like goin to my sis's hse. not bcos it suck or wat but itz juz plain boring goin dere. dere's oso no com. well, purely, theres no entertainment. itz juz so... sucky. Plus, i've every intention to study for Maths [y as i'm typin this i feel tt i've deluding myself? lol] so yeahh... freakin sianz.
my only setback is my fears. i fear bein alone. i hate bein alone. my mum said to me dat if i didnt wan to sleepover at my sis's hse den i stay at hme alone and sleep. other peeps wud be thrilled but i'm not. Cos i've got no company. i juz DISLIKE bein alone. i dunno y. mayb itz cos my imagination will run wild. wateva it is... i juz dun like sleepin at my sis's hse. Pure Boredom.
Aniewaes, da exams have been pretty good actually. =) but yeahh... lotsa nerves gettin cranky. Fasting + Exams dun go along quite well... they r juz plain incompatible. so yeahh... life curently sucks. so wat da heck.. am positive i'm failing my A & E Maths and my POA and moz prob BIO.
"i walk along this empty street ; alone.. "
Urgghh!! i'd intended to write in a different entry but NOW, lemme write abt sth else...
i'm so freakin pissed!!!! my mum wants to sleep over at my sis's hse todae... wat da freak sia.... urgghh!!! why cant she juz let sis sleep alone at her own hse wif her own family? y muz she tag along?? she's da one who keep sayin let dem pratice stayin by themselves but rite nw she's da one tts so... URGH!!
i'm like so freakin fcuked up! heck i'm fasting rite now and they.... my gawd!!! tis is like da fourth dae of fasting and oso da fourth consecutive daes dat SOMEONE wud surely irritate me. Urgh! frig sia! so wateva...
oh God... PLEASE send me someone who is willin to share my burden.... ='( i'm so stressed.... plus, i'm like havin maths paper from Mon - Wed! wat da freak rite? darn and my com i slaggin now... GREAT!
oh WADEVA! i got no mood to blog lerr.. haizz... ciao
i'm so freakin pissed!!!! my mum wants to sleep over at my sis's hse todae... wat da freak sia.... urgghh!!! why cant she juz let sis sleep alone at her own hse wif her own family? y muz she tag along?? she's da one who keep sayin let dem pratice stayin by themselves but rite nw she's da one tts so... URGH!!
i'm like so freakin fcuked up! heck i'm fasting rite now and they.... my gawd!!! tis is like da fourth dae of fasting and oso da fourth consecutive daes dat SOMEONE wud surely irritate me. Urgh! frig sia! so wateva...
oh God... PLEASE send me someone who is willin to share my burden.... ='( i'm so stressed.... plus, i'm like havin maths paper from Mon - Wed! wat da freak rite? darn and my com i slaggin now... GREAT!
oh WADEVA! i got no mood to blog lerr.. haizz... ciao
05 October 2005
"watchin every moment still anticipatin' love.."
haizzz...now i at sch usin da com here...weee! at home got com still use sch com...lol
anieways... itz da fastin month now and todae is da first dae of fasting. itz pretty cool so far
oni tat i've been tinkin abt on food. hehe. notti me.
anieways, i dun intend to go home. YET. i wanna waste my time in school den slwly go home den bathe den sleep den break my fast. Weeeee!! lol i noe tts bad of me but yeahh... wat da heck.. i tink afta tis week, i wud be able to get da hang of fasting again... hehe
so yeahh.. tomolo is Social Studies and POA paper 1... haizz... dunno if i cn make it lorr... i really hope i cn like excel my studies... haizz... Maths is like so freakin difficult. for my test right for E Maths i had 7 & for A maths i had 8... haizz... both is upon 25 if i'm nt wrong... haizz.. so sadded lorr... aniewasy, me gonna go off now... hehe... sch com cannot go bloggin lorr.. hehe... heck larr!
anieways... itz da fastin month now and todae is da first dae of fasting. itz pretty cool so far
oni tat i've been tinkin abt on food. hehe. notti me.
anieways, i dun intend to go home. YET. i wanna waste my time in school den slwly go home den bathe den sleep den break my fast. Weeeee!! lol i noe tts bad of me but yeahh... wat da heck.. i tink afta tis week, i wud be able to get da hang of fasting again... hehe
so yeahh.. tomolo is Social Studies and POA paper 1... haizz... dunno if i cn make it lorr... i really hope i cn like excel my studies... haizz... Maths is like so freakin difficult. for my test right for E Maths i had 7 & for A maths i had 8... haizz... both is upon 25 if i'm nt wrong... haizz.. so sadded lorr... aniewasy, me gonna go off now... hehe... sch com cannot go bloggin lorr.. hehe... heck larr!
03 October 2005
"sorrow became his soulmate..."
okies tis is like da 3rd time i'm re-writin my stuff... teehee
anieways.. was juz tinkin of vulgarities
wen i remebered da other dae durin Lit class
wen Mdm Kristine Mary Oehlers [=P] didnt come,
da Lit studs all wen to 306 classroom. and we saw tis
"English Dictionary for Advanced Learners"
and we browsed through.
Fcuk off, fcuk around, fcuk you, fcuk up
all thses words had meanings and at da end
it is written. "VERY RUDE!"
wakrakakakkakak
LAME sia... and dere are words like
men's room... wat da heck? lol
anieways, i'm off to put my BF to bed now! see ya!!
anieways.. was juz tinkin of vulgarities
wen i remebered da other dae durin Lit class
wen Mdm Kristine Mary Oehlers [=P] didnt come,
da Lit studs all wen to 306 classroom. and we saw tis
"English Dictionary for Advanced Learners"
and we browsed through.
Fcuk off, fcuk around, fcuk you, fcuk up
all thses words had meanings and at da end
it is written. "VERY RUDE!"
wakrakakakkakak
LAME sia... and dere are words like
men's room... wat da heck? lol
anieways, i'm off to put my BF to bed now! see ya!!
"do u see da world through troubled eyes.."
oh well..havent been updating yeah?
anyways... went to Kulai rmb on Saturdae?
yeahh.. it was pretty okay... first up was
da... horse-riding.. no one went cos it cost us like
RM$52.50 wen in SG it starts from $5 onwards
in Sentosa... haizz... den went to some country club..wahaha...
treated like princess sia.. went Jacuzzi first...
den went swimming.. den da shower room was
so pretty but small yeahh... but den cos da shower room is
in tis place called Women's Changing room and tis room
consisted of jacuzzi, normal toilets and dressing room
and also dere are like big mirors everywhere
and a stretch of dressing tables... and another
3 big mirrors complete wif hair dryer, combs
lotions and etc.. lol.. felt like a princess!!!
den afta dat went ioi shopin mall...
it was ok i guess.. modern bahh.... den da stuff dere
oso nie and cheap..wahahha... didnt realise da
billabong shop and all.. so didnt buy lorr.. but
i bought a VERY nice blouse... weee!!
den yeahh... woke up late todae but managed to made it through
da time but continued yawning todae
and durin malay remedial, we actually had ORAL!!!
argghh!!but i guess i did quite well
considerin a fact that my malay suck...weeee!
so now my com is lagging and yeahh.. i'm gonna go off
to read a book or write stories. oh yeahh...rmb da Him
i alwaes talk abt? well..i dun like him.. =)
he's juz not worth it larr... hehe! adios!!
anyways... went to Kulai rmb on Saturdae?
yeahh.. it was pretty okay... first up was
da... horse-riding.. no one went cos it cost us like
RM$52.50 wen in SG it starts from $5 onwards
in Sentosa... haizz... den went to some country club..wahaha...
treated like princess sia.. went Jacuzzi first...
den went swimming.. den da shower room was
so pretty but small yeahh... but den cos da shower room is
in tis place called Women's Changing room and tis room
consisted of jacuzzi, normal toilets and dressing room
and also dere are like big mirors everywhere
and a stretch of dressing tables... and another
3 big mirrors complete wif hair dryer, combs
lotions and etc.. lol.. felt like a princess!!!
den afta dat went ioi shopin mall...
it was ok i guess.. modern bahh.... den da stuff dere
oso nie and cheap..wahahha... didnt realise da
billabong shop and all.. so didnt buy lorr.. but
i bought a VERY nice blouse... weee!!
den yeahh... woke up late todae but managed to made it through
da time but continued yawning todae
and durin malay remedial, we actually had ORAL!!!
argghh!!but i guess i did quite well
considerin a fact that my malay suck...weeee!
so now my com is lagging and yeahh.. i'm gonna go off
to read a book or write stories. oh yeahh...rmb da Him
i alwaes talk abt? well..i dun like him.. =)
he's juz not worth it larr... hehe! adios!!
30 September 2005
"Goodbye My Lover..."
itz been 3 yrs nw
but our relationship is a flop
what exactly was your aim
by gettin me caught up in this whirlwind of romance
all those times we shared together
do they mean nothing to you
do I mean anything to you
i tried to forget you
and i thought i did but i thought wrong
you haunted me like a ghost from da past
you knew my darkest secret
you vowed to honour me
but it was a lie
a lie that i believed wholeheartedly
we've nvr said gdbye
but in my heart i noe that itz over
itz time for me to move on
but da bind u had over me juz cudnt be lifted
i really tried to forget you and accept others
but you kept coming bak
haunting me and depressing me
from like came to love
and now it came to HATE.
i hate you for leavin me hanging on tis thread
i hate you for makin me feel foolish
hate you for makin me hurt
i hate you for making me love you.
if we were to meet
i would just stare at you
wonder if this is the person i've alwaes loved
then i'll ask
why
and i'll leave u standin there
like da wae u left me hanging
all da promises broken
all the trust shattered
you will continue to be a part of me;
a part of me that has DIED.
gd bye my lover
da beautiful times we shared has come to an end
itz time to move on
to each his own
goodbye.
but our relationship is a flop
what exactly was your aim
by gettin me caught up in this whirlwind of romance
all those times we shared together
do they mean nothing to you
do I mean anything to you
i tried to forget you
and i thought i did but i thought wrong
you haunted me like a ghost from da past
you knew my darkest secret
you vowed to honour me
but it was a lie
a lie that i believed wholeheartedly
we've nvr said gdbye
but in my heart i noe that itz over
itz time for me to move on
but da bind u had over me juz cudnt be lifted
i really tried to forget you and accept others
but you kept coming bak
haunting me and depressing me
from like came to love
and now it came to HATE.
i hate you for leavin me hanging on tis thread
i hate you for makin me feel foolish
hate you for makin me hurt
i hate you for making me love you.
if we were to meet
i would just stare at you
wonder if this is the person i've alwaes loved
then i'll ask
why
and i'll leave u standin there
like da wae u left me hanging
all da promises broken
all the trust shattered
you will continue to be a part of me;
a part of me that has DIED.
gd bye my lover
da beautiful times we shared has come to an end
itz time to move on
to each his own
goodbye.
"my life is brilliant..."
hmmm.... so many daes nvr update... cos firstly... been stayin bak late in sch to revise maths and stuff...so yeahh... den reach home vry sian lerr.. so dun wan blog.. den like tat lorr...
todae got Eng Final Paper lorr... haizz.. tink i fail liao..my compo is i anyhow shoot lorr... den my compre horr.. haizz... is suppose to leave 3 lines afta each whole qn... but i didnt read instructions.... den wen left wif like 10 minutes like dat i realise den i quickly rewrote da whole thing lorr... haizz.. my handwriting like kanasai lor!! haizz..sadded lorr..
hmmm..den da past few daes.. been ermm studyin maths lorr.. sian..den at sch i bu shuang wif Mr Lee... haizz.. heck lar... anieways..got funny thing happen...
Jr said da boii bside him irritated him a lot lorr.. he relate to me lar.. he was doin his work arr.. teacher giv time to finish her work arr... den he varied his anwer wif his other fwen arr budden da boii bside him keep askin wat was written den da boii was like.. ok..den wats below...oh wats da value? dat kinda thing.. then he pissed lorr... wahahha.. den his fwen behind heard thier commotion..den his fwen suan him.. imitating wat da boii sae lor.. wahahha.. poor Jr.. =P
anieways... dats da oni thing dat cheers me up on dat particular dae... weeee! den wen i oso suan Jr.. wahahah he bu shuang oso.. he try to suan me.. wahahha.. sae me stupid hor? dunno how to tag... wahahha.. stoopid Jr.. den wat else ar? oh yahh..tis Sundae am goin out wif EIGHTEEN people.. go Kulai Island..
AUnt Lin said dere got resort and stuff den got spa..swimmin .. horse-ridin.. hehe.. i cant wait to go lorr!! den 2/3 of da peeps is i not close or i dunno lorr.. haizz.. goin wif my mom and dad lorr.. haizz.. mus destress... mayb will bring all my A maths formula dere.. wahahhaa... LAMER!
todae got Eng Final Paper lorr... haizz.. tink i fail liao..my compo is i anyhow shoot lorr... den my compre horr.. haizz... is suppose to leave 3 lines afta each whole qn... but i didnt read instructions.... den wen left wif like 10 minutes like dat i realise den i quickly rewrote da whole thing lorr... haizz.. my handwriting like kanasai lor!! haizz..sadded lorr..
hmmm..den da past few daes.. been ermm studyin maths lorr.. sian..den at sch i bu shuang wif Mr Lee... haizz.. heck lar... anieways..got funny thing happen...
Jr said da boii bside him irritated him a lot lorr.. he relate to me lar.. he was doin his work arr.. teacher giv time to finish her work arr... den he varied his anwer wif his other fwen arr budden da boii bside him keep askin wat was written den da boii was like.. ok..den wats below...oh wats da value? dat kinda thing.. then he pissed lorr... wahahha.. den his fwen behind heard thier commotion..den his fwen suan him.. imitating wat da boii sae lor.. wahahha.. poor Jr.. =P
anieways... dats da oni thing dat cheers me up on dat particular dae... weeee! den wen i oso suan Jr.. wahahah he bu shuang oso.. he try to suan me.. wahahha.. sae me stupid hor? dunno how to tag... wahahha.. stoopid Jr.. den wat else ar? oh yahh..tis Sundae am goin out wif EIGHTEEN people.. go Kulai Island..
AUnt Lin said dere got resort and stuff den got spa..swimmin .. horse-ridin.. hehe.. i cant wait to go lorr!! den 2/3 of da peeps is i not close or i dunno lorr.. haizz.. goin wif my mom and dad lorr.. haizz.. mus destress... mayb will bring all my A maths formula dere.. wahahhaa... LAMER!
27 September 2005
"in a family portrait..we looked pretty hapiie.."
haizz... i'm sian-ed to da max!haizz...now i noe y i prefer ang moh guys... local guys are just... haizz.. so sadd..
anieways, came home straight afta school.. had nth to do mahh... den reached home early... took care of BF for a while den go bathe lorr... den afta changed, ate lunch .. den at da same time tok to mama abt sis and all lor.. abt her nt givin mama enuff cash den waste money buy new set of bed furnitures.. haizz...den we tok tok tok lor.. mother daughter tok la...
den switched on com, listened music while doin Maths revision... hehe guai kia rite?? i noe la... cant help it... den afta a few papers done, came online at ard... 5 plus arr... den yar... went irc to check out da local peeps.. haizz.. more disappointment la... juz not interested.. haizz..
so yar lorr... i worry a lot abt my family lorr... Daddy is da oni one workin... mama take care of BF budden my sis dun giv enuff cash lorr.. haizz.. den still cn buy clothes for BF and new shoe for herself... haizz... sianz to da max-ed!
anieways, came home straight afta school.. had nth to do mahh... den reached home early... took care of BF for a while den go bathe lorr... den afta changed, ate lunch .. den at da same time tok to mama abt sis and all lor.. abt her nt givin mama enuff cash den waste money buy new set of bed furnitures.. haizz...den we tok tok tok lor.. mother daughter tok la...
den switched on com, listened music while doin Maths revision... hehe guai kia rite?? i noe la... cant help it... den afta a few papers done, came online at ard... 5 plus arr... den yar... went irc to check out da local peeps.. haizz.. more disappointment la... juz not interested.. haizz..
so yar lorr... i worry a lot abt my family lorr... Daddy is da oni one workin... mama take care of BF budden my sis dun giv enuff cash lorr.. haizz.. den still cn buy clothes for BF and new shoe for herself... haizz... sianz to da max-ed!
25 September 2005
"Love hurts..."
haizz... sry for not updatin my bloggie... but yeahh... lotsa things happened.. hehe.. but yeahh.. wat da heck..
anyways on wednesday or thursday, my bf was admitted in the hospital...he cudnt breath again... =( but den he's at home now. lol! he came back yesterday. den yesterdae we went to Cik Oyah's hse for some kenduri... so yeahh... got irritated at someone at da wae she was carryin my dearest bf... but yeahh... i haf no right i haf no sae...
denn on fridae went to Seoul Garden to celebrate Mus' bdae! Happy Bdae Gal!!! hehe... we went there and had LOTS of fun! [didnt we?] i sure did! lol den yeahh... ayin dripped ice cream on my skirt... tts of course afta i dripped some on hers! =P lol
den wat else.. oh yeahh... Sat went out wif Pris and Jas... supposed to be studyin but we were talkin and eating 95% of da time... lol den we did a lil bit of Trigo and Circles den we were off to da ARCADE!
met Charles. he cudnt play da drum game right!! he's tune deaf! cudnt get a note rite in da end Jas took over.. lol. oh yeahh.. Pris has got NO co-ordination too! we played a music game oso.. da round round buttons... pris cudnt get it rite.. we failed cos of her... "You are a loser" .. in da end we 'kicked' her out and played juz da two of us [jas and me].. we became... "You are a winner!" lol!
den todae went off to Grassroots' wif Jas again... played arcade again.. lol! den we wanted to play tis gun game... but jas' coin was stuck..so i pressed da lever to get da money out and guess wat? a WHOLE lots of coins came out!!! lol Jas and i quickly get dem all and played other games!! lol
itz been a great week so far.. so yeahh... listen to da song Goodbye My Lover.. itz nice!
anyways on wednesday or thursday, my bf was admitted in the hospital...he cudnt breath again... =( but den he's at home now. lol! he came back yesterday. den yesterdae we went to Cik Oyah's hse for some kenduri... so yeahh... got irritated at someone at da wae she was carryin my dearest bf... but yeahh... i haf no right i haf no sae...
denn on fridae went to Seoul Garden to celebrate Mus' bdae! Happy Bdae Gal!!! hehe... we went there and had LOTS of fun! [didnt we?] i sure did! lol den yeahh... ayin dripped ice cream on my skirt... tts of course afta i dripped some on hers! =P lol
den wat else.. oh yeahh... Sat went out wif Pris and Jas... supposed to be studyin but we were talkin and eating 95% of da time... lol den we did a lil bit of Trigo and Circles den we were off to da ARCADE!
met Charles. he cudnt play da drum game right!! he's tune deaf! cudnt get a note rite in da end Jas took over.. lol. oh yeahh.. Pris has got NO co-ordination too! we played a music game oso.. da round round buttons... pris cudnt get it rite.. we failed cos of her... "You are a loser" .. in da end we 'kicked' her out and played juz da two of us [jas and me].. we became... "You are a winner!" lol!
den todae went off to Grassroots' wif Jas again... played arcade again.. lol! den we wanted to play tis gun game... but jas' coin was stuck..so i pressed da lever to get da money out and guess wat? a WHOLE lots of coins came out!!! lol Jas and i quickly get dem all and played other games!! lol
itz been a great week so far.. so yeahh... listen to da song Goodbye My Lover.. itz nice!
"Goodbye My Lover"
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)
.:James Blunt:.
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)
.:James Blunt:.
23 September 2005
"heal me, i'm heartsick..."
Life juz suck. my mum came home and started yelling and scolding me! urghh!!! heck ar!!
tat PRIS... every time complain i nvr update... hah! i update liao hor... hmph! anieways...todae had amaths test... oni fucntions i can do da rest i cannot ... wahahahah.. i cleverer den Pris... she dunno anythin... hehe.. no lar... den saturday which is tomolo, we goin library to study lor..
kk i hafta go ler..tomolo i update more okies? bye!!
stupid pris..make me update every day.... =)
tat PRIS... every time complain i nvr update... hah! i update liao hor... hmph! anieways...todae had amaths test... oni fucntions i can do da rest i cannot ... wahahahah.. i cleverer den Pris... she dunno anythin... hehe.. no lar... den saturday which is tomolo, we goin library to study lor..
kk i hafta go ler..tomolo i update more okies? bye!!
stupid pris..make me update every day.... =)
21 September 2005
"i fall without my wings; i feel small"
Urgh!!! i juz hate my sis! what's her problem?! she's irritating me!! argh!!!! okies, i tink tis shud be one of da posts dat shud contain vulgarities. here goes...
watz her farkin problem? cudnt she see dat i was doin my ONLINE hw? and she was like, "ya do ur online work at da same time chat. how to finish?!" HEL-LO!! i was more den half-way done and i juz started chattin! fark sial... and itz all bcos of a friggin maggie. [??!!]
my dad wanted maggie and itz alwaes me who cooks dem so i told my mum," pls la ma...i need to do my work..." i noe itz so unfilial of me but well, my sis werent doin anything and dya noe dat my mum likes ot take advantage of me??!!
once she had da cheek to tell me dat she's lazy so she told me to close da friggin door! i was like in da room and she was like in da livin room... >_<"' itz like so wateva rite??
argh!! life suck man. I love myself but life juz suck ya noe. i've got an outing to organise and a graduation day to handle. i'm growing white hair!!!! arghh!!!! i hate my life!!
watz her farkin problem? cudnt she see dat i was doin my ONLINE hw? and she was like, "ya do ur online work at da same time chat. how to finish?!" HEL-LO!! i was more den half-way done and i juz started chattin! fark sial... and itz all bcos of a friggin maggie. [??!!]
my dad wanted maggie and itz alwaes me who cooks dem so i told my mum," pls la ma...i need to do my work..." i noe itz so unfilial of me but well, my sis werent doin anything and dya noe dat my mum likes ot take advantage of me??!!
once she had da cheek to tell me dat she's lazy so she told me to close da friggin door! i was like in da room and she was like in da livin room... >_<"' itz like so wateva rite??
argh!! life suck man. I love myself but life juz suck ya noe. i've got an outing to organise and a graduation day to handle. i'm growing white hair!!!! arghh!!!! i hate my life!!
20 September 2005
''ever since da dae u went away..."
listen to da words of this song. it is really meaningful u noe. sine my darl. told me dat da song not nice [We Belong Together], i changed it to Goin' Crazy! =)
so yeahh... did u noe dat, ppl sae dat wen it is raining altho it's sunny, it means itz da rain of heartbroken couples. hehe. and itz rainin dat way rite now. lol. so yeahhh..
anieways, skipped Maths remedial todae... wen Juliao taught me DEN i understand... haizz.. Mr Lee talk until we all cannot understand lorr.. sian. den.. i went home wif da peeps la.. tis fridae am goin out to Seoul garden to celebrate Mus' bdae.. hehe.. happie bdae gal... been frens since primary school ya noe..
anieways, was talkin to Jason, he is SO into Hui Ting and dat gal doesnt even noe it. haizz.. stupid gal.. silly is a better word. i mean, itz not easy to find a guy who is SO into u ya noe.... hehe.. anieways, i'm gonna go maple a while.. am soooo stressed!
so yeahh... did u noe dat, ppl sae dat wen it is raining altho it's sunny, it means itz da rain of heartbroken couples. hehe. and itz rainin dat way rite now. lol. so yeahhh..
anieways, skipped Maths remedial todae... wen Juliao taught me DEN i understand... haizz.. Mr Lee talk until we all cannot understand lorr.. sian. den.. i went home wif da peeps la.. tis fridae am goin out to Seoul garden to celebrate Mus' bdae.. hehe.. happie bdae gal... been frens since primary school ya noe..
anieways, was talkin to Jason, he is SO into Hui Ting and dat gal doesnt even noe it. haizz.. stupid gal.. silly is a better word. i mean, itz not easy to find a guy who is SO into u ya noe.... hehe.. anieways, i'm gonna go maple a while.. am soooo stressed!
19 September 2005
"in words of a broken heart..."
"itz over and done but da heartache lives on inside..." itz true isnt it? although itz all over and dere's nth left but u cn still feel da heartache altho u've nvr touched or simply met. =)
anyways, i long fo the old days... those times when i was with Brett, Brian and David. and maybe Diana. they all contributed deeply to me past.. i miss those times when i deliberately changed my nick to sth saucier to attract Brett... wen i change my nick to mushy stuff to declare my feelings to Brian... or change to sth vogue to spite Diana..? lol .. da past was filled wif sheer teenage innocence. =)
and i wan those daes bak. )=
anyways, i long fo the old days... those times when i was with Brett, Brian and David. and maybe Diana. they all contributed deeply to me past.. i miss those times when i deliberately changed my nick to sth saucier to attract Brett... wen i change my nick to mushy stuff to declare my feelings to Brian... or change to sth vogue to spite Diana..? lol .. da past was filled wif sheer teenage innocence. =)
and i wan those daes bak. )=
"hell hath no fury..."
I shall not be furious any longer at Mr Lee... i mean... it is no use being angry at him for not being able to teach properly. I guesss it is all up to me... but then.. i'm worried. i mean, i dun understand most of da things he taught us... so how am i to revise work on my own?
anyways, exams are approaching fast. and i'm seriously worried. time and again i try to study wif fwens but i still dun understand. haizz... die liao lorhx.. wat to do... tink for da next few daes me go library study bah? hehe.. every saturday and sunday maybe? yepp...
anyways, exams are approaching fast. and i'm seriously worried. time and again i try to study wif fwens but i still dun understand. haizz... die liao lorhx.. wat to do... tink for da next few daes me go library study bah? hehe.. every saturday and sunday maybe? yepp...
17 September 2005
''we're all to blame...''
haizz... its like 8 months has passed and my a. maths shucks as hell. and come to tink of it..itz not really DAT helpful if u study everything now... 8 months back..if i had just taken da initiative to do a lil bit of practice here and dere.. atleast i wont be so far behind...
anieways.... i'm early tis morning cos i'm goin out later to da library... haizz... go and study maths wif Pris and Jas... hehe... so yeahh... meetin at 11 and now its 10.05 so i beta go now! see y'all!
anieways.... i'm early tis morning cos i'm goin out later to da library... haizz... go and study maths wif Pris and Jas... hehe... so yeahh... meetin at 11 and now its 10.05 so i beta go now! see y'all!
15 September 2005
''dun look no further, sister, i'm bak!''
Right at 7.40pm, my step-bro came to my house. lol. he is like twice my age it ink..more den dat but he's so trendy lol. he is short and look svry young. so he's like punk-lookin guy. lol. cute la hor. he's good-looking. seriously.
cant take his pic tho. my webcam not powerful enuff to take his pic. haizz.. phone oso cannot. haizz... sadded la. u guys most be wondering where this bro of mine comes from? suddenly pop up from nowhere. lol. itz a long story but i wont sae. hehe. kill me oso i wont sae. so yep.
anieways... been chattin juz now and got bored of it. Sg guys are juz so desperate. lol. hmmm..watever. i dunno y but it seems to tt da guys in my class and dat i noe are da oni decent guys. haizz.. poor thing... anieways, me going off now.. juz came to blog to tell u abt da arrival of my bro
lol. see ya guys den!
cant take his pic tho. my webcam not powerful enuff to take his pic. haizz.. phone oso cannot. haizz... sadded la. u guys most be wondering where this bro of mine comes from? suddenly pop up from nowhere. lol. itz a long story but i wont sae. hehe. kill me oso i wont sae. so yep.
anieways... been chattin juz now and got bored of it. Sg guys are juz so desperate. lol. hmmm..watever. i dunno y but it seems to tt da guys in my class and dat i noe are da oni decent guys. haizz.. poor thing... anieways, me going off now.. juz came to blog to tell u abt da arrival of my bro
lol. see ya guys den!
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