I took the train to go to Woodlands... Yihong [my tuition teacher], lives at Jurong so its kinda, no, it IS far from jurong to amk. so we decided to meet up at Woodlands Library. =)
A lot of thoughts crossed my mind while i was in the train. Thoughts like, "what's going on in that person's mind?". lol. havent u sometimes wonder? yepps. =)
met up wif Yihong at 6.45pm... her teachings are clear actually. i now undertand da formulaes and all. i can solve most log qns u noe!! lol. and yeah, i solved a qn wif a STAR. ermmm wif a LIL help from my cheecher. teehee.
den we went to da reference section to photocopy some stuff. lol. Yihong vry easy to cheat derr. haharx. Gave me 2 bucks for da printed papers wen dey oni cost 60 cents. lol!
den mama said to get some food from da bazaar at amk central... hmmm... its was 9.30 wen i reached AMK i think. lol. den quickly crossed da road, bought her food den cross back. its was all pretty smooth u noe. lol. den went to da bus stop, my bus was aledi there. so its like... wahhh.. teehee. reached home, ate inside da room wif Mama while watching Rainbow Connection. ciaoz.
16 December 2005
14 December 2005
Never Coming Home
ohh yeahh! teehee. changed me template again ya? cant help it. da other one da fonts were too small and its so hazy. cudnt really see wat i was saying.
anieways, todae i'm off for tuition again. hhe. actually rite, now i find tt i'm liking A maths. wahahha. i noe! so yeahh.. am off to woodlands later at..hmmm 6? yepps. teehee. den go put books. den borrow books again. wakrakkaka.
anieways, nth muc happened so far. really. Chris wasnt online. denn i chatted wif Diyana oni. hehe. she's comin' dwn to Singapore tis New Year's Eve. lol. anieways, i was tinkin of goin to East Coast wif Ravi dey all to countdwn. wahaha. mayb go book chalet ke. haharx. den cn barbecue da de b4. den cn barbecue first ke den off to PARRRRTY!!! teehee.
anieways, am havin lotsa things on my schedule. lol. sound like busy woman ar. now vry pok lor. dunno go wear find money. "cabot bulu gadai, eh?" lol. if oni cn do tt. *sigh* ciaoz.
anieways, todae i'm off for tuition again. hhe. actually rite, now i find tt i'm liking A maths. wahahha. i noe! so yeahh.. am off to woodlands later at..hmmm 6? yepps. teehee. den go put books. den borrow books again. wakrakkaka.
anieways, nth muc happened so far. really. Chris wasnt online. denn i chatted wif Diyana oni. hehe. she's comin' dwn to Singapore tis New Year's Eve. lol. anieways, i was tinkin of goin to East Coast wif Ravi dey all to countdwn. wahaha. mayb go book chalet ke. haharx. den cn barbecue da de b4. den cn barbecue first ke den off to PARRRRTY!!! teehee.
anieways, am havin lotsa things on my schedule. lol. sound like busy woman ar. now vry pok lor. dunno go wear find money. "cabot bulu gadai, eh?" lol. if oni cn do tt. *sigh* ciaoz.
13 December 2005
i'm going crazy!
okies. sorry guys for haven been blogging conscientiously. teehee. anieways, i'm juz so tired of blogging sometimes. lol. but well, its like a routine already so wat da heck.
anieway, my links are dwn at da moment. lol. sth crazy goin on. still tryna figure out da link parts. lol. anieways... new things happened & yeah i tink i'm pathetic now. haizz
i met this new guy called Chris. as always, from the net. haizz. he's not like other guys i usually chat too. he doesnt haf a hot bod or hot face. but he's gd-lookin. he's got piercings & tattoo but doesnt lok at all menacing. he's really sweet u noe. he is so into kids and all. father material.
now da thing is.. he said he's got this intense feelings for me. and tt he had been thinking of me, him & kids while he was working. wellll... its usually the kind of thing tt I wud be thinkin abt but now it seems to go da other way round. lol. i dunno whether to be comforted or not. teehee. i dun wan it to be another of those Brian - David episode.. damn. i'm such a klutz man. wats wrong wif me.
i juz realise tt. the oni guys i noe are those from my school. those who, i meet & go out wif as frens are guys from my own schools. talk abt widenning my social circle. urgh! its so sad man. darn it. yati asked me along to some gig and i said i'd think abt it and she said sth tt made me think hard... "how are u gonna meet new peeps if u dun go out?" tok abt ouch. lol. but i dun mind
wat she said is kinda true. da oni time i go out is to da library or go out wif frens. haizz. sadd sia. i wanna meet guys. as frens first but well. i juz haf got not enuff confidence. da one guy whom i befrended is called Azi. and we smsed & i went out wif my sis to meet my bro in law actually, den still my sis' bf. my bro is frens wif him. he's 19 or 20. but well, wen i meet him, i got tongue-tied cos he's really cute. so i didnt tok to him or een dare to look at him. lol
in da end we stopped smsing and all. later i heard from my sis, he said tt i seem arrogant and seem disinterested in him. lol. double ouch. teehee. yepps. i tink tt sort of scarred me from meeting other guys. hehe. so yeah, i'm such a sad person. triple ouch. anieways, ciaoz.
anieway, my links are dwn at da moment. lol. sth crazy goin on. still tryna figure out da link parts. lol. anieways... new things happened & yeah i tink i'm pathetic now. haizz
i met this new guy called Chris. as always, from the net. haizz. he's not like other guys i usually chat too. he doesnt haf a hot bod or hot face. but he's gd-lookin. he's got piercings & tattoo but doesnt lok at all menacing. he's really sweet u noe. he is so into kids and all. father material.
now da thing is.. he said he's got this intense feelings for me. and tt he had been thinking of me, him & kids while he was working. wellll... its usually the kind of thing tt I wud be thinkin abt but now it seems to go da other way round. lol. i dunno whether to be comforted or not. teehee. i dun wan it to be another of those Brian - David episode.. damn. i'm such a klutz man. wats wrong wif me.
i juz realise tt. the oni guys i noe are those from my school. those who, i meet & go out wif as frens are guys from my own schools. talk abt widenning my social circle. urgh! its so sad man. darn it. yati asked me along to some gig and i said i'd think abt it and she said sth tt made me think hard... "how are u gonna meet new peeps if u dun go out?" tok abt ouch. lol. but i dun mind
wat she said is kinda true. da oni time i go out is to da library or go out wif frens. haizz. sadd sia. i wanna meet guys. as frens first but well. i juz haf got not enuff confidence. da one guy whom i befrended is called Azi. and we smsed & i went out wif my sis to meet my bro in law actually, den still my sis' bf. my bro is frens wif him. he's 19 or 20. but well, wen i meet him, i got tongue-tied cos he's really cute. so i didnt tok to him or een dare to look at him. lol
in da end we stopped smsing and all. later i heard from my sis, he said tt i seem arrogant and seem disinterested in him. lol. double ouch. teehee. yepps. i tink tt sort of scarred me from meeting other guys. hehe. so yeah, i'm such a sad person. triple ouch. anieways, ciaoz.
10 December 2005
SnowQueen
Darn. My feet is aching right now. I can take it no more. now am at da KB cyber cafe again. lol. wif Ravi & Yati. teehee. Mom aint at home. fed up so aint goin to sis' hse. so i met up wif yatee la. teehee. now i noe how Richard looks like. eew.
Anieways, SnowQueen was cool!! teehee. we were 15 minutes late tho cos Rahmat was darn late. waited for like 45 mintues for him yet he didnt arrieve. so yeahh tt was at AMK. den went City hall... denn saw Mami & her fren & her fren daughter. lol. but Rahmat was still not dere. so we waited for him for like a few minutes budden afta tt me & da other two went to da Esplanade first.
da Snowqueen was really nice. it was really like da sh ow i saw on the tv. lol. but it was cooler to be like watchin on on ur face. but well, now i dun feel like blogging ya. so yepps... blog later. ciaoz.
Anieways, SnowQueen was cool!! teehee. we were 15 minutes late tho cos Rahmat was darn late. waited for like 45 mintues for him yet he didnt arrieve. so yeahh tt was at AMK. den went City hall... denn saw Mami & her fren & her fren daughter. lol. but Rahmat was still not dere. so we waited for him for like a few minutes budden afta tt me & da other two went to da Esplanade first.
da Snowqueen was really nice. it was really like da sh ow i saw on the tv. lol. but it was cooler to be like watchin on on ur face. but well, now i dun feel like blogging ya. so yepps... blog later. ciaoz.
dun look no further!
Weeee!! It's 7.32am here but i'm all perked up. teehee. wanna noe why? *comes closer* *whispers* i'm going to watch Snowqueen todae! *jumps up & dwn* weeee!!
yesterdae my aunt asked if i wanna go watch Snowqueen so i said why not. so todae i was sound asleep [atlast!] wen my mum woke me up wif da baby. she had to shit. lol. so i was groggy & took da baby to sleep beside me. den AGAIN she woke me up. my aunt was on da fone. she asked if i wanna go to Snowqueen. wth?! i nodded my head & got up straight afta tt. lol. its at 12. meeting up wif my aunt at 11 at Esplanade!
so now i cant wait. dunno wat to wear actually. lol. sth..... nice? duh! oh yeah. one nite, i REALLY cudnt sleep tt i tink i hallucinated it. suddenly i woke up [ahh at last i slept] & found da conditio of da room to be diff. u noe those scenes on movies wen dey make dark looming room? ahh sth like tt. den my eyes hurt like siao!! i dunno y. it juz hurt. so wen i lie on my tummy, i'd wanted to brush sth off my face wen i actually POKED my eye. POKED. i got long finger nails darn it!!
so now. i'ma wear a black sleeveless shirt. elegance man. and mayb... jeans? lol. yeppp jeans mayb. wif da jackset. yepps. denn i'm done. weeee!! so pretty aiite? teehee. alritey denn. i'll blog later tonite to tell u abt da show. weee! ciaoz.
yesterdae my aunt asked if i wanna go watch Snowqueen so i said why not. so todae i was sound asleep [atlast!] wen my mum woke me up wif da baby. she had to shit. lol. so i was groggy & took da baby to sleep beside me. den AGAIN she woke me up. my aunt was on da fone. she asked if i wanna go to Snowqueen. wth?! i nodded my head & got up straight afta tt. lol. its at 12. meeting up wif my aunt at 11 at Esplanade!
so now i cant wait. dunno wat to wear actually. lol. sth..... nice? duh! oh yeah. one nite, i REALLY cudnt sleep tt i tink i hallucinated it. suddenly i woke up [ahh at last i slept] & found da conditio of da room to be diff. u noe those scenes on movies wen dey make dark looming room? ahh sth like tt. den my eyes hurt like siao!! i dunno y. it juz hurt. so wen i lie on my tummy, i'd wanted to brush sth off my face wen i actually POKED my eye. POKED. i got long finger nails darn it!!
so now. i'ma wear a black sleeveless shirt. elegance man. and mayb... jeans? lol. yeppp jeans mayb. wif da jackset. yepps. denn i'm done. weeee!! so pretty aiite? teehee. alritey denn. i'll blog later tonite to tell u abt da show. weee! ciaoz.
09 December 2005
tell me that it's over
Oh well. Haven been blogging yeah? lol. been meaning to but cant seem to find da discipline to actually log in & blog. lol. anieways, i found sth rather neat. it ws cool really. but i'll post it later. or as u've seen it up dere [da post b4 tis] , abt da Cancerian & Tauran? tts da one.
lol. stupid la. but its kinda nice to read abt ur own horoscope ya? wee! anieways, got to noe tis guy called Chris. well... he aint TT gd looking but he's really really sweet. lol. he's one of the two guys who proposed marriage to me. teehee. denn Shane & Eddie want to meet up wif me. lol. its not Shane TEOH. its another shane. seriously, he's cute! he;s got dimple for gawd's sake!!
anieways, todae, 9.30 am i was aledi in sch. got meeting. waited for Mr Zaman & all. finished a lil afta 12 budden got another meeting & finished at 3. lol. abt 4 1/2 hours dere? wow. lol. rotted & all. oh yeahh and Cheryl hee left me to drown wen she didnt turn up & we had to each explain our... proposals. lol. thk God Agnes helped. Thkies Ah-gh-neh. teehee.
anieways, Xmas is approaching fast. haizz.. wonder who i'll be spending it wif. i seriously wan company u noe. haizzz.. sadd la.. if u wana celebrate wif me or atleast cuddle up wif me, call me up ok? sms me or sth. or email me or tag me. thkies ya. =)
lol. stupid la. but its kinda nice to read abt ur own horoscope ya? wee! anieways, got to noe tis guy called Chris. well... he aint TT gd looking but he's really really sweet. lol. he's one of the two guys who proposed marriage to me. teehee. denn Shane & Eddie want to meet up wif me. lol. its not Shane TEOH. its another shane. seriously, he's cute! he;s got dimple for gawd's sake!!
anieways, todae, 9.30 am i was aledi in sch. got meeting. waited for Mr Zaman & all. finished a lil afta 12 budden got another meeting & finished at 3. lol. abt 4 1/2 hours dere? wow. lol. rotted & all. oh yeahh and Cheryl hee left me to drown wen she didnt turn up & we had to each explain our... proposals. lol. thk God Agnes helped. Thkies Ah-gh-neh. teehee.
anieways, Xmas is approaching fast. haizz.. wonder who i'll be spending it wif. i seriously wan company u noe. haizzz.. sadd la.. if u wana celebrate wif me or atleast cuddle up wif me, call me up ok? sms me or sth. or email me or tag me. thkies ya. =)
08 December 2005
You're Gone
"what will i do if i cant be wif you
tell me where do i turn to
baby where will i be
now that we are apart
am i still in your heart
baby why dun u see
that i need you here wif me"
`the truth remains you're gone.
I love tis song! lol. Gone by 'N sync
'B' for bloody & bastards. Bloody Bastards.
okay. i dunno if itz purely coincidental or fate or watsoever, but i actually got to know Brett the same dae i got to noe Brian. tok abt fate or mere coincidence!
but well, it proves tt gettin to noe guys wif da name startin wif B on Dec 8 is not recommended.
Both disappoint me in some ways. u noe, actually sitting back and lookin at myself. juz reflectin bak on who i am and how i reacted, i find tt i was stupid. i mean, wats da point of hankering afta two guys who barely know me? its true, dey dunno da real me. so far its me behind a facade of other 'mes' on da net.
"i used to think i haf da answers to everythying
but now i noe tt life doesnt always go my way
...all i need is time, a moment that is mine while i'm in betwn."
but well, it proves tt gettin to noe guys wif da name startin wif B on Dec 8 is not recommended.
Both disappoint me in some ways. u noe, actually sitting back and lookin at myself. juz reflectin bak on who i am and how i reacted, i find tt i was stupid. i mean, wats da point of hankering afta two guys who barely know me? its true, dey dunno da real me. so far its me behind a facade of other 'mes' on da net.
"i used to think i haf da answers to everythying
but now i noe tt life doesnt always go my way
...all i need is time, a moment that is mine while i'm in betwn."
Happy Anniversary, Baby
It's two years now. Well, it would have been yeah? Just wanna say that i really treasure all those moments we had. lol. foolishly said, i felt ur love going through all those cables. =)
But oh well, it still hurts to noe tt u wont tok to me again. i saw that u were online a few daes bak on yahoo msn. y didnt u reply baby? i miss u so much baby, i miss u so. Anieways, Happy Anniversary, baby.
But oh well, it still hurts to noe tt u wont tok to me again. i saw that u were online a few daes bak on yahoo msn. y didnt u reply baby? i miss u so much baby, i miss u so. Anieways, Happy Anniversary, baby.
06 December 2005
I Love...
Before i die or anything, i juz wanna tell this people tt i love dem. in alphabetical order.
A - Ain ; Ayin ; Abang Man ; Apple
B - Brian ; Brennan
C - Chris ; Cherish
D - Diana ; Diyana
E - Eddie ; yeah i like u, u silly beng.
H - Hidayah ; Hui Ting [stupid ckn]
I - Irfan =)
J - Julia ; Julie ; Jason [sry we were not meant to be]
L - Linda
M - Mami ; Mamat
N - NURA =) i lurve myself
O - Osman ; Oyah
P - Parmes
R - Ryan ; Ravi ; Rahmat
S - Sharifah ; Shari ; Shalz
V - Vani
Y - Yatee
i lurve these people wif my heart & soul. i may not say it or show it buti feel it.=)
itz not tt i'm gonna die. but i juz wanna expresse my profound love to these people. those whose names are not here ; either i've forgotten [ouch] or u disappoint me [double ouch].
A - Ain ; Ayin ; Abang Man ; Apple
B - Brian ; Brennan
C - Chris ; Cherish
D - Diana ; Diyana
E - Eddie ; yeah i like u, u silly beng.
H - Hidayah ; Hui Ting [stupid ckn]
I - Irfan =)
J - Julia ; Julie ; Jason [sry we were not meant to be]
L - Linda
M - Mami ; Mamat
N - NURA =) i lurve myself
O - Osman ; Oyah
P - Parmes
R - Ryan ; Ravi ; Rahmat
S - Sharifah ; Shari ; Shalz
V - Vani
Y - Yatee
i lurve these people wif my heart & soul. i may not say it or show it buti feel it.=)
itz not tt i'm gonna die. but i juz wanna expresse my profound love to these people. those whose names are not here ; either i've forgotten [ouch] or u disappoint me [double ouch].
Hey Sexy Momma!
i changed da bedsheet. i cleaned da room. i cooked. i cleaned da hse. da oni thing i'm missin is a guy comin hme from work and kissin my forehead. lol .
aiite. i spent my dae doin nth muc actually. lol. denn i chatted to ppl i noe on da line and one vry cute guy. lol. Chris. he's sweet ya. asked me if i had sex & i said n ot until i'm married and he said... wat if we meet & we like each other & everything goes well.. wud u marry me? teehee. tts like ermm... 2 marriage proposals b4 i even hit 18. lol. wat a joke man.
anieways, tomoro is da dae of me tuition. dunno wat to expect. weee! nrm me. okies.. me left fingers got some beige-y colored nail polish.. while me right has da transparent one. lol. it lookes weird. & my nails are friggin long. weeee! especially da ones on my left. vry long ya..
anieways, i'm off to shake my booty booty to da music!! been shakin all dae. lol. now dat my music box is workin, i cn even jiggle all da way in my bathroom! weeee! kk. soon gonna jiggle dere. teehee. need my aromatic cream bath. my dearie cream bath, here i commmmmeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kinky. =P ciaoz.
aiite. i spent my dae doin nth muc actually. lol. denn i chatted to ppl i noe on da line and one vry cute guy. lol. Chris. he's sweet ya. asked me if i had sex & i said n ot until i'm married and he said... wat if we meet & we like each other & everything goes well.. wud u marry me? teehee. tts like ermm... 2 marriage proposals b4 i even hit 18. lol. wat a joke man.
anieways, tomoro is da dae of me tuition. dunno wat to expect. weee! nrm me. okies.. me left fingers got some beige-y colored nail polish.. while me right has da transparent one. lol. it lookes weird. & my nails are friggin long. weeee! especially da ones on my left. vry long ya..
anieways, i'm off to shake my booty booty to da music!! been shakin all dae. lol. now dat my music box is workin, i cn even jiggle all da way in my bathroom! weeee! kk. soon gonna jiggle dere. teehee. need my aromatic cream bath. my dearie cream bath, here i commmmmeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kinky. =P ciaoz.
05 December 2005
Weeee!
12am. mother daughter. watching Hindi movie. Kal Ho Naa Ho. tears. lol yepp stayed til late to watch da movie tt meant "Tomorrow May Not Be" . i tried hard not to cry resulting in a horrible headache. lol
plus. yesterdae da turbulance effect from the wave thingy stuck wif me even til late night. lol. i closed my eyes and felt myself bobbing up & dwn wif da wave motion. lol. horrible. and now i still haf dat headache.
sis & hubby came over to our house to spend da nite wif me nephew. and each of us looked like grilled prawns. lol. i looked so much darker now man. u cn juz see da sunburn takin effect. lol.
and in two daes time, i'm off for my very first tuition lesson. lol. da tuition agent asked if i wan female or male teacher. i pondered for a while acutally before she actually asked da qn. if its a male, if he's gd-lookin, i wont be able to learn anything except the contours of his face prolly. lol. if he is not gd-lookin, somehow someway i wud develop feelings for his inner traits. lol. tts weird rite? haha. so i'd rather not take any chances and preferred a female one. teehee.
anieways, everytime i scratch myself now it feels as tho i'm tearin my skin apart. ouch! teehee. aiite denn. i'll go now and type me remainin story. lol. yeahh in case some of u wonder, my book is published yeah ; Picking Up The Pieces, but its not for da public unfortunately. but oh well, it suck anyway. i'm writing a new story. a short one i tink but i'll post dem on Chocolate. aiite? see ya. hope u guys drop in there once a while. see ya! ciaoz.
plus. yesterdae da turbulance effect from the wave thingy stuck wif me even til late night. lol. i closed my eyes and felt myself bobbing up & dwn wif da wave motion. lol. horrible. and now i still haf dat headache.
sis & hubby came over to our house to spend da nite wif me nephew. and each of us looked like grilled prawns. lol. i looked so much darker now man. u cn juz see da sunburn takin effect. lol.
and in two daes time, i'm off for my very first tuition lesson. lol. da tuition agent asked if i wan female or male teacher. i pondered for a while acutally before she actually asked da qn. if its a male, if he's gd-lookin, i wont be able to learn anything except the contours of his face prolly. lol. if he is not gd-lookin, somehow someway i wud develop feelings for his inner traits. lol. tts weird rite? haha. so i'd rather not take any chances and preferred a female one. teehee.
anieways, everytime i scratch myself now it feels as tho i'm tearin my skin apart. ouch! teehee. aiite denn. i'll go now and type me remainin story. lol. yeahh in case some of u wonder, my book is published yeah ; Picking Up The Pieces, but its not for da public unfortunately. but oh well, it suck anyway. i'm writing a new story. a short one i tink but i'll post dem on Chocolate. aiite? see ya. hope u guys drop in there once a while. see ya! ciaoz.
04 December 2005
Tiring Dae Babe
phew! went swimming todae wif my family & relatives. lol. went to Jurong. so tut lor. nth muc dere really 'cept for da slides, da waves & da turning turning thing. lol. spent my time at da turning turning thing.
go round and round da pool so many times. den at da Wave pool oso. waited for the waves oso. wahh.. altho is at swimming pool hor but it felt like at some sea lor. scary!! went as deep as 1.6M. but is damn deep derr lorr.. hahar. but we were on da buoy la.
den afta tt go da round round thing wif me nephew. lol. he loved it!! lol. he paddled wif his legs. so clever rite! hehe. anieways..now me vry daark. tink i'm gonna go put some lotion on. lol. so tut. pain lor. see ya. ciaoz.
go round and round da pool so many times. den at da Wave pool oso. waited for the waves oso. wahh.. altho is at swimming pool hor but it felt like at some sea lor. scary!! went as deep as 1.6M. but is damn deep derr lorr.. hahar. but we were on da buoy la.
den afta tt go da round round thing wif me nephew. lol. he loved it!! lol. he paddled wif his legs. so clever rite! hehe. anieways..now me vry daark. tink i'm gonna go put some lotion on. lol. so tut. pain lor. see ya. ciaoz.
03 December 2005
turning
My life is turnin for da better now i guess. my tuition's set. A & E maths. 100 bucks per month. cheap rite? its face to face someore. nice. ok lar. atleast i got wat i wanted. and sort of accomodate wif mum. yea..
anyways, todae went to Toa Payoh to search for a buoy for my nephew. tomoro we goin Jurong for a swim!! lol! we'll be off by 10 tomoro. meetin up wif my aunt & uncle. lol. we're gonna haf fun baby!!
anieways... todae quite a couple of thoughts ran through my mind but i forgot wat. lol. sadd la. anieways.. now i wan to go off ler. got nth to sae. teehee. cya. ciaoz.
anyways, todae went to Toa Payoh to search for a buoy for my nephew. tomoro we goin Jurong for a swim!! lol! we'll be off by 10 tomoro. meetin up wif my aunt & uncle. lol. we're gonna haf fun baby!!
anieways... todae quite a couple of thoughts ran through my mind but i forgot wat. lol. sadd la. anieways.. now i wan to go off ler. got nth to sae. teehee. cya. ciaoz.
02 December 2005
frigginly stuupid.
well well well... can u believe tt i'm actually at some cyber cafe wen i actually ahaf a com at home? lol its tupid i noe but i juz had to get away from mama and diddy.
its gettin pretty stressing sittin at hme. mum keeps askin me to pick a friggin tuition entre. so stressed! but anyways, i'm now out wif Ravi & Yati. da two ppl wjom in da past i wudnt actually go ouit wif. i mean not on such a close rapport but ppl change ya? and i like it. =) firstly, i wanna thk dem for bein here for me. =) teehee.
anieways, am goin off now. mum actually smsed me. lol. sometimes i sympathise wif her. sometimes i love her a lot. sometimes she juz puts WAY too much stress on me. stangely, i miss my family now. oh well. i'm a sad case ya? ciaoz.
its gettin pretty stressing sittin at hme. mum keeps askin me to pick a friggin tuition entre. so stressed! but anyways, i'm now out wif Ravi & Yati. da two ppl wjom in da past i wudnt actually go ouit wif. i mean not on such a close rapport but ppl change ya? and i like it. =) firstly, i wanna thk dem for bein here for me. =) teehee.
anieways, am goin off now. mum actually smsed me. lol. sometimes i sympathise wif her. sometimes i love her a lot. sometimes she juz puts WAY too much stress on me. stangely, i miss my family now. oh well. i'm a sad case ya? ciaoz.
01 December 2005
FUCK it!
I hate my life rite now. 'Quit and start work" my dad keeps sayin and its gettin on my nerves! i so hate my life. its at tt point of time tt i realise i AM useless!!
i so hate it now. everyone is blaming me for tis and tt. wen my dad's phone bill goes up its alwaes me! wat abt Mama whose alwaes using da fone to tok to my aunt?! y wen da electricity bill goes up dey blame me for playin on da com so much?! wat abt Mama switchin on da com from mornin den nvr off it til i later take over to play?! wat abt Mama playing com and watchin tv at da same time?! y is it alwaes me?? y is it cos i'm da youngest?! wat da fuck sia.
i'm so fucking pissed riite now. so fucking pissed. i've had thoughts of running away from hme but tt doesnt solve it all. fuck it. my life suck shit. i hate my life now. i've got no one i cn really tok to. Brett is busy wif his fucking things. i'm starting to think twice as to y i call him a gd fren. god, i feel like a cheap slut. fucking whore. fuck you. oh wat da fuck. darn it!!
life juz suck rite now man. i'm friggin tired of my mum askin me to call up tuition centres. "find cheap ones and those subjects tt u wan.." wtf?! cheap?! since wen education is cheap?! wat da fuck sial. quit school? alrite denn. i shall go work. be a fucking whore. get loads of money within hours. oh if lucky, minutes!! i'll be a fucking whore and i'll be a fucking laughing stock in da family.. "haha. study abroad. yeah rite. piece of shit aint she now?!" i cn hear tt comin from my relatives. fuck shit.
i'm gettin da fuck outta here. go brush my fucking teeth. and fuck my fucking self. i hate myself like tis. but i cant help it. wen no one seems to tink u're worthy, wen NO ONE is dere for u... u r juz branded da biggest LOSER & LONER on da face of Earth. thk you. now. fuck off.
i so hate it now. everyone is blaming me for tis and tt. wen my dad's phone bill goes up its alwaes me! wat abt Mama whose alwaes using da fone to tok to my aunt?! y wen da electricity bill goes up dey blame me for playin on da com so much?! wat abt Mama switchin on da com from mornin den nvr off it til i later take over to play?! wat abt Mama playing com and watchin tv at da same time?! y is it alwaes me?? y is it cos i'm da youngest?! wat da fuck sia.
i'm so fucking pissed riite now. so fucking pissed. i've had thoughts of running away from hme but tt doesnt solve it all. fuck it. my life suck shit. i hate my life now. i've got no one i cn really tok to. Brett is busy wif his fucking things. i'm starting to think twice as to y i call him a gd fren. god, i feel like a cheap slut. fucking whore. fuck you. oh wat da fuck. darn it!!
life juz suck rite now man. i'm friggin tired of my mum askin me to call up tuition centres. "find cheap ones and those subjects tt u wan.." wtf?! cheap?! since wen education is cheap?! wat da fuck sial. quit school? alrite denn. i shall go work. be a fucking whore. get loads of money within hours. oh if lucky, minutes!! i'll be a fucking whore and i'll be a fucking laughing stock in da family.. "haha. study abroad. yeah rite. piece of shit aint she now?!" i cn hear tt comin from my relatives. fuck shit.
i'm gettin da fuck outta here. go brush my fucking teeth. and fuck my fucking self. i hate myself like tis. but i cant help it. wen no one seems to tink u're worthy, wen NO ONE is dere for u... u r juz branded da biggest LOSER & LONER on da face of Earth. thk you. now. fuck off.
Hard To Say I'm Sorry
aiite. someone said to me, "Maybe you're looking to hard or you're not looking at all" . I believe, i am the earlier one. lol. so i've told myself, like its my new mantra , wen i see any guys, i'd go.. "no dun look. dun try to hard.." lol i tink soon i'll be falling into da latter.
anyways, i juz realise that its hard to fall out of love. lol. its not really a juz thing but well yeahh. in a week's time, its my so called anniversary wif Brian. the second year. i nvr knew in that one year, so many things can happen. anieways, enough lamenting.
anyways i juz realise tt in other ppl's blog, dey write abt wat they did for that day. but well, mine is mostly abt wat i'm feleing. tts a great contrast ya? =) oh shit. i feel sadd again. darn it. lemme get it all out aiite? next post alrite?
anyways, i juz realise that its hard to fall out of love. lol. its not really a juz thing but well yeahh. in a week's time, its my so called anniversary wif Brian. the second year. i nvr knew in that one year, so many things can happen. anieways, enough lamenting.
anyways i juz realise tt in other ppl's blog, dey write abt wat they did for that day. but well, mine is mostly abt wat i'm feleing. tts a great contrast ya? =) oh shit. i feel sadd again. darn it. lemme get it all out aiite? next post alrite?
make the right decision babe
well, i read a book by James Patterson tis morning called ''Sam's Letters to Jennifer'' . It was really nice u noe. and yeahh, rite now my nephew is crying so badly and my mum is trying to pacify him - get him to sleep. and wat is da SUPERB aunt doing? listening to loud music, blogging, chattin wif Geraldine discussing on sch events. lol
"so lemme slip away!! lemme slip against da current!!" lol. Vindicated. i LURVE loud music baby. lol. so yeahh, todae i practiced a lil self-discipline by not switchin on my com until at around 2. lol. so hapiie.
right. great. now i'm battling wif my mum. she increased da volume of da tv. lol. and wats on on tv if not Commando. right. nice. so now i'm trying to lose myself to da vry loud music of mine. teehee. hehe.
anieways, i'm goin off now. wanna chat wif Ger more abt da stuff we're lining up for studs in our sch. its a whole new year next year!
"so lemme slip away!! lemme slip against da current!!" lol. Vindicated. i LURVE loud music baby. lol. so yeahh, todae i practiced a lil self-discipline by not switchin on my com until at around 2. lol. so hapiie.
right. great. now i'm battling wif my mum. she increased da volume of da tv. lol. and wats on on tv if not Commando. right. nice. so now i'm trying to lose myself to da vry loud music of mine. teehee. hehe.
anieways, i'm goin off now. wanna chat wif Ger more abt da stuff we're lining up for studs in our sch. its a whole new year next year!
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