''show me how you feel...''

Hmmm... i juz realised sth todae. i'm prejudiced against some people i noe. one such person is Li Ying. Another is Wina. Well, with Li Ying... i dunno why and i'm really puzzled. Liying, if you're reading this, forgive me. i'm retreating for some time to sort my feelings.

Maybe it is because she just tries to hard to participate in the things we do. I heard from Sharifah that da reason she stones is 'cos she's often alone at home so she'll have nothing to do, so she stones. Maybe it's bcos she's alwaes like tat tat she is not naturally mingling wif us. but i noe she is trying her best. so i am tryin too, to be a real fren to her. i dun wan to be claimed a hypocrite. give me time aiite?

and Wina, is cos well, 2 years back things happened. all i can say is that she lied a lot. i'm not sure abt Sharifah or da rest but for me, i REALLY don't like people who lie. i dunno why, i juz hate it. seriously. I'm not the type who forgives and forget. I forgive, yes. But. i dun forget. tts me. i'm like my mum. [ok..tt is hereditary..] but yeahh, atleast wif her, i'm still jokin around but for me to be really close to her da wae we were in da past, nuh uh. i need time to rebuild our foundation of trust.

anieways... todae got no remedials!! haharx! supposed to haf Bio but den da whole class complained abt not knowing and dat dey didnt bring da book. itz true la actually. but come to think of it, did Pauline Lim EVER uses da textbook?? haizz..

anieways..nth muc happened. afta sch went to da canteen wif Nas, Ayin n Shari. did nonsensical things and all den we went to da library but soon afta we walked home. wahahaha.. tis Sat my family is like going out to Johor while i'll be at da library da whole day, tryna learn some stuff. Exams in less dan 1 month? lol. yep.

Grind On Me...

Oh garsh... every teacher is like going, "Your exams are just three weeks away!". haizz... as if i need reminding about that.

its stressful enough now that i am STILL clueless about A. Maths although there was lik remedial... and dat i am really fearing for myself. Can life get any worser?

anyways..today didnt do anything much. quite a number of free periods here and there so yeahh... but i made full use of those free periods you noe. i did my SS hw. it was really nice u noe i mean.. i'm like so different. i usually wont do my hw till like last minute but now i'm like doing dem on time. its kinda cool actually. if only i can put da same amount or even more energy and enthusiasm in Mathematics, both E. and A. .

so yeahh..had Lit remedial.. it was fun actually wif QianYi and her crap.. and Julia wif her nonsensical yet funny questions and observations. oh yeahh, i learnt sth today too. a tongue twister! i shall sign off now but b4 u go, try reading this fast!

The sixth sheik's sixth sheep's sick.

It is claimed that this is the hardest tongue twister. So... start trying people! Enjoy!

w.e.i.r.d m.e w.a.h.a.h.a.h.a :) 

Yay!!!

Yippee!!! i am SO loving tis template!! hehe. i dunno y but all my templates so far has been black background-ed. wahahahha.. its sooo beautiful!

anieways..i wanna take tis opportunity to thank all my fwens. All those ppeeps, regardless of close or not, who in some ways or another cheered me up during school hours. Even small little thing counts u noe. (= Thank You.

secondly, i wanna say that i hate 'him' now. Thanks to 'him' i now have no mood to go to school and no motivation at all. He WAS my motivation until.... then. so yeahh. tts all folks! bye! and Enjoy!!

Break Down

Well...today 307 did sth really really bad. We made Mrs Sng, our English teacher, cry. Mrs Sng was worried about her baby who is in da hospital bcos he is havin fever and she said she had a fren whose child died within a week of havin fever cos da docs didnt noe wat was da caouse of it. it was pretty sad. den she walked out and cried, wenta da toilet. Sharifah went afta her.

haizz.. den had ermm... remedial.. A and E maths.. haizz.... it was pretty ok for E maths.. but A maths shucked man. As always! haizz.. anieways... no hw so i mapled and now bloggin and soon gonna change da whole outlook of tis blog again. hehe. cant help it if i like to beautify my blog. see ya!

School Starts!

haizz...so school's started and yeahh... had an English oral! lol. started at 3.20pm i tink... it was ok i guess.. did quite ok.... dun expect much tho. den b4 dat me, jas, agnes,qiu ling and daryl sat together and talk nonsense la. den dat silly daryl was like going "puki puki puki" once in a while! lol. den he was like going to Sharifah and bowed to her while greeting, "pukimakkau". lol!

it was totally hilarious man! den afta dat me and shrifah plus Tempeh, she too had her Eng oral, went to eat some spicy mee goreng.. hehe... den we talked lotsa stuff den went home.

den i did all of my hw. especially social studies. did my full job ya noe. am feelin so proud of meself! now me gonna maple liao! ciaoz!!

Relationships

Gdness... Hilary is like wif tis Good Charlotte guy... and he's like ok ..and cute and all.. but wow... tt gal has grown man... i mean its like... wow. lol. i'm babbling. i realise... tt its not easy to keep a relationship.

tink abt it. wen u're single, u cn do WATEVER u wan, ANYTIME, ANYWHERE. u need not report to him abt who u r wif and where u r and why. its juz YOU. but den.. u haf no one to lend an unwilling ear to all ur woes [lol]. or someone to cheer u up and someone to juz be dere for u. i noe frens can do all dat but which one of ur frens wud actually pay tat SPECIAL attention to u? ahhh.... (=

so yeahh.. but wen u r in a relationship, u cant be too possesive. u cant be too inquisitive... u HAFTa to be faithful...muz haf trust. but well.. easier said den done. haizz.. so which dya tink? relationship no relationship? >_<'''

Life II

Todae i went to KK hospital for BF's check-up. i saw and learnt a lot of things. Like how to REALLY carry ur baby and stuff. twas stupid u noe.. seein how some mothers carried their child. One was slouching her poor baby all da wae. she seemed as though she was rehearsing da stuff she learnt at some parenting course. lol. lamer. den another was cradling her child da wrong way. da baby's head was hanging for god's sake!!

haizz.. cant comment much tho. cos i aint a mother but i've taken care of babes b4. so yeahh.. i've got my fair share of baby-handling. lol. den went Geylang. kakaka. of all places. my mum wanted to buy some stuff dere. so yeah.. juz followed her... my BF was asleep on off... so yeahh.. btw..my sis came along...

den afta dat reached home den been mapling for abt an hour and a half? its getting pretty boring now. but met Ben at da last minute so decided to play for a while more. lol. den logged online on web-based msn.. garsh..its DARN boring dere now! i mean.. my oh my... in da past it was WAY busy. now its...too peaceful. Michael cant be online nowadays. Brett, David and Brian are like.. haizz... haizz... its so sad how frenships result to a standstill afta some time. itz been a year now. wow. time flies by so fast.

aniewaes... am pretty bored now..so mayb gna change my template or... post more entries like lyrics of my fav songs. lol. i need to post more i guess.. oh yeahh... i have been tinkin of HIM recently.. hmmm...tts bad.. notti notti. =)

Life

Haizz... so sian. Today is like Thursday already. School's gonna start real soon now. anieways.. went out wif Kak Titin, Harun and Juffrey. Hehe. We went Bugis.. walked around and had our lunch at the chinses stalls there by the roadside.

it was stupid u noe. dere was tis uncle who has PMS i tink. he was all grumpy and stuff. Jo and Kak Titin was scolded for no apparent reason. but we had a laff. lol. den we walked all da way to Esplanade. Harun has been wanting to go bak dere ever since da dae we went to see a concert dere. he'd wanted to take pics dere. lol.lamer.

den on da wae walkin, we had fun. talkin wif a slang.
it was pretty stupid. Jo was da one who started it along wif Harun... den it ended wif all of us tryna SLANG. it was funny la.

den afta dat went central... walked around.. bought Rotiboy and sugarcane drinks. den walk walk walk den went to da AMK interchange to take our bus. hehe. den yeahh.. stayed wif me till my bus came den all three of dem went home.. hehe. sweet aiite? so tts mainly wat happened.

Ya lookin' at my bf dere! (= 

Fragile Heart

A fragile heart was broken before
I don't think it could endure another pain
But there's a voice from deep inside of you
That's calling out to make you realise
That this new bond gives inspiration
To all I feel the love appeal no more
So how can I break this wall around you
That's aiding both our hearts to grow in pain

So forget your past and we can dream tomorrow
Save our hearts for care and lovin' too
It's hard, I know, but oh one thing's for sure
Don't go and break this fragile heart.

A hurting mind in need of emotion
I don't think I could endure another pain
But baby in you, I've found affection
Affection I have never felt before

So don't let your past
Destroy what comes tomorrow
Don't go and break this fragile heart

With all this fire that burns between us
There's so much to lose, yet so much more to gain
And if I could choose the world around me
The world I choose would all revolve around you
So help me complete the game inside me
And help to mend, to mend this fragile heart.

Haizzz...

I survived through 3 gruelling hours of Maths yesterday. Lol. Mr Lee spent like 20-30 minutes on E maths and the rest of da time was 20 minutes break and den A maths... stupid rite? haizz...

i've been doin a lot of thinkin these past few daes... lol NOT surprising aiite. well...i tink i'm da only person who goes through phases of life faster den many others. why? well. i mean.... my kind of life is such that my thinkin is not of a normal teenager anymore.

think about it. i've seen how teenagers just walk pass babies with a little coo-ing den tts it. but for me... i TAKE CARE of a baby. i see things from a different perspective. i dunnoe hw to explain it.

since small, i noe i'm going through phases of life faster den anyone else my age. i mean... for a teenager of 15 yr old now, i am tinkin of baby diapers, baby's milk. i'm tinkin of things so far ahead of me. it astounds me yet scares me too.

i rmb writing in my diary sayin da vry same thing. how in a relationship, normal teenage couple wud juz take life as it comes. wen dey are together, dey r together. they hug and hold hands. mayb kiss a lil. but for me, i'd think deep like wat wud happen wen we're married. it scares da shit outta me too man.

but wateva happens, i try to keep in mind dat i am STILL a kid. i am a teenager. i cant stop myself from going through all da phases of life whether its too early or not. but i hope i noe where to draw da line. i really hope.

You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant

My life is brilliant
My love is pure
I saw an angel
Of that I'm sure
She smiled at me on the subway
She was with another man
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan

You're beautiful, You're beautiful, It's true,
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
I will never be with you

Yes, she caught my eye,
As I walked on by,
She could see from my face that I was,
fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end

You're beautiful, You're beautiful, It's true,
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
I will never be with you
You're beautiful, You're beautiful, It's true,
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
I will never be with you

(La-la-la-la, La-la-la-la, La-la-la-la, Laaah)

You're beautiful, You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you...

My bf.

Awww...my bf is so cute. Hehe. Every day wen i come home, i always look out for him. den i go bathe den play wif him. hehe. he's turning 3 months-old tomorrow. he's able to like smile and laff at u. he's also able to like 'talk' to you. wen u talk to him, he will make all sorts of noise. lol. so cute rite?? hehe.

anieways. juz now had a meeting. exco councillors. hehe. 18 of us u noe. lol. huge rite da number? aniyways i'm da fucntion organiser in which i organise functions. i'm in charge of it all. and Geraldine is my partner. hehe. partner in crime. lol. den now my first task is a gathering for the councillors to bond. lol. and we're planning to do it at sentosa and organise games and stuff. hehe.

den juz now my class went debate against 309. it was stupid i tell u. i mena not dat i'm being bias. but well, true dat my class didnt prepare well being Sharifah preparing da speech for all and Parmes summarising everything... but yeahh, all in all, it is certified that Raja is bias. haizz.. teachers are always bias with students who are academically talented. haizz...

aniewasys, these few daes, i've been tinkin of 'him'. haizz...but atleast not so much larr.. been pretty busy wif da councillor stuff and all. hehe. den, i feell ike i'm drifting apart from my fwens. i dun wan it to happen again. i really dont.

anieways, my bf is calling out to me now. lol. he's like making noises. trying to attract my attention. lol. so cute rite??? hehe. i try to post more pic of him.. wahahha. see ya!

End of August

well. its da end of august now. so yeahh. lotsa things happened. finally i've got a post in the council board. Function organiser. watever fuck is tat? anieways, suppose to haf a bloody meetin on tuesdae but SOME farkers were juz too busy...all those 309 peeps. WATEVA.

todae had da cher's dae celebration. lame. lame ass. was doing duty throughout actually. enjoyed several performances. so yeah. and wat else? oh yeah. aunt's bdae. so stingy. y cant she juz order food to her hse? wanna bring us to some hawker centre to celebrater her farkin bdae. wateva. on my ndae, i didnt even haf a decent cake. except for da ones tat was baked by Shari. =) i love da Expressoz.... and i tink we shud rename ourselves. bcos SOME ppl are juz not worth to be in our grp.

and tis goddamn com is lagging like fuck! cant i juz haf sth decent goin on in my life now? io hate everyone at tis moment. i love oni my bf. and he's out wif dat woman who cant carry a baby properly!!! i'm so fucking angry!!! i'll enter in another entry later. see ya. farkers.

me bf standin... wahahhaha... =) 

"see Gf! i'm holdin my bottle!!"  

now TATS my Bf... hehe.. got u somewhere around dere didnt i? lol  

wahahha...tis is wen i feelin shhhweeet yet crazy.. da combination as u cn see... is..*ahem* 

Sianzz

Okies.... i still cant forget HIM.... haizz... i'm really tryin but each time i see his face in school..i cannot make it lorhx...haizz...wat to do??

anieways todae i play da Maplestory... haharx... level 10 liao..den some Kenneth guy help me to go around da new place..wahh piangg den he brought me go some difficult place..dwn dere da ppl power is like 100+++ and mine was like 20+++ wahahahahah...damn paisehh lorhh...

haizz..anieways..todae da PIGS...went to eat da spicy mee goreng again..wahahaha..i didnt tho..me sore throat still around..den came home mama nagged about me not takin medicine..haizz... ok liao mahh.. haharx..

wat else arhx?? i feel like goin massage like tat lorhx.... my whole body aching like siao... haizz... cannot make it larhx... haizz... den todae..my com gimme prob.... i log on and off my two accounts but keep jamming... den i restart den ok... wahh piangg.. even my com angry at me... cannot make it larhz...

oh ya...i realised i been tinkin of Brett... y arhh?? i tink i miss his fwenship and crapness... hehehe... awwww.. i really miss dat big guy... shit him... made fwens den afta dat gt problems dun wan share..go other place... so tut... haizz...hafta rely on Ed to get info abt him...

anieways... i change my template again..hehe... i will be posting some pics...hehe... see ya later lar... nite!

My Love Is Brilliant

My Love is Pure

Sick!!!

Fever
Sore Throat
Neck Pain

How bad can it go?? i'm terribly sick.... *sobs* and bcos of dat..i cant carry bf... so sian wan... haizz.... i die die dun wan go doc in truth but cos i really cannot tahan, i go c doc lorhx... haizz... cannot make it derhx...

todae nth muc happened... stange enuff, a lot of teachers nvr come... like Luah, Sng, Ang... vry shiok rite??? hehe... but yeahh..i was too tired and too lethargic to do anythin..tests also we all copy..haharx..i pity ad relief teacher..feel guilty... he didnt really noe it was a test.. den we take advenatage lorhx... haizz..

anieways...i dun haf anythin to sae ..yet. hehe... sometime tomoro i update again... nitey nite!

Phew! Its been long...

Whoah...its been long yeahh since i used this com... and da reason plainly bein my family and i slept over at my sis' hse ever since my BF was admited into da hospital...so yeahh...

so for da past weeks, i've been goin to school quite late cos da buses came late..and i got out of da hse late and so on so forth... it was actuallly pretty boring dere cos no com..lol but yeahh..i survived!!!

den was pretty busy with the debate and stuff so didnt tink much abt com or bein bored. Right now, my com is really slow..watever i typed doesnt come out until a few seconds later...LAGGING!!! anieways...rite no am havin a kind of sore throat.... my throat is hurtin me wenever i swallow... so later i'm goin dwn to buy some strepsils...hehe...

basically, nth muc happened i guess.... juz da same every day life kinda thing... lol i noe this doesnt make up for da loss of updates i've not been doin but yeah.h..rite now i'm havin a headache too..so yeahh...everythin hurts... and it feels weird to be comin bak home after so long...lol

i'll blog again tomorrow... hehe yess..i'm now at home and intendin to stay here until mayb da weekends...lol so yeahh... tomorrow i'll be back!!! =)

Now it's time to face the truth

I will never be with you.

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you off of your feet. This is a true and honest
kiss that means a lot for both of you. it's
enough to send you into la la land but your
fine being there as long as he's with you.

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A gentle peck
on the cheek. The sweet note in his locker
scribbled just to tell him that youre so lucky
to have him. The unexpected message on his
phone that just says, Hey, hun. Just wanted to
say Im thinking of you. Love you. The gentle,
tender embrace that told him you were sorry his
day sucked and that you hoped he felt better.
You look into his eyes and see everything youve
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ofthey are beautiful, wonderful things, but,
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healthy. Just be sure to keep some of your
expectations and daydreams in check.
You need a boy who is very creative, thoughtful,
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feelings and a heart as romantic as your own.
He knows how to play prince charming and sweep
you off your feet with ballads and sweet
declarations of his love. The two of you will
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tiredz..

okie dokie.... da bay is like still in da hospital... he was supposed to come back
home today but suddenly he had fever again... URGH!!

so yeahh... den went off to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory again with Sharifah... haharx..it was a stupid show actually. so cant help it but laff too larhx...

den now i'm all alone at home...watchin American Idol...its another lame show. so yeahh.. nth much happened todae in school... no PE... am growin fatter by da day...lol so yeahh... mayb later i'll post da pics of National Day... tt is if my fwen send it in time...

Hospital Visit...

oh well...was feeling really tired.. but still went to da hospital to visit my dear bf...

my heart broke wen i saw him... his right arm was plastered to a kind of stick...with needle poked on da back of his hand.... it was really heart-breakin for me to see...

stayed for a while dere... did my hw and stuff... den at around 6.15pm , i went hme myself wif a broken slipper... goodness! den i tink several people saw it larhx.. kakakakakakaka... den went home, did nothing else but chat larhx... aharx.. it was a pretty laid-back day... had planned to go out wif Parmes dey all but den dey all dun wan .... wahahahha...crazy larhx!

ciaoz!

What a National Day

Well.... first and foremost, Happy Birthday Singapore!! *blow trumpet [??]*
anyways... today is SIngapore's 40th Birthday... =) big number dere but still young at heart!

Today was supposed to go for the celebration at Tampiness with da whole family but my bf fell ill. He had fever...no wonder he was mysteriously quiet today. so yeahh..but my mom told me to go still...be a representative i guess... so yeahh..i went..

dere was a sea of red wif lots of umbrellas opened trying to prevent death, in a form of da sun, to reach them or touch their untouchable selves. =D *sarcastic here..* no one was "ra-ra", not many... not even half of da crowd dere wanted to participate in all da things we were supposed to do. In short, it was... LAME.

all da aunties were carrying umbrellas, shadin themselves from da afternoon sun. For goodness' sake! da sun wont kill!!! den dey came chatterin all da way... didnt wan to participate in da "dance No. 40" neither did dey want to do da SIngapore Wave.... lame crowd.

I got so fed up u noe!! all those aunties. if dey want to just watch da show and not participate, den get thier ass off da chairs, walk home and sit dwn comfortably on ur couch and watch on tv!!! can u believe dat even wen da National Anthem came on, we had to URGE people to stand???!!! Talk about the spirit of Singaporeans. *pouii*

BUT. me and my cousins, we cudnt care less. We came to celebrate and we sure did. we were da only one screamin da loudest wen da camera isnt on. [those people are fakers. Be "enthu" oni wen cam is on..]. we clapped, cheered and screamed. we had loads of fun!

wen da "Reach Out For The Skies" song came on, we danced like siao! lol! even my aunt joined in!! lol...it was totally hilarious... then i stood on da chair and waved my hand and sang out loud..lol bet da peeps right behind me cant see a thing 'cept my booty-booty! lol. den i SCREAMED da loudest i guess wen da fireworks came in... everyone looked at me like i was loose from da asylum... lol
cant help it can i? i'm happy and celebratin for my nation's bdae. now TATS called da spirit of Singaporeans. lol.

p.s: Bf had to stay at da hospital.... =( sadded larhx.

My Bf!!

todae went school den came home early cos in sch no one to talk to and hang out wif considerin da fact dat Nas and Sharifah went to Korean den cudnt find Ayin and Shari.... so yeahh...

went out wif my mum and bf...hehe..i carried him all da way wif da carrier thingy.... so yeahh.. den saw Yan Hui from far..dunnoe wether he got see me...hmm...den bought two new shirts [again?!] lol! cant complain now dat my mom dun pay attantion to me... *sheepish*

den reached home at about 3pm? cant rmb...den bf was like cryin...mom fed him and stuff while i listened to some of the stuff i dwlded... den mum wanted to go bathe den pray den cook...passed bf to me... i was vry bad..i wanted to focus on playin da com... so i put him in da crib...

afta a while, he kept callin out to anyone and everyone.... lol... i was like... "so cute! but who's gonna carry you??" lol bad rite... den at last i carried him...den i was like scoldin him larhx.... den i put him dwn again.... den he look at me wif dat pitiful face.... my heart broke but i ignored him..... =(

den he cried.... so i cudnt take it anymore so i carried him... den put on some low songs den patted him throughout erm... almost 3 songs.... hehe...den he fell asleep... =) i felt so bad for treatin him da way i did before... he juz looked too cute and pitiful to be scolded..... *sniffles* hehe... so cute larhx my bf =D

den now he's awake again cos my sis bringin him out..haiya.... let da boy sleep for goodness sake!!! hehe... anieways..my cramp now ok lerh.. and my bf ish cryin..... ='( so sadd.... nvrm...my mum takin care of him...so yeahh... i'll write in another entry mayb some time later? see ya!

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Cramp )=

Ever since this morning i woke up.... i've been havin tis one kind of abdominal cramp... and it leaves me breathless for a few seconds.... i've had it before actually.... about a few months ago? it was in da middle of da nite... wasnt da kind of pain wen u feel like shittin.... it juz sort of cramp up inside and squeeze out watever oxygen u haf..leavin u breathless...

rite now i'm still havin those attacks... was havin one juz now...*sigh* hope i'll be ok for tomoro... =( tomolo is da dae for me to emcee and stuff... =) so yeahh and oso...well..i noe tis is foolish but to oso see him.... hehe

anyways...i found out dat my dad regretted not lettin me go to Korea...but well... i dun mind actually... its ok for me..seriously.. i noe my family wont be able to pay for my expenses so yeahh... its ok..i can like save up...? and go for another trip somewhere??? lol yep..

i beta go now.... tink da cramp is comin up again soon..and gonna steal my breath! see ya guys! oh yeahh.. i miss Meche and Apple!!

Family Gathering

oh well.... went to sleep over at my sis' new house yesterday... =D da whole family! includin my close aunt... hehe... her hse is actually cool.... vibrant colors on da walls... =)

den yeahh...i was pretty bored cos dere wasnt any com and sine it's yet to be furnished, dere wasnt anythin muc to do...so i sat and lay down, readin my Nora Roberts's bdae gift book...hehehehe

den dey switched on VCD...some comedy cum horror malay movie...it was funny yeahh but WAY scary too..ended up erm...actually da pillow was just obscuring my view.... lol

den yeahh...slept quite early i guess...was so bored..lol but my bf was crying in da wee mornin too...kept da whole house awake except for me.... =D lol betta go now... =)

S.Korea

oh well.... our two dear gals, Meche and Apple...flew to Korea tonite.... at around 10.30 dey headed for da departing hall... awwww... lol me, Parmes and Vani went to send them off... lol here's how it went...

got home late from Guides.... [tiring!! and u noe who took us.. YM!]... den called Vani to tell her i wasnt goin...cos was too tired but in da end i gave in and went... but wen i took da taxi home and alighted, i immediately felt like backin out again. i seemed like as tho i'd arrived in hell... fire... lots of dem... cos ppl burn incense papers... garsh..scared da *tut* out of me... tsk tsk tsk...

anyways..slept through the journey in da bus wif Parmes and Vani talkin at da back... lol den wen we reached, went straight to da ladies den went to meet dem...

had a lil 'gal party' without Nas tho cos her parents were there... so yeahh.. fed Meche like as tho she'd be gone for 6 months instead of days... lol den yeahh.. den MC was angry wif me for no apparent reason... boys! *roll eyes*

so yeahh...den got bak from home at around...11 plus pm?? hehehe... den yeahh... den tis entry is like made on da seventh of August.. lol =D

Dropping...

Yesh..my studies are dropping... badly. [yikes!] so yeahh... my English..i tink its deteriorating.. so i've gotta read more books.. BUT, i juz dun haf da time... [wait a minute, there's no such thing as BUT. If u wanna do it, u juz gotta do it.] so yeahh... den..my maths is like... total disappointment.. so i got Meng Chin to teach me.. or rather..tutor me. haharx.. gd fwen.. =)

den my bio is hopeless... i'm juz nt cut out to be a scientist. my physics.. a bit hopeful dere... POA... a lil ray of hope i guess... juz dat i juz gotta DO da work and LISTEN!! haharx =) den wat else? Lit? hehe..i noe i cn do it.. but i juz dun wan to.. haizz... itz so sadd to see my time wastedd away juz like tt... sadd...

anieways.. todae was quite a laidback dae.. [i didnt go to sch ystd cos i was SO tiredd...] hmmm... didnt do muc. didnt see HIM muc but i dun mind. den i sort of confronted 'Amber' abt da Jasper thingy... she admitted and i told her wat i was feeling... nw we're like SISTAZ again =D haharx! but yeahh.. i've deleted Jasper's no. i tink dat da guy dat actually cn cause a rift btwn gd fwens r like nt worth it... so yeahh...

oh yeahh..got Guides todae..wahahha..sux but yeahh.. i juz hope dat da PLs cn be more serious.. [especially Ju-ju!!] hehehe... dey R ok outside of guides but wen it comes to PLs duty of footdrills and stuff.. i hate to admit but i prefer Yong Meng [no matter how harsh he may be..]... haizz.. no use broodin abt it.. anieways.. i wanna go n read my Nora Robert's book... hehe i still havent read dem since i receieved dem on 12 July... wahahahha.... too neat and tidy to read.. da wrappin and all... [talk abt craaaziness!] adios amigos ppl!

Baby Carrier

Lol. i still cant believe tat i'm actually usin da baby carrier to carry my darlin... lol.. i mean.. da reason y i didnt wan to use it in da first place was cos it was troublesome and errr...unfashionable...lo but yeahh... all da rest are like busy doing this and tat and i hafta take care of him.... but i wanna play da com to so yeahh... i strapped him on and now here i am typin happily... [not really..his head is blockin my view some times.. lol]

so yeahh... im so bored.... Mike sent me an e-mail.. =) he's a sweet guy... [mike, if u're readin tis, dun blush...] (= lol so yeahh... hmmm... todae i actually woke up freakin early..i dunno y...i had been wakin up frequently in da middle of da nite in da middle of my dreams... hmmm... so yeahh....

anieways..i'll hafta go wash my school shoes soon..lol itz like...covered in soots of black... [wad am i talkin??] anieways..in hort i juz hafta wash it... den oh yeahh... i bought new shoe [pink!], 2 shirts [pink!]. haharx...so happy..and a long skirt.. [pink!] lol... i duno y but i like pink nowadays..and i'd received a handbouquet of roses[3] each from two of my aunts... [rmb da entry abt my aunt thingy??] so yeahh.. haharx..anieways..i beta go now..see ya!

You And Me

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

Insanity

i am feelin melancholic at da same time angry or frustration maybe? let me juz type watever i'm feelin... i'm goin insane actually..some of dese things wont make sense to u...

fcuk Brian for playin wif a lil naive gal's heart... fcuk Brett for tellin lies and pretendin to be a great guy... fcuk all teachers who are out to make my life miserable!! fcuk Jasper for all da false pretence... fcuk Nura for bein sooo garn stoopid..for lettin ppl control my life! for lettin ppl climb all over me!!!! argh!!! fcuk me!!!!!

fcuk WL for makin me like him! suffered insomnia for two fcukin weeks!!!! fcuk him for bein so macho and all-so-perfect [in my eyes]... fcuk him for likin someone else... fcuk him for makin me lose interest in sch... fcuk everyone.

okies i'm done... now..lemme try to write more vulgarities in all my sentences... [tis gettin fun!]

kanina... HT hit my tits ... nabei..tink not pain izzit? den dat bloody GC, MJ, JO, AS, NR, JJ... made me waste my bloody precious time on stupid interview. didnt even go for it!! nabei... hong gan arhx.. [wats da meanin anieways?? goodness..] nabei..call me go interview den afta dat..forget abt me.. tink wat? i bloody pillar izzit?? cheebai... make me waste time.. kanina...

kakakakka..okies..it does sound funny.. cos i'm nt usually da kind of person who uses tis kinda words... oops... lol too vulgar..dun worry..tis is probably da last time..

Forget It.

Well.... the interview for the post of the president was...... nothing. I didnt go through it. 'Cause.... they simply forgot about me. =P lol. riduculous isnt it? but who cares? i dun mind really.

anieways...todae bcos of da err.. "interview", i didnt go for Guides for most of the time. Yong Meng tortured them still...tis time was even worser, they had to run around and actually do pumpings! Yong Meng bully girls!!! haizz.... sadistic guy..still can laugh around wif his frens while torturing my poor guides...

so yeahh... finally the week is over... [yay.] my body is aching still...especially my spine area... wonder if deres sth wrong... [hmmm..]. Had my A.maths test todae... garsh..i'm failing it.. AGAIN. argh!!! i so wanna do vry well for my studies but its like... so out of the qn.... haizz..sadded..

anieways, todae nth muc happened... Cikgu Normila was angry at me and Andri i guess..cos we were suppose to do a presentation but Andri didnt bring the diskette, knowing tat i've had it saved on my schooldna account but Cikgu took it as an excuse tat we wanted to escape.. [!!!] haizz...teachers assume too much... but yeahh..

i find tat i'm like turnin into a 'bad' girl..i mean nt as THOSE kinda bad gal..but juz... rebellious? I seem to be doing everything wrong and rude nowadays... i dunno y.. plus it sort of matters to me to make good impressions on others... haizz..i'm going bonkers!

anieways...da past few days..i realised i havent been looking forward to coming to school... its different when i liked WL.... its like..coming to school is BEAUTIFUL during those days but now...it juz sux. COnsidering da fact dat i dun understand A.Maths & E.Maths [and Mr Lee is not helping by making me look like da worst student he ever had..], Physics [i've stopped listening to Mr Ang da past few lessons..i wonder why..], POA [i cn NVR understand those concepts..], Bio[al those terms and stuff..haizz...]. Now do u noe y i'm like a total failure?

school juz sucks nowadays... how miserable can ur already miserable get? it juz sux big time... haizz... if only i still like WL as muc as i liked him in da past..at least goin to sch and facing these teachers is tolerable... life is a torture nowadays...

Wake Me Up When All Bad Things End

I cant believe how tired i am rite now! my eyelids are half drooping... i cant help it! i'm juz soooo sleepy..

dere was a false alarm yesterday about the debate being today... so i practically rushed through all the debate notes and stuff... den i've been sleepin late da past few days...lol been reading all da past boks of Harry Potter.... =)

anyways, i'm da emcee for the National Day cum Leadership Handover Ceremony. =) so is joshua [suzy].... =) so yeahh...den i need not do marchin larhx...hehe...but i prefer to march.... a lil bit of both...

so yeahh...tomolo gt a. maths test.. chap 4 n 5...haizzz...sian...i go study a bit den i o sleep... =) bye. sry arhx..nt in da mood to blog...

Absolute Pain!

Urghh!!! If Yong Meng were my junior, i'd kill him!! =) lol nahhh... juz tat he is so irritatin. "timer....no horsekick.." haizz... so pressurising.. haharx..den keep lookin at my feet... i noe larhx my feet vry cute..vry small.. lol but no need untill see like tat rite?!

then dat Kenny... oops sry..Encik Kenny... wahhh.. make us turn 180 degrees repeatedly for few spins... wahhh.. dizzy! den his timing os fast..we cannot keep up larhx...

but we split ourselves into several gropus den mine was under my DEAREST baobei! =D den me, Wendy and Wei TIng... we three.. super trio!! haharx! all sec threes larhx... den we super good larhx... hehe..

then yes...now... my body aching...wud really appreciate a full body massage... haizz... in my dreams bahz... anyway..me not going to the band concert liao... bcos of me darling Mamat..... gt his errr... ceremony? party? aiya..sth of some sort of tat larhx... so yeahh..cannot go watch concert..Sadded.

Sadded was actually created by Juliao.. lol we got caught on it.. [she's great wif makin new word trends... many many...la..wat can dat gal nt do??!! =) ] so yeahh... tt word is like..copyrighted eh? lol stupid assembly..patent..design...trademark and copyright..haizz..ppl nowadays gone bonkers...nth beta to do... poor thing lar.. =)

tomolo some more gt derhx Muster Parade thing...FULL U!!!! argh!! it juz adds up to my already miserable life... nvrm.. i shall.. SMILE =D yesh..a smile can do wonders =) so...SMILE! =D (=

Irony of Life

The funny hing about life is that.... the things that revolve around you are rarely true... i mean..people think up of excuses to get themseleves out of trouble or some sort of misunderstanding...

My aunt called me todae and she was like apologising all da time for forgettin my bdae.. my bdae for god's sake!! and tt was lik... 12 days ago?! seriosuly i dun mind but da fact dat we were on da phone for like 5 mins wif her spoutin all sorts of excuses... its sick!

and now... my family is lik havin a fite wif my neighbour... some trouble of some sort... and yeahh... my dad is so angry and fuming dat he actually swore! he swore!! my dad NEVER swears... so yehh..i guess u cn lik guess from da situation now... so sadd...

anieways..rotted myself at hme... no hw... juz edited my novel... =) tink i'm gna post dem up here. hope u guys enjoy it.. =) and do post sth like comments or tag da board.. =)

Frustrated.

Frustration! tts wat i'm feeling rite now. cos of da stupid msn... i cud actually log in yesterdae!!! i was so friggin happie!!! den juz now wen i switch on the com and tried to log in, i cant. Urgh!!

but i guess i've like adapted myself to not using MSN... =( so yeahh... anieways, did i mention to u dat i've been reunited wif Ming Xian!!!!! oh garsh... i miss her loads!! i still cant believe tat we're talking abt da same ming xian as da one YEARS bak...

she's now bak in Korea so yeahh... haizz...cud haf gone on da school Korea trip this August...but got no cash so yeahh... but nvrm... we can still keep in contact through email.. =) hmmm..so happy..

anieways..didnt do much todae..had POA test which i noe i will fail. =P hmmm and during Physics Mr Ang didnt come so Parmes, Pris and me talked about Harry da ENTIRE period. lol. it was interesting tho.. Parmes seems to noe all da names.. Pris da details and i juz add on... lol i cant wait to read da th book..am still waitin for Pris to lend me... =( awww...if only mama had let me order da book... =(

Save Me.

Dear God,

I know you are the only one who knows the real me. For that, i'm glad.

I just want to say that i really regret all the things i've did. The things between You and me. I still don't know why i do those things and i have no idea how to stop myself from doing so.

There are times when i can control myself. Times when i am proud of myself.

But now, it seems i'm defeated again. I'm so strickened by the hauntings.

I need You, dear God. Please guide me to the right path and please instill such

confidence in me such that i would journey through the path full of confidence and not hesitation. I want the strength to journey through that path without straying. For that, i need You.

Dear God, please, please, i beseech you to guide me again this time.

And i will try my very best not to stray again. Please, save me.

I've sinned,

Nura

over-protected?

I am so irritated with my sis' attitude. What's her probe? So what if i'm wasting MY money? Can't i just have fun with my friends? It's not as if i ALWAYS go out. It's just this week , being the week of my birthday. It's just so friggin' frustrating. And also who does she think she is? Everyone asks me why she is the one who's being the "mother" or the decision maker. It's so frustrating that she treats me like a kid still - "I'll go down to your school and meet your friends." What the heck?!

I just don't understand. Other teens are like going out ALL the time and coming home late. The latest i reach home usually is around 7 plus. I don't splurge all my money. Even when i go out the past few days i don't ask for much money. And it is not as if i'm out doing bad things, i just want to destress. I'm just so friggin frustrated!!!!!

A group of us were supposed to go to Cheng San CC for some stupid show. After the tea-break we decided to leave and go play arcade instead at YCK. They went to POPULAR instead to buy stuff first then later decided to go. In the process, my sis found out abt us escaping the show and that she told me to go back home. I later asked her if i can go to YCK. at first she naggged then she smsed asking the details so i decided to call insttead -faster. Wen i caleed, she started nagging and all. den she said her famous line , " Since Monday i'm coming your school, i'll meet your friends.". SHe said the exact same things when i was in PRIMARY school. How can i not be humiliated? i mean please larhx, i'm like in sec 3 now. Why must she always do this to me? What will my friends say? It's easy for her to say all those bullshits but what about me? During primary school when she always say that, i get scared. Now i get pissed.

I just don't understand why she can't be like other sisters. Just shut up and lead your own life. It's so frustrating!!! Now my friends are like having fun without me second time this year. GREAT.

Brian, David, Brett

well well.... Brian, David, and Brett.... i'm sure those who are close to me noes abt them... and am wondering wats up wif dem now...well....

Brian sort of disappeared mysteriously... i've got no idea where he went.. da last time i heard from shari was that wen he called Brian's number, it was some guy named Will who picked it up and dere wasnt any Brian there... uh oh..

David... he still comes online but errr... RARELY. haharx...and yeahh.. we're frens now.. nth more ... a lil bit less.. [??] hmmm.. and heard before dat he was living wif Brett but lter kicked him out cos of some stuff..

Brett... hmmm.. he's gone too.. never online now.. but i noe he's real and out there... got to noe from Ed that he's somewhere around... hmmm.. he's the one tt left a BIG impact in my life somehow... hehehe... watever it is, he's da best. =)

and now.... wat do i talk abt??? errr.. i seriously dunno... wahahhaha... nvrm.. i ciao first.. bye bye.. oh yarhx.. i no longer tink of HIM liao.. wahahaha.. goood lorhx.. bye bye..

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Nura!!!! haharx! FInally i'm like 15!! yay!! can haf I.C lerhx... hehehe... so happy.. anieways, todae my fwens were extremely sweet to me.. =) thx u guys. den.. didnt haf a celebration....YET.

early morning, received a BIG bottle filled wif sweets from Cheryl, Agnes, and Jasmine. a joint- pressie. then later i received well - wishes from fwens. then my dear ermm.. Expressoz da second, gave me Nora Robert bookS. hehe =)

we're having the celebration on Fridae =). Fridae no GUides', so happy. den my class was supposed to go to some ferry trip.. me and sharifah went through the whole theory part but wen it came to da real excursion, we realized we cudnt go. b4 dat, i had da intuition that we cudnt go... hmmm... is cos we didnt hand in the indemption form. so yeahh! nice bdae pressie!! so we didnt go.. we went j8 instead to get pressies for Prissy and Cheryl. =)

then went home late.. =( so yeahh not so late larhx.. 6 plus like tat den come home..hehehe.. den yar larhx.. todae bdae horx, todae i see him lotz. haharx.. da past few daes i havent been seeing him.. which is good considering the fact that i want to forget him. But then wahh..todae see him lotz... thiking twice lerhx.. haharx.. me better go now bahx. so tired. bye bye. =) Happy Bdae!!

Eeew - learning

Oh my garsh!! itz like so friggin stoopid!! y cant dey juz haf normal lessons? i dun friggin' understand wat they are trying to sae.... urgh!!! tiz is FRUSTRATING!!!! argh!!!!

but i'm goin bak sch tomolo... cos i got Powerpoint mahh.. sadded larhx..but nevermind... Nas and Ayin are gonna be there too so yeahh.. we're coming early to book a place for ourselves... wahahhahaha... friggin cute.

aniewaes, didnt do muc todae... 'cept for slackin ard in da canteen afta sch... saw him several times todae.. =D was lookin outside of class wen he suddenly appeared.. scared me half till ecstacy... Lol but i was happy.

so yeahh... now i'm like sitting and rotting.. haizz..i go play K-Raiders.. haharx..see ya!!!

hao suan orhx...

wahh pianngg..todae i carried Irfan whole dae.. from to Polyclinic to J8 den bak home.. wahh pianngg..buai make it derhx..hehe

i changed my template again... on da tagboard horx, da space for typing ur msg is blank wen u type but is still can use..u juz type den afta u click "tag", den ur tagged msg will appear.. =)

wahh piangg..i read all my fwens blog horx..theirs is really power mann.. all those words all come out.. i read oso like vry interesting lorhx... mayb i shud write like tt oso larhx.. stylo milo...

anieways..todae is holidae so stayed at home and rot 'cept for da first part of da day...da earlier part i meant... den now rotting.. waiting to do my Guides' work den iron uniform..yesterdae too lazy to iron..haharx..

come to tink of it..is like all my fwens their blog has like..lotz of vengence.. so yeahh..itz juz not me.. i dun lotz of vengence all da time... once in a while oni.. let of frustration larhx.. me happy person mahh..oni now quite irritated.. cos da page keep going to da msn web-based chat conversation..vry hard for me to type..

stoopid msn larhx..cannot work..haiyo! waste my time...nvrm larhx. juz found out got E maths ws need to do...sianz... beta go do now den...bye bye! s2 [looks like a heart]

ahhh... ( =

"Don't look no further. Baby, I'm back here!" haharx =) i'm backk!! hehe.. anieways.. itz been SOOOO long!! Todae is my bf 1st month bdae.. =) who else if not my dearest nephew, Irfan! we dun call him Irfan tho, we call him Mamat, short for Mohammad. so yeahh.. bad news... my MSN still cant be used and the MSN Microsoft Technical Support have yet to contact me.. haizz.. cant really chat comfortably on the web-based Msn... so sadd.. Anieways, June holz is LONG gone, and i'm looking forward to July. which is like now. >.< cos.. my bdae comin mahh..haharx.. cant wait... hafta sae that i'm kinda sad tho... cos itz like..i dun tink i can celebrate my bdae happily wif all da presence of the E-07. =( but i guess i'll juz cherish da moments together wif dem larhx =)... Mondae is Youth Day holz.. =D am going out wif my bf to Polyclinic den go Bishan.. lol not realy bf larhx..my nephew larhx..my sis wants to go Bishan..so we go lorhx.. itz Sunday todae.. and i've finished my A maths hw.. hehe.. interesting lorhx.. den later maybe iron my uniforms so tomorrow free.. =) can happy happy go out larhx... anieways.. i dun tink i'll be posting anymore pics here... go to da links there click on My Pics.. will link to my photos webbie =) i betta go now den.. =) adios!

Itz been SO long

Hey there! So... June holidays are gonna be over... awww sadded. but yeah, i've changed a lot the past few weeks that i haven't been blogging. =) not exactly sideways or vertically =P, but that the fact i no longer like HIM is a change. Lol. I also am looking forward to bein optimistic about everything and anything. And also to lead life with a smile. A big one =D . haharx. anieways, i'm almost done with English. I still got A maths which i intend to fully do tomorrow and malay. Malay is to read a book so i'll probably do it today, later. so what has been going on in my life? basically, i wrote stories. Short stories of my own fantasies. I have yet to make any progress with my Chocolate bloggie but i'll start on it soon. Not too soon though. then... the last two days, i've been marching! yes..footdrills. The first day was actually taught by our PLs... but then the second day it was taught by Yong Meng.. an Ncc guy.. and boi oh boi..didnt he juz LOVE torturing us gals.. i was shouting myself hoarse wif da timing..and we went on and on ..marchin like TOY Soldiers... =D so tat was basically it..todae juz spent my dae doing my hw.. =D guai gia... however u spell it..so yeahh.. wateva.. so yeah.. Adios!

I need some love?

Hmmmm... i feel like dumping something here. Right now. Haizz... why do some people have all the love that they don't need? Don't you ever wonder why it is always the girl or those girls that are very good-looking that gets the attnetion of all the guys; be it handsome or not. And why do some girls have so many ex boyfriends wen you don't even have one? It sets you thinking. I know it is stupide but i've only experienced long-distance relationship; crudely, online thang. I dun mind people laughing at me over it cos i have nothing to be ashamed of exceot for the fact that i cant catch some local fish. But what can i do really?I dun flirt da way some gals juz do. I dun even noe if i flirt. i dun fawn openly on the person i like. I am too shy to tell the person that i like him. Seriously, i am a shy person only that this trait is foreign to those who noes me well. I'd rather watch the person i like go wif some other gal den i go up to him and sae.. i like u.. haizz...da trouble wif bein... in da society where chubby is ugly..kakakak... aniewaes..me goin off now.. tomoro go hospital alone for check up...haizz...

Tis is Irfan again! =) so cute =) and his eyes are like mine... =P 

tis is Irfan!! my lil nephew! =)  

tis is our bundle of joy! =)  

Things to Do this Hols

June Calender:

2nd June - Civil Defence Course [Guides] Bukit Batok HQ ; 7.45 am
6th June - Hospital Checkup at TTSH ; 10.15 am
14th June - Shi Pei Bdae
18th June - Zu Er Bdae
20th June - Combined Uniformed Group Training ; 10am - 12pm
21st June - Combined Uniformed Group Training ; 10am - 12pm

K..done... den 27th June school start again..wahh.. vry fast derhx.. ok..now is things to complete...

1. 10 A.Maths questions from ten years series ; Pink Book ; Foolscap
2. E. Maths questions on the portal then do mind-map
3. POA worksheet to be completed
4. MT to complete book review
5. Guides' Literary Arts ; Write about authors from different countries
6. Guides' Conservation [Electricity]; Do poster and do scrapbook; pictures
7. Guides' Proficiency; Do summary on books from the East and West.
- English-
8. Write summary on 4 articles from Straits Times;Express opinion in 100 words; select 5 words and explain the meaning in less than 7 words.
9. Do book summary ; pick one novel.
10. 2 compositions
11. Letter Writing

I tink tts abt all bahxx... so for da next few weeks i wont blog in.. lotsa stuff to do..and now keep going hospital cos my sis wanna give birth but den... da baby dun wan come out yet..wahhhh.. i noe y lerhx...he noes dat da world is a happy yet STRESSFUL place... i'll do my bez to pamper him.wahahhaha... I like... =P

Sadded larhx

Hey..sry for not bloggin again yesterday. haharx. was too lazy when reach home late. hmmm... 3 daes lerhx i nvr see him.... u sae kelian anot? haizz.. yesterdae and today... went com lab straight afta... but went out for a while ...met Sharafat..he said that Mrs Lim wanted to see us tomorrow during the Deyi Idol thingy to talk about emceeing for Prize Giving...wahh piangg.. so tut lorhx...its true wat Bistine said... they [ da teachers] wud juz keep coming on you... me ok wif it arhx..but is like i tink Mirliana deserve it more. Cos is like she shud be able to shine too...haizz...dunno larhx.. den tomolo got master parade lorhx!!! dey didnt inform us until todae lorhx...wahh piangg.. so tut rite??? stoopid larhx...later hafta iron da stoopid uniform larhx...wahhh..cannot make it larhx... den Saturday PTM [Bak Chang giv da name derhx..] parent teacher meeting larhx... mama wanted to go..haizz... tat Miss Lim surely got a lot to say lorhx... ''Nura's behaviour in class is sometimes not acceptable. Being a councillor she shoud set a better example for her classmates......'' haizz... sian den dunno larhx... sian.. tomolo tot last dae of sch [term larhx] , can go out den take neoprints or sth... but haizz..why muz Guides' alwaes spoil my fun derhx? sianz!!! i beta ciao now..see ya!

In school...

Wahahahha..itz like way afta sch now...haharx.. den so sianz.. dunno wat to do..juz sit around while waitin for Nas and Sharifah to finish thier wateva thingy..wahahha...is like os tut lorhx..den cos of tis, i didnt get to see him lorhx..sadded larhx..

so far todae is quite slak arhx..no Pe..cos rainin..wahh...shud haf pon..dun come sch...den can sleep and enjoy da cool weather.wahahahha... but...saw a lil bit of him now and then juz now arhx..durin recess dat time..wahahahha..cannot make it larhx..me sae wan forget him but cannot forget hjim lorhx...whahahaha...lame rite?? i dunno larhx... haharx...siaz now.. >_<'''

later i go home dunno wat time arhx...i'll blog in again arhx..haharx...cannot make it!!! now is me still thinkin of him lorhx...haizz...why he go bak so early?? so sadded... wahhhhh... if oni he didint go home early.. mayb he tot i go home lerhx so he oso went bak? cos i alwaes stay in canteen arhx before i go anywhere arhx...ut todae i straight come lab... wahahha.. in m dreams bahx... he doesnt even noe i really exist lorhx...i am nth significant in his life.... >_< sadded larhx... haha.. nvrm arhx.. i go see those two siao zhar bo... haharx..see ya ppl later..i blog in again later arhx...

Pssssst... i got see his naked top before!! haharx!! so happiee..but is like..everyone can see it lorhx... haizz..lame... if oni i can like see it again in real life before he leaves..... haizz...

Stressed Out

I am like so stressed at home!! I cant take it anymore... all da way wen i was out wif my family to AMK central, i was like....havin suicidal thoughts... i'm like tinkin... ''will popping too many painkillers kill you??'' wahahhahaha... cannot make it lorhx... *sigh* i've nvr felt so..... pressured before.... i juz am not lookin forward to da hols...tis kinda things i've nvr felt b4..i mean in da past even wen i'm stressed out by my family and all, i'd cry it all out...but now..is like my tears juz wont come out... i somehow lost all my vocabs and language to express my feelings to my fwens... all i cud tink abt is... ''will popping too many painkillers kill you??" haharx. so yeahh... juz hope i can still take it... i've been tinkin abt it... itz bez to let t out but i juz cant... now i noe y some ppl are so silly as to hurt themselves or commit suicide.... i juz get tat feelin..... i hope my nerve string wont juz snap and i go bonkers and wen sc reopen..i wont be in sch...kakakakka... will be in da netherworld???? kakakakakaka cannot make it larhx... haizz... beta go do my A maths now arhx... oh yarx... todae i was truly happie wen went J8 wif Nas, Sherry and Meche.... went to take neoprint and oso go eat ... haharx... fun sia... now at home... so stress... now my sis ask me go do laundry.. wahhh... i havent even do my hw... and do my filing of POA stuff.... talk abt bein stressed out. bahx. x_x'''

Time to let go

its time to let go now.... i dunno wat i did or thought abt but i noe rite now at tis moment, tat its time to let go of him.... i'm nt worthy of him.... oh well... i shall... juz close my eyes and drift away from him... but dere are reasons y its so hard to let go... at nite wen i cant sleep ...wen i tink some ghost or monster is gna haunt me, i thought of him... i fantasize abt him and da silly thoght of a ghost or monster juz vanished.... wen i get lonely.. wen i tink i can no longer take it anymore... i tohught of his words... thought of his life... his determination.. i realise i can do it... i can ace it and carry on wif life.. he's da reason y i find goin to school a breeze... and lil sth in life tt i look forward to... for 2 weeks i suffered from insomnia cos of him... yet i went to sch each and every day...happie and lookin forward to seein him... but tis muz nt go on... i muz curb my feelins for him... so wat if i haf his email? so wat if i noe his blog? so wat if we school da same school? so wat if we're n da same level? so wat? so wat if i like him? its all over... true i need someone to love me =) but i cant afford bein blinded by my love for him tt like wat Nas said.. u nvr noe dat da person who will be by ur side in ur time of need is da one whom u've closed ur eyes to look at someone else... meaning... da person whom loves me and appreciates me mite be beside me but i wudnt noe as i haf my eytes trained oni at tt one guy.... so yeahh... i will need help and encouragement... i cant let him haunt me anymore.. ok..so yeahh..i will still haf his pic on my com desk..but it takes time..and i believe, Time Heals All Wounds.

Without You

The month of June is coming soon.... =( i hafta sae i'm SO nt lookin forward to it yet... i mean... how da heck am i to see him then??? on MSN we dun tok... [tts sad isnt it?] hmmm... wat am i to do?? urgh!! i hate tis kinda situation... its alwaes me sufferin... read his testimmonials tat he doesnt talk to gals tat much..wahahahha..cute isnt it?? but then...dun talk to gals...den how?? wahhh... >_<"' den i keep tinkin of him..canot make it lorhx... read tat he was hurt so many times b4..hmmm... poor him.. i cant guarantee tt dere wont be quarrels shud we be together [=P] but i wont hurt him so much cos hurtin him is tantamount to me hurtin myself.... hehe... me tink too deep lerhx..wahahhaha.. cannot make it larhx... =) todae so sian...tot of goin J8 or go Far East take pics..wahhaha...budden... nbd to follow me...mei yo ren yao pei wo.... ='( but nvrm... wahhaha... me school stuff habent finish..maybe later me go....... central?? wahhh... or go J8 take pic of meself larhxx..wahahha... anieways...tts all i can sae... main topic..cant forget abt him.. and tat june is comin!!! argh!! hopefully can still see him bahhx.. den on 2nd June still hafta go Guides course...wahhhh...cannot make it lorhx..tot of takin taxi wif my sistaz go there den Mrs Ang make me be ah-ma to da rest and go along wif them..cos is da place we dunno derhx.. wahhh... x_x''' haharx! me beta go now bah =) see ya! .:You will always be inside my heart:. .:I hope that i have a place in your heart too:. .:First Love - Hikaru Utada:.

haizz

Went for breakfast wif me family juz now... i mean tis morning....then went market area there...go buy stuff...den come bak home... sian now.. i dunno arhx..but i cant stop tinkin of him lerhxx... oni those who really close to me noe who da 'Him' is.... i heard he got gf lerhxx..but yarhx..dunno arhx..now like gt no news derx... hmmm...nvrm bahxx....as long as he is happiie...den ok lerhx.. =) me nowadaes like errr... happiee plus sadded... wahahaha.... like... dunno larhx how to sae... been listening to sadded songs... wahahaha..siao... hmmm..somemore,,,come online but nobody tok to me..sian lorhx... hmmm...den go frensta..oni accept ppl addin me..den sian..no testi arhx...den dunno larhx...like suddenly my life now is vry mundane.... wahhh... tink i muz stop usin errr... singlish??? wahahha...shari sae he read my frensta..he like..cannot believe my english tt 'lan' [bad] wahahahha... cannot make it arhx... me gt nth to write lerhxx...see u ppl later bahxx...if gt thing to sae i'll post bahx... later mayb me post OOC pics...vry little derhxx..

Rock On!!

We did it!! I did it!!! da OOC was a success!! lol! i still cnat believe its now ALL OVER. oh yeahh! so...ahem.. we were vry professional abt it... hmmm...lol.. Reggie was there to perk me up... actually..to perk everyone up... he did tat.. errr... chinese kungfu thingy on my bak to ease my tension... god bless his sweet soul...and Mir slow danced wif me too...Bistine cheered me on and Mrs Ang hugged me.. =) Miss Rachel and Shah gave me their support.. lol its was really sweet of them.. =) afta da OOC, we all wen to da quadrangle [which is oni for important ppl] =P , to eat..wahahahahha... so nicce...da food... wahh piangg...if canteen food like tat horx..tink Deyians all will be 'fei' like me... wahahha.. Then todae... went to see me bro... ''Eddy Boi'' tts wat dey all call him... wahhh..stylo sia da name... me..abit nervous seeing him...so many years nvr see him... but he has changed... he is short.... me taller haharx!! yay!! but yeahh... he's really changed and i hope he wud remain dat way throughout now and nt get into anymore trouble... =) den..wat else did we do... stayed wif him for a few hours... Mummy Sarah and Sister Mas...my eldest sis... were there too... complicated family portrait.lol. den went to world trade to haf dinner... den went home.. on com...blog..den sian.. haharx..me beta go now..see ya!

W Belong Together

My step-bro is..... somewhere ard... my dad called him juz now... =) its a gd thing... cos dey dun talk much to each other... but yeahh...we're gna visit him somedae.. ohh!!! A-wang is like no longer retarded!!!! lol! tokin abt da chinese drama serial on tv evrydae at 7.. lol [advertisin].. so cool!! wonder wat will happen now.. lol anieways..todae nth much happen derhx... didnt get to see him much too..juz saw early in da mornin... haharx. cannot make it bahx... =) anieways..me betta go now... tomolo OOC lerhx... so scaredd.... =X

fruitful dae..

it was a VRY tiring dae!! wahhh...i went bak school at ard... 1.50pm then met up wif Mir at da canteen den Kat came...follwed by Bistine... =) so we sat till ard 2.15pm den we went to da places where we were needed. Bistine, Mir and me we were sittin dwn at da chairs in da hall and talkin wen Shah came along..den later follwed by Mrs Ang.. lol.. Reggie was a lil late cos he went to take his daddy's white shirt... lol sweet... den we started da rehearsal..i made a few blunders at da first round..... lol den we had our dinner..it was like only 4.30pm ?? lol!! then we were like singing oldies songs... we really make a GREAT, SPLENDID and FANTABULOS team together!! then as we sat da da round wooden table...we were laffin and really havin fun! =) then we changed and were singing again.lol... all too soon, da second rehearsal starts...and to my horror, there were a large crowd... i didnt tink students dat many wud turn up.... so yeahh... i tried my best... =) wen it was over..we were so happie...but our happiness were shortlived... at 8.00pm which was to be our dismissal time, we started da third rehearsal... cos of da lightings and stuff... *sigh* imagine all our heavy sighs... so we supported on each other... wen da band members came to da backstage to take position, we fanned them and talked to them..we sort of entertained each other backstage..it ink its sweet..its like...this is da time where we really come ''together as one'' [u go Reggie!!] and look out for each other and cheer each other on.... =) it was cool...den went home wif Mir..till da bus stop there... sad news tho..no half-day tomolo... sadded larhx... am yawning like nbd business now..beta go sleep larhx.. see ya peeps! Emcees, ROCK ON!!! ^_^

sry arhx...

hmmmm.... its been a few daes nvr update lerhxx... wat to do... me so sian larhx... now me lips ok lerhx.... den now i'm bak in action wif da emceein thing lorhx!! haharx! well.... tomolo is da full-dress rehearsal..cant wait... lol hmmmm.... me like vry sian now...tok to u ppl later bahxx..see ya! btw..da new song make me so......forlorn..wahahahhaha...

The Surgery

Had my surgery yesterdae... it was SO like one of those ER episodes... so scary..lol so here was wat happened. came at.. 11.40am at TTSH... den register..den had to wait...around 12.20pm like tat they call me go change.. wahh piangg... change until nvr wear anything lorhx underneathe... den sit down..wearin da hospital clothings... den waited.. see alot ppl oso come and go... den i sit there dunno until wat time.. like until nobody there liao..left me alone.. den oni dey call me... I went inside da other room.... den walk walk walk den reach the surgery room..but before enter da surgery room got another small room... so i sit down there first... den my doctor come out.. Dr Marcus Wong... [cute lehh] lol. den he checked the thing on my lip.. [its a growth i tink..] den he said ok.. den went off.. so i juz sit and wait..den beside me got one box..i tink dustbin..inside got needles..syringes.. got blood..wahhhh... i cannot tahan aledi.. den i sit down and wait for a few more minutes..den da nurse call me come into da surgery room... wahhh... it was juz like da room in ER... there's a..bed [??] in da middle..den da big lights.. all da stuff all around... den my doctor came in towards me wif a BIG syringe and needle... wahhh.. den he said.. ''u may close ur eyes''.. i close lorhx..den he poke dat needle on my lower lip..da place where got dat thing..wahh.. PAIN!! den b4 all this happened, wen i came into da room rite..got tis one malay auntie and indian uncle..dey vry nice derhxx.. dey joke wif me all tat... so i wont be scared... den afta her poked aledi.. i feel nth on my lower lip.. wahhh.. den dey put layers of da green cloths.. den cover my face...except mouth area... den two docs lerhx..my doc and a trainee doc..wahh..its da trainee who do da surgery lrohx..my doc juz supervise..wahh piangg.. den dey nvr make me go sleep lorhx..so i can hear wat dey tokin and can feel abit wat dey doin... dey say stuff like ''cut it tis wae is betta.. if u cut it tt way..da lip may blah blah blah..'' wahh pinag..i listen oso my heart pingpingpongpong..wahahha den cut cut cut den dey stitch.. can feel da thread arhx... its brown color.. den ok..can relax lerhx..den change..den go hoome..take medicine first arhx... den..hmm... suppose to go home straight but mama go HDB there..meet sis... den there my lip pain lerhx... da numbness go away... wahhh cannot tahan llorhx.. den go home take taxi...den eat medicine..den dey all go sis new hse..i alone at home..so i chat arhx..wif.. one borin guy..den wen kenny come online..i chat wif him arhx.. needed to talk to someone mahh..haharx.. den he vry..inspirational arhx.. =) den afta dat..cannot tahan liao..go offline..sleep.. haharx.. cannot make it larhx... haharx.. den todae wake up... no pain arhx..den da stitches changed to white color... haharx... den ok arhx... den time eat medicine.. u noe i cannot swallow tablets or pills mahh... but Kenny's words were on my head lorhx... ''Nothing is Impossible" and "Believe in yourself" so i did and baamm! i swallowed my medicines!!! lol so happiie now larhx!! hahahrx.. betta go now..see ya!!

Wahhhhh....

hmmmmm.... so far... i've oni failed 2 subjects... Bio and POA.... wahahha.. denn..da rest all quite ok..except Pyshics not yet... hmmm..wat else... todae... is quite slack i tink.... Sharifah got higher than me for English...wahhh... muz strive harder arhx... den..todae afta sch...sat at da canteen.... talk wif Nas... den Ravi came den he gna audition for da Deyi Idol thingy..wahahaha... kinda cute rite? lol anieways..for todae..nth much to sae..juz came home early afta da short emcee rehearsal... den walked to da bus stop... den didnt hafta wait for da bus cos 76 came at da rite time... lol den inside bus sit alone..listen to music... mentally rehearsing my lines for da OOC thingy... hmmm..tomolo goin for operation lerhx...so scaredd....... at 12.15pm ish da thingy..so hafta reach there earlier arhx... wahhhh.... i so scared!!! help me!! by the way.. i purchased two things on ebay yesterdae.. lol an anklet and bracelet.. anklet is Foo Fang Jun derhx... hahar... he buyin for his sis... den he pay half of mine..wahahahhaha...funny lorhx... anieways...i go now larhx..gt nth to write derhx... last words... me wardrobe is vry neat todae..haharx.. cleaned it all up juz now..tired lerhx..

Tiring dae...

It was nerve-wrecking and it was tiring... da job of emceeing tat is... i'm so... nervous wif lotsa ppl lookin at me.. listenin to every word i sae... i mean..its a gd thing but... i'm juz..nervous..juz...shy...

we had da OOC rehearsal thingy... it was erm... LOOONG!!! from 2.20pm till 5.30pm... its like.... 3 straight hours of rehearsing da lines..memorising them actually... and putting up a splendid performance... at da end of da dae.. everyone was grumpy i tink... wahahaha...

then on da OOC dae.. we da emcees, shall be wearing all white and black shoes... :D haharx.. Dignified people... actually dey wanted us to actually wear da sch U[2 tones of blue] wif da blazer[greyish green] and tie[for me is same as da blazer color but for da rest is..dark blue wif yellow thingy..].. but OMG.. juz imagine da color combination... so we insisted on wearin da white ''uniform'' as we call it.. lol it was really cool..

by da way..i actually PASSED my A Maths!!!!! wahahahah... partly thx to Pris.. :D i LOVE priscilla!!!! hehehehe.. den.. so far..i've failed my Bio... haf yet to tell my parents.. but yeah... hmmm..wat da heck... lol

i wanna go eat my dinner now.. so hungry..see ya guys!

Nobody's Home

I dun feel like goin home these few daes..... all bcos my sis and mum keep nagging at me... do tis do tat... all tis all tat.... tis really frustrates me and irritates me... even wen my sis wanna ask me to da sth..she more like COMMAND me.. i hate ppl commanding me... i seriously dun feel happy at home these daes... i wanna run away from all these.... wanna escape from them all... nobody seems to care abt me at home... sometimes in school too... but mostly at home... every dae afta a dae of... fun... excitement.. and stuff... i am reluctant to go home..to face my mum and sis... sure yes i wanna get bak to my com and see if 'whoever' is online... but... i juz cant take it anymore!!! i haf an operation to go through in 3 daes! and i haf an official opening to host in daes! i am FREAKIN nervous...am on da verge of BREAKIN DOWN!! but NOBODY cares!! nobody!!! argh!!!! i dunno y but i juz feel tat my mum and sis no longer appreciate me as much as dey did in da past... ever since my sis got married and pregnant and all tat.... i'm so stressed at home... i cant take it any longer... i mite break down.... i juz wanna escape...to get out of tis misery and lead life as peaceful as possible... i juz want to be appreciated..to be loved... i wan my family bak...

Argh!!!!!

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dunnoe y but am feelin so frustrated rite now!!! argh!!! wahhh!!!!! ahhhhh!!!!!!! frustrated arhx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okies..ok lerhx... hmmm... tink ok arhx...hmmm... hmmm..tomolo will be another borin dae... cannot make it larhx... so sian... errrmm... got da....errr..wat arhx... forgot lerhx... wahahahha... hmmm..i dunno wat to write lerhx... oh yarhx..believe it anot..juz now i actually did da laundry..at nite.. wahahahaha.. cannot make it..so frust!!! argh!! see ya ppl... :P and tat stooopid Foo Fang Jun...everytime ask me for songs.. first thing see me online...ehh.. got song?? irritatin u noe!!! wahh..nvr even ask how am i...small talk first larhx... wahh piangg... shit himm...bye bye bahx..

Sian day...

Spent da entire day in da library... wahh pianngg... cannot make it larhx.. haharx.. cos gt da some personality workshop.. i am da ISC personality.. err.. I - talkative..interactive...talk more work less...sociable... S - Shy...patient...Steady...Relaxed...and etc cant remember... C - is... Conservative... Neat...Stable...Dependent... and etc... haharx... ture horx..

den after dat talk abt some leadership thingy... Potential thingy and stuff... hmmm... it was quite ok actually oni da fact tat had to sit on da floor for da entire dae.. wahhh.... cannot cannot.... my backbone aledi gt problem.. haharx..

hmmm...OOC is on da 20th... Operation is on the 13th... i scared i cannot recover in time... how?? really scared lorhx...den tomolo got rehearsal... wif Ms Rachael.. haharx.. time to host kiddy show again... wahh..serious lorhx.. da voice all go high pitched... irritatin... den start at 2..duno wat time finish...hopefully by... 3.30? like da other time bahx...

hmmm... Uncle Jo got a lot of things in stored for us councillors... hmmm..so good... if possible i wan to go da..... exchange to Australia?? :D:D den can meet David.. Ed and...who arhx... oh Brett... haharx..and Di and Shalz.. wahhh.. haharx..didnt noe i got auntie down there..my dad larhx..dun wan to socialise.. haiya... sadded.. >_<''

err.. yesterdae i sae wan to go do novel...haharx..paisehh still habent start.. err.. i beta go now bahx? hehe.. see ya ppl then.. =)

me blurr pic too..wahahahha... cannot make it larhx.. 

da WonderBabez... haharx.. pic quite dark.. but u noe which one ish me yarhx.. [extreme rite larhx..] :p 

wotz ova derrr??!! haharx..  

haharx..pic quite blurr derhx.. lol taken afta sch.. 

oh garsh...

hmmm... one bad news.... Lolli died todae... ='( mama's tortoise died lerhx... so sadded.... Daddy went down to bury it somewhere... =( todae..woke up damn early... go to some Mosque to get bursary..went wif my neighbours... den had a fight wif Mum... [i noe its Mother's Day] den.. went for breakfast-cum-lunch..... den walked around Ikea... i LOVE da beds there..they r like SOOOOOOO beautiful!!! i went to da kids' section..den there's tis really tall bed... i LIKE it!!! lol i wan it so much..den again.. i prefer low beds.. so now i'm tinkin of gettin either a single low bed or sofa bed... haharx..den decorate my room wif candles and vry... girlish stuff... wahahahahaha... Ultimate Ewww!! kakakakaka anieways.. later ima iron da clothes... and stuff.... den... yar dunno do wat else.. i feel like i wanna catch a movie tomoro.... hmmm...i wanna watch House of Wax.. Meng Chin dey al went to watch them yesterday.. midnight.. duno whether dey got pass.. its NC-16 lorhx... haharx.. hmm..i beta go now bahh... haharx.. see ya peeps!! and btw... i juz posted new pics.. waahahaha..

tis is Henry.. i gt no idea who..but he's cute isnt he? :D