wahahahaha...messy hair!! i tink i... juz woke up?? bahh! 

picture of PURE INNOCENCE.. =P 

tis is Adit [Samuel Rizal] ... hehe.. cute aiite? cant believe Joshua saw him few yrs back! 

So boring...

Todae woke up early..i dunnoe way.. ohh.. suppose to go out wif Nas they all to play ball...but i had a headache yesterday and lasted til todae and now.. so yeah.. had to call of da plan.. anieways..lots werent going.. so yeahh...

then since mornin been watchin tv den sit in front of com .. writing out testimonials and stuff.. den now riting in my bloggie..haharx.. den wat else arhx? hmm os far nth much happen.. but todae later go Auntie hse bbq.. [again]. last two week was my hse now hers.. so sian actually.. i mean..go there.. vry sian derhx.. all those "lao ren" [old ppl] talk to each other.. den me is da oldest among all da cousins derr.... den all young..dey someore all boys.. left wif me and my one gal cousin... den she ounger den me by a few years... haiya.. sadded larhx.. den vry sian lorhx.. dunno wat to do... =( den dey sing karaoke oso those malay old songs.. diaox.. >_<'''

den..suppose to be editing my novel.. hafta go for publishin soon... haharx..but stuck down here writing testimonials and bloggin..haharx.. stoopid rite?? anieways.. tomolo oso muz go out.. go my err.. father side derhx niece [i dunnoe] gettin engaged... wahh...wat to wear lerhx? stress arhx!! hmmm better go see my novel now bahx.. see ya!!

Wahhhhh!!!

Goody!!! Exams over lerhx!!! haharx..me so happie!! so todae straight afta sch, we, E-07, excluding Meche, went to Parkway Parade, Banquet... LOL.. den we spent $37 altogether...wahahahaha..we actually calculated da amount.. kakakaka... den walked around da mall... we practically patronised EVERY single store... kakakakka...cannot make it derhx larhx... den.... we went home larhx... we took 76 go home... inside bus...it started raining... quite heavily arhx...coz got flood at da roadside derhx.. den its like all da cars are sloshing water everywhere.. Lol cute sia... den we laff..took pics..send messages to each other... and joked around.. especially da part where Sherry [Shari] was badly teased abt nt goin for sembahyang Jum'at.. Lol funny sia... den down there gt da malay old men juz came from da mosque... kakakaka.. one of them looked at Sherry one kind... den Yati was like.. "Huh,Shari... nvr go sembahyang Jum'at.." den i was like.. "Sherry got period...[menses] so cant go... " aakakakakka..den we started laffin like mad women... kakakakak..fun sia.. den now i am at home... am at loggerheads wif my mum..i dunno y.. she's so...funny.. i mean.. one time she can be nice and da other she's NASTY... den she goes on and on..nags and nags.. wahhhh!!! gua baru abis exam.. dier dah cam ni... per sak... kakakka... i juz finished my exam..and she's bursting my bubbles wif every one of her naggins... wahhhh!!! Jiu ming arhx!!!!

I am HAPPIE!!

LoL. You cant blame me for bein so happie todae..hmmm... well.. todae i took da second last paper... so tomoro i'd be even MORE happier.. lol

anieways..wat happened todae was.. afta da exam... which finished at like 9.15 am.. so yeah.. but instead of going home..me and Sharifah we stayed back to wait for those minah rapes... kakakaka.. den.. while waitin.. 'he' was around and stuff... but yeah.. he like..magic man...disappears a moment later after u've seen him.. lol

den afta we waited for den to come and stuff... 'he' went off for his exam again i tink... den... wat else.. hmmm..wen dey came bak..we were like havin lots of fun..laffin around and stuff.. den Yati wanted to take pic of 'him' and was like goin [jokingly] "ehh,wait.." wen he unexpectedly turned..lol yati quickly changed her topic..lol

den she later wen to my house wif Dian... mama not home..nobody at home in fact..so we had da house to ourselves.. haharx..den Dian cooked da Campbell Mushroom soup thingy... for herself and Yati..den..Yati started surfin da net and stuff... while i walked ard da hse wif oni my shorts and school blouse..lol.. siao char bo... den..Dian had to go home.. her Woodlands home... so she left abt half an hour later.. den left wif me and Yati... Now wat did we do...?

We downloaded songs, we went through the songs, we listened to songs, we surf da net,we ate dinner together and noein Yati... our normal 10 minutes dinner took us like 30 minutes..wif all da laffin and stuff.. lol den went to see blogs and frensta... and saw his... lol den went to see his blog.. nvr update derhx.. haharx.. den wat else?? den... laff laff somemore larhx..so yeah.. guess we wont fie so fast..thx to all dat laffin... :D

den she went home abt an hour ago i tink lol... den i bathe [yep, i havent bathe since i came bak from sch till now :D] den..now all nice nice lerhx... den got inspiration to update my blog.. :D paisehh.. long time nvr update.. den.. hmmm.. now havin da Exam Period... tell u arhx... me gib up on me Mid-Year liao.. ish i really cannot make it.. :'( sadded sia... but still..i wish u all da bez... whoever u r...watever u r... wherever u r.... hmmm... All da bez.. :D

me goin off now to.... study Physics... hehehe.. tink can make it bahx... :P 'Jia Yo, Nura!!' haharx.. oh yarhx.. now gt tis one obvious-bo-liao-ren , tagg me board wif bo liao things.. ignore bahx.. all tis is.. wu liao [??] dunno larhx... haharx..see ya ppl.. :) signing out at 8.22 pm :D

Me sho' sadded

Ok... Ckn[H.T] said dat she saw dem yesterday.. wahahaha... *spank myself* no thinking of him... hehehe..so yeah.. today he came school late...he the CCA thing to do i tink..so yeah... den... yar larhx... i trying hard not to tink of him liao.. i tink da song Leave really suit larhx..

Today afta school...ate a VRY rushed lunch with Mirliana cos we were already late for da meeting..wahahah..den went to see Miss Rachael.. [da chio one..] she in-charged of us emcess oso..den today Reginald nvr come.. [mc derhx..] den yar lorhx...actually quite fun lorhx... wen she laff rite...wahh.. cute sia..like... those vibrating laff... not those breathless laff... haharx.

den she taught us which words to emphasize on and all those high-pitched thingy. In the end i feel like i'm doin some kiddy show.. LOL! seriously...
so yar lorhx... surprisingly.. now i dun really think of him larhx.. haharx... so yeah..heck larhx... dun wan tink of him larhx... so yeah... oh yarhx... CIkgu said she wud bring me on an exchange to St. Margaret school afta exam.. :) so honoured.. but yeah.. shy larhx.. *blush* lol

oh yarhx..me hafta finish da novel once exam finishes... wahhhhh... die liao larhx... cos dey gna print liao.... die... wahahahah.. beta go start on it larhx...see ya u pepol!

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Goin' Crazy

Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again

I would sacrifice

'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man

Would ever make me feel so right

It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night

But I'd rather have you here with me

Right next to me

And I miss the way you hold me tight

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch

I never thought that I could ever love a man so much

I've gotta let you know

I think that we are destiny

For you I'd cross the world for you I'd do anything

That's right baby I'm goin' crazy

I need to be your lady

I've been thinking lately

That you and me, yes we can make it

Just ride with me, roll with me

I'm in love with you (baby)

Break it down now

I'll tell you what I feel

From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real

My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak

Can't believe I feel so weak

Tell me that you really need me

And you want me

And you miss me

And you love me

I'm your lady

I'll be around waiting for you

Put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you

Crazy over you

I'm calling

Callin' out to you

What am I gonna do?

It's true no frontin'

It's you ain't no other

I can no longer go on without you

I'll just break down (down)

Itz dedicated to... him.

Harloo..

Oh well.... yesterday i had the OOC rehearsal... it was SOOO boring.. we emcees were mostly waiting throughout the whole rehearsal.... wahahaha... sian.. den Reginald was like out to kill us all... wif laffter.. wahahaha... he's like..dancing behind closed curtains... singing horribly... lol then we finished at abt 5.30pm... or 6 ..am not sure.. then went to da office to find Mrs Ang to return da key to Guides' room...den...she gave us Roches.. wahaha... me Mirliana tat is.. both of us were like half-dead ppl walking... den we walked pass Mdm Normila's desk and saw the new blazers... one is Dark Blue while the other is the color of the councillor tie... hmmm.. a bit greenish...greyish... quite nice actually... but the teachers had no idea which one to pick ..so Mirliana and me modelled for them.. wahahaha.. ugly me bein a model.. :P den we went around to da sch to find those who were still around and asked them which one they prefer.. i had... 25 votes altogether [i'm leading..!!!] while Mirliana had.. 15 votes i tink..wahaha.. then on Monday we hafta model it again and ask for more votes.. :P and yeah..yesterday...during da International Friendship Day celebration..i sat in front... in da hall larhx..den wen i turn to my left... guess who i could see..? :P i saw... him.. *dreamy look* *sigh* yep yep.. so cute..he was wearin his specs.. lol and yeah.. it was fun da concert.. da fact tat i get to see him and enjoy da show was.... WOW.. haharx. so yeah... den yep.. saw him again.. near da boys' toilet.. he was makin a phonecall... And yesterday me,Nas and Yati were at da locker dere.. [dat was b4 HE came along.. lol] and Mr Goh said no books to be left under da desks else they'll take it and we shall serve detention..so yeah.. altho for upper sec deadline was on Mon..i decided to juz put them larhx...DEN... wina came along to put her books inside too.. so there were like.. Sharifah's,mine and Wina's... GDNESS.. da books were a bloody whole PILE. and..well.. lol.. i was like arranging all da textbooks and put them all in.... AND.. there were still da stack of files and exercise books... and i cudnt fit them in!!! kakakakakaka... it was so funny! and Yati was laffin like mad at me... lol so i was like..gdness.freak.. now wat? den who to call but mother on my phone..? and da ringtone was those normal ringtone.. kring kring.. [my sister put tat].. and Yati was laffin like mad again.. and yeah..tat was wen he came along... was tokin on da phone and stuff..and yeah..he was there.. then wen i went to see Harun to tell him to lead my mum to my teacher.. and was hurrying him at da staircase..who to come if not him.. :P hehe so yeah.. *dreamy sigh* so nice.. :P and yeah.. nowadya..i cn sleep better i realised... :D haharx..so yeah... its cool so now i betta go then... see ya! =)

Hey y'all

He DID come to school today.. :) i mish him lots.. *shy* haharx.. so yeah..today i saw LOTS of him lorhx... hehe happie larhx... but... mayb he like someone else from my class bahx? cos today he seem to like walk pass my class wen he's like gettin to da other side of da classroom on the 4th floor... :( awww... wat if he really like someone else from my class? hmmm... i dunnoe.. i keep quiet bahx.. i always like dat mah... like someone oso ppl dun realise.. act neutral like tat... hehehe...

Anyways... who wud like me lehh? Me so derhx... 'cho' ... wityhout 'i' lol! so yah.. heck larhx.. is i like him rite? nt he like me... :P so yeah.. hopefully he has fully recovered..or atleast do so by tomorrow... i dunno y but i really like him... hehehe... dunnoe y horhx...like.. each time i see him my heart go...pitter-patter-poot-pitter-patter-poot... wahahahahahahaah!!!! no larhx... juz dat my heart juz lurch or jolt lorhx... i like his laffter lorhx... hehe.. like..hoarse..or husky.. dunno lah.. me now 'siao' aledi..

Then todae... was suposed to haf da emcee meeting but was cancelled.. haiya.. then waited for da rest of them...then they late..decided to leave wif Ravi..den dey came.. hehehe... so yeah..then i went home lorhx.. early horx? den... hmmm..wat else arhx..oh yarhx...tink i lost my A maths book 1 lorhx [!!!!] cannot remmber whether i got pass it up to Mr Lee... wahhhh... headache larhx!!

then today got 3 tests somemore lorhx... like so tut rite? First was Poa lorhx.. tell u horx.. is cannot make it derhx.. den afta dat was E maths.. surprisingly i tink can make it a bit bahx... den last was SOcial Studies..CANNOT MAKE IT... wat weighing factors... dunno wat wat wat... haiya...dunnoe lehh.. Mid-year is 2 weeks lorhx!!!!!!!! or less den dat lorhx!!!!!!!! die liao!!! muz go library everyday now.. wahahaha... be 'guai' larhx... hmmm..i beta go now..

oh yarhx..forgot to mention..these days horx..wen i wake up horx..i feel SOOO tired and groggy..cos at nite i toss and turn tinkin of.... HIM larhx... *shy* hehe.. so yarhx.... haiya... cannot make it bahx me... >_<'''

HELP ME!!!!

Oh garsh... i juz CANT seem to get HIM outta mah head!!! I've been trying .. [not really actually..lol] trying hard to forget him... [not TAT hard i guess..lol] . urgh!!! he's juz stuck in my head!!! [cos i SUPA-GLUED him there] ... so yeh... wahahaha..my very own counter arguments... right...

so yeah... i've got LOTS of homework to do these days..lotsa things to do but so lil time.. [tats cos i spend them all in front of the com or dreaming of HIM] ... oh great.. urgh!!! so yeah... nth much happened... did my thang on Prize presentation day... which was ... yesterday.. lol and yeah.. Diana was grrrreat!!! [u go gal!!!!!!!] yep.. didnt tink she cud pull it off tat well since it was her first time.. but well...she proved me wrong... she proved ALL of us wrong.. :D [u REALLY go gal!!!] so yep yep..

then now am choosen to be da emcee [AGAIN]... for Official Opening Ceremony... doin it wif Reginald [da crazy one.... he ish SHO funny...and irritant like wat Mrs Ang said.. lol] , CHristine [da sweet one and likewise a bit... screwd out in da brain...] plus me.. [da sweet... innocent one.. :P] and Mirliana [da reserved and also da one wif da Changi Airport Announcer voice... :D] so yeah.. all these 4 mixed together and u get...... C H A O S ! ! ! ! wahahahahha

so yeah...now me off to do me hw... haf got... Social Studies... POA and E maths Tests tomoro... ohh sheesh...E maths... am dead..as alwaes.... :'(

.:SOmeboDy SaVe mE!!!!!!!!!!!!:.

Almost Here

when I need you
You're almost here
And I know thats, Not enough.
And when I'm with you,
I'm close to tears,
'Cos you're only almost here.

Yes... thats how i feel... i tink i hafta stop tinkin of him...da guy tat i now am liking... oh garsh.. i sleep late cos i keep tinkin of him at nite.. and i wake up late due to tat... oh garsh..tis cant go on.. wat shud i do?? gdness... i seriously tink i shud get him outta my head...

havent been bloggin cos yeah... been busy..yesterday went to a seminar of some sorts..den went to Swensens... hehehe.. den yeah.. b4 tat.. earlier yestreday..who was i to see if not da guy tat i'm crushin on.... lol yep yep... he look shot actually.. haharx.. so yeah.. cant divulge more else ppl will noe larhx.. haharx..

so yeah... in order for me to get HIM out of da way..i need a nother distraction.. lol now wat shud i do?? lol.. and yeah..tomoro is my surgery...wahahahaha... so sad.. cant see him then... :'( wahahaha.. kk.. i tink i beta go now.. am tryin to get da brian mcfadden song.. Almost here on my bloggie.. ima go searchie now..see ya..

wat a sad...and pitiful face i've got.. lol yeah rite.. 8-| 

sSshHh... juz read me blog.. dun make noise okies? :) 

Never Again

Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Girl, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again

No, no, no, no, no, no

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it

But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me

Wish like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
Again ,yeah

Again, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me

Dedicated to whoever you are...

Wat r ya lookin at? wahahaha.. :D 

THIS ish Mike :D he's a GRRRREAT guy.. and gals say he's fit..and gorgeous.. :P 

THIS ish mah baby.. :) suave isnt he? 

What a day!

Rite..i hafta write this all over again... GREAT... so yeah.. i was sayin.. tat i woke up wif aches all over my body due to da 2.4km run/walk yesterday... i tink i passed.. :D cos of Harun larhx... he pulled me like nobody business like tat lorhx... haharx..den somemore horx, we ran in da rain lorhx..heavy somemore.. me and Sharifah ran halfway then decided to go barefooted..we took off shoes and socks.. lol! den we run lorhx... wahahaha... den harun was in front...then he came grabbed my arm and PULLED me lorhx... wahahaha... thkies yarx... Then today skipped school cos intended to go for da surgery larhx...but then da clinic there say tat da doctor didnt tell them abt da change of date...shooo stupid horx... so yeah..hafta come bak next Monday..but next Monday is i got 5 items lorhx... den yar lorhx..plus today i aledi skipped school...den A maths was 2 periods lorhx... den tomoro is da test lorhx..haiya!!!! Stress lorhx!! How?! den horx...i nowadays cant stop tinkin abt him lorhx..haiya..sian... wat to do..? deprieved of love derhx lorhx... wahahahah....nvrm.. i beta go now..chattin wif mike..haharx..suai-ge derhx lehh... :P

oh it was sad...

i dunnoe y but i feel so sad.... *sigh* wat am i to do? help me pls!! i hate feelin like tis... oh garsh... pls help me...

today went to da library afta da Compre test.. i tink ima fail.... lol summary is like..gone-case.. wahahahaha... so yeah..tomoro is Napfa Test lorhx... wat to do?? hafta run lorhx... i wan to pass lorhx...but scared no stamina lorhx... sheesh larhx... nvrm.. tink today gonna be da shortest entry..so yeah..see ya..

Samuel Rizal...

I finished watching Eiffel...I'm In Love yet again! lol itsz really a VERY nice movie..seriously! and Samuel Rizal is there to heat up da whole atmosphere.. :P he's hot ya noe!! I tink i prefer his name to be Adit.. then nice liao.. hehe...

Now tat i've watched this show over and over again.. i really hope to find a guy like Adit... i mean.. yes he is fierce and stern and so not romantic..but there are times wen he is romantic...fierce yes but not towards da gal he loves but to da person who's hurting da gal... and yes he's stern so tat da gal will not go bak to her ex again... :) so yeah... he's cute yeah? i really really want to haf a guy sth like him... :) but yeah....

I wan to noe da feelin of bein loved by a guy... i mean not juz any guy but..a guy who's really into me.. well..i noe tats nt gonna happen ... juz look at me.. i can only indulge myself in all da stories i haf in my head... lol sometimes i wud pen them dwn on my book of stories.. sometimes..i juz bring them to sleep and dream abt it... :) tats how pathetic of me..i noe..but yeah.. rite now.. my head is into ermm... a guy in NCC... okies... wahahaha..dun worry.. its someone no one wud expect..i guess.. but yeah..he's not any of my guy fwens.. so yeah..all i can do is juz imagine abt him lorhx... *sigh* i am like SO pathetic rite? oh well.. nvrm me then..

These days..i feel like i'm deprieved of love.. lol but yeah... atleast i haf my fwens i guess... so yeah.. now..i'd rather not think abt Brian... he's out of my life now ..yeahh... and Brett... i dunnoe abt him.. he really left a great impact on me.. i cant juz forget him juz like tat.... he means something to me.. not tat kinda thing but something..i cant really put my finger to it... so yeah..nvrm..

so yeah..i beta go now.. mayb...mayb i wud put wat i write in my book of stories into my chocollate account.. http://chocolatesoflife.blogspot.com there.. tats da link i tink.. lol see ya then!

blink blink!! wahahah.. an icon of Skype! dwld it at www.skype.com!! lol! 

and TIS is.. Will.. :) nice bod eh? and quite a cute face.. :P 

TIS pic was oso rumoured as AC bein gay... so sad u noe!!! bad ppl..jealous of his fame and wealth!! lol! 

TIS pic is rumoured as Aaron Carter's gay.. but TIS pic is F A K E!!!! look closely and u'll see tt its nt Aaron.. true fans noe its not him.. :P 

tis is us Expressoz [!!!] in da canteen eatin Pizza from Canadian Pizza on Sharie's burfdae.. wahahaha.. 

tts Sharie and me in da canteen durin his burfdae.. :) 

Hey!!

So yeah... happie belated April Fools' Day... wadever.. :) anieways... juz came bak from the Teens' Forum thingy.. itz... a WASTE of TIME larhx! wahahaha.. so stoopid.. main three topics were BGR, Peer Pressure and Conflicts wif Parents... and dey beat around da bush for like... 5 hours on it!!! so stoopid lorhx!!

Early mornin meet up wif Agnes,Ali,Cheryl, Daryl,Geraldine,Jasmine,Melissa,Yea Shen and Sze Yign at the Grassroots' Club at YCK there... den we went bowling.. Amanda was there oso.. den after bowling..go arcade..wahahaha..funni horx.. oh yarhx..den we ALL wear same short somemore.. all Pink Polo Shirt lorhx... wahahaha.. even da guys wear dat lorhx! lol very cute rite?! den we go anywhere ppl look at us one kind lorhx! wahahaha..

Den after da WHOLE friggin thing finish horx.... we all go hom elarhx..at da entrance there horx, ppl sae to us horx.. Bye Pinkies... wahahahaha.. got name liao lerhx.. .den yarhx... we all went separate ways lorhx.. Ali, Cheryl and I we went hom etake 76 lorhx.. wahahaha...then now i reach home lorhx.. so sian lorhx...but horx...juz now at da last few hours horx..me and Agnes we passed letters ard to da ppl at our table.. wahahahah so cute!!

yar lorhx...den now chattin wif Michael.. [not Wina horx].. den stuck wif da larhx thing lorhx..wahahahah..den he ask me wats larhx...explian oso he dun understand...wahahahaha..cute horhx? i siao liao lerhx.. nvrm.. see ya!! long time no blog lehh.. kelian kelian... i later blog again okae? see ya!!

I really feel hurt... i was really lookin forward to the outing... I'd wanted to de-stress... after all the studying and dreading of PE... its da end of da week... i wanna enjoy it... so we da xpressoz wanted to go to Sentosa..

But my SIS actually had da right to disallow me to go... Juz cos its FAR and juz cos its without THEM. I'm so frustrated!!! I wanna go! i wanna haf fun wif my fwens.... i juz wanna go......

I cant stop crying since then... I'm really sad... i was already gettin ready all the stuff..abt to change den go out... den my friggin SIS said NO.. i mean i dun believe tis! SHE is not da one who has da final say in tis all...but too bad my mom is like SO watever... i dnnoe sia... i really wanna go... i was SO lookin forward to it.. i woke early tis morning cos i was excited abt it... but in the end i'm not goin...

I'm feelin SO angry i juz dunnoe wat to do... i'm juz so angry at my FRIGGIN sister and my mom.... i juz dun understand!! I'm Sec 3 now... i can exercise takin care of my own... There's gonna be LOTS of ppl there in Sentosa... i cant go cos its far... its stoopid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate it! I hate my sis now!!!! i hate my mom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate them all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i juz wanna go.... tts all... :'(

Back

Hey, i'm back. Hows everyone? I'm feelin gd now... da expressoz r currently on their way to Sentosa... to welcome Shalya to Singapore they are bringin her to Sentosa to haf fun... Cheerios. Anieways... i cant go so yeah... haf lotsa hw to do so yeah.. betta go do them now... see ya.. haf fun!

tis is me at 12.10 pm on Friday [18 March 2005]... 

More of me!!! haharx!! 

Tis is how i looked like on me cousin's engagement.. wahahaha.. Lady in white.. 

me recent pic..wahahaha... look at me cheeks.. chubby.. :P 

and tis is Wong Shun Shun!! haharx! me classmate... suai horx? *bluek* 

Remember da time i told ya guys abt Chingay? tis was wat we saw... among other things of course! 

Lol! THIS is David.. one of me best fwens online.. :) God bless those arms! :P 

All da Expressoz!!! wahaha.. from left above to right.. Nas [apple], Diana [banana], Shari [pumpkin], me[honeydew], ain[gilerr], yati [nonoi] and Sharifah [meche].. wahaha! 

tis is a... a lil sth i did.. all in da past.. juz thought of erm..framing da memory? :) 

tats Aaron makin a wish on us.. :P haharx! 

Tis is like one of my nicest fotos.. haharx.. me fringe.. i've like cut it shorter.. 

What a Day!!

School finished at like 10.35 am.m for my class [10.40 for school] ..lol! Miss Lim gave us 5 min early dismissal. Cos today my school got the Amazing Race thingy. So yeah... at first Sharifah said she was into da idea of not goin to Sentosa and spending the day wif Ofie and all but she changed her mind later. I didnt mind oni tat i dun feel like goin cos i didnt feel good. And usually wen i dun feel good, bad things are bound to happen plus i began pondering whether or not to go since yesterday night. I dunoe y.

However, i dun appreciate the fact tat Wina said, "I dun want u to go wif a black face...". What is she tryin to say? So what if i go wif a black face. And she says she noes me... rite.. even my own family members dunnoe me tat well.. and she said she does... It's like... ok yes i DO go to places wif a sour face but then did anyone realise tat i soon lighten up????? NO! everyone just sees tat i go wif a black face.. no one wanna noe da real reason y i go to certain places wif black face.. wahahaha... shud juz call myself hei-lian [black face]. wahahaha.. anieways, wadever.

Plus Shari is like being so sarcastic since morning... Just then he smsed me and said "Are you upset? Do u need us to cheer u up? U prefer us or ur councillors frens?..." who is he to say such thing? What is he trying to say abt my councillors frens? my councillors fwens and me went through tough things together... yes WE[expressoz and me], DO go through thick and thin together but the point is that.. who is Shari to discriminate my fwens?

Let's forget abt it. Anieways, i didnt go Sentosa today. Lol! Spent the whole day on com... haharx! fun actually u noe... den wen my mum came home wif my cuz..it was pickin up...den juz then made few vids abt my family..haharx.. 'twas fun! Honestly. Then tomoro... maybe i wanna go library.. or swimming... i dunno... we'll see abt tat.. haharx...

Anieways, i've given it serious thoughts, i'm over David.. i mean i wish him all the best wif his gal [she's pwetty!] and wif Brett... hmmm..happie bday? and to Brian... the moments we shared together were beautiful...paradise-like.. and no matter how much i really wanna believe his promises and his vow, i know i must go on. So yeah... this one week holiday, it's time for me to reflect. To change. For the better. Maybe we could be together, Brian. One day...Someday..

Mockingbird?

Who is gonna buy me a mockingbird? and a diamond? and wen da bird dun sing and da ring dun shine, who wud kill da bird and bash da person who sold da diamond up? who will be there to protect me? to pick me up wen i fall? wats promises and vows? so many promises made yet none fulfilled. a vow made but yet lay broken now. why? why does this kinda thing happen to me? maybe i am juz plain silly and stupid. who has a relationship online? or rather long-distanced? wat IS wrong wif me? i'm tinking of him again. and the thought of him is making me cry. Why haf God made our paths crossed? why must we meet? why DID we meet? why? so many questions why? yet no answers... why did he make empty promises? why did he raise my hope high and let it fall juz like tat without a care... and why, foolish me, am pining for him??? why do i like him? why do i LOVE him? why????!!!! why did he haf to lie to me like tat.. dun i mean anything to him? i cant play da perfect person anymore... i dun wanna be another one of the chracter in a romance novel. i dun want my life to be so properly planned... to adjust myself to fit in the role in a novel... no. i haf enough of tat. i have to be true to myself now. When i've learn to love myself as who i am, only then can others love me. I will and so will they. Those who abandoned me or left me, wud come to regret it one day.One day, someday.

What a day!

Cannot make it bahx! PE lorhx... wahhh...buay make it derhx... haharx.. anieways... had me continuation of Literature test.. wahhh.. cannot make it derhx larhx... then... today no MATHS!!!! no Emaths, no A mathes and no POA!! haharx..

so yeah... watched the Cranberries' Zombie music video... for Social Studies.. on Northern Ireland.. its like.. so sad u noe... these children... innocent children being taken away.. their lives... God bless them.. its really horrendous... God save their soul... Amin.

Anieways... i've nothing more to say now... oh yeah.. Shun Wai rite.. he wore da hair band juz now in class.. gdness.. he looks so sweet! lol! suits wif da name Desmonica now... :P

wat else? *sigh* oh yeah.. me havin camp next week.... :( Guides' derhx lorhx... very sien!!!! i dun wan to go.... den Kat not goin lorhx... argh!!! no fwens! no civilisation! no guys! no nothing! haharx... cannot make it derhx larhx... so yeah.. see ya then... buai-buai... *meeting Ofie in two days time*

oh btw.. haharx.. me fwen Michael.. is single now...hmmm... he;s a very sweet and romantic guy.. too bad he not in SG... if he is.. i go chio him!! haharx.. not he chio me derhx.. haharx

It stole my heart!

Last week if i'm not wrong, Wina brought in a stray kitten she picked from the MRT to school, so tat she cud bring it home.. I wasnt really so attached to it until today! I carried the box after school to my class.. cos got the English Enrichment thingy.. so yeah... i juz peak at it from outside da box.. juz looking at it.. and touching once in a while... then after da whole thing finish, i actually craddled the cat in my arms!! it was SO beautiful... then since Nas wanted to adopt it, obviously she's bringin it home larhx but cos she got choir, she got ain and shari and yati to take care of it in da canteen first.. so yeah...while ain and yati talk talk talk..me and shari we got the cat to ourselves.. so i craddled it close to me and walked around the whole school... it was fantastic!!! The kitten [ofie or hawaii], snuggled close to me..or rather..my bosom... haharx.. yeah..then it slept... it felt...well..wonderful... pleasant... motherly.. hahrx.. VERY sweet feelings.. i fell in love wif it rite then! *sigh* rite now i am thinking of it... i miss ofie!! hehe.. i craddled her again.. wen i went home..and she slept through it all... and wen Sharifah carried her from me, she kept mewing... how sweet!! haharx.. cant wait to see her tis Friday... Nas is gonna bring her out on Fri to watch Amazing Race.. [my school one derhx..] den i can play wif her ALL day..haharx!! hehe! i cant wait!! anieways...tomoro there's PE.. sux big-time.. wat da heck! da kitten is my goal now :) God bless her sweet fragile being... I love you Ofie!! *muacks*

Hey y'all

Hey! How's u? haharx. its been quite some time now. I've yet to change da template. i tink tis one is not really nice..so i'm now searching through the skins for the nice ones.. haharx. anieways, nth much happened. Juz hectic. having this investiture thingy...then yeah... tests coming up...hectic.. cannot make it derhz larhx. oh yeah.. yesterday i went for the fine-dining course. gdness! i cudnt really enjoy myself through the 3 meal course at Swensen's! After the 3 coaches went through the theory back at the Guides' House in Bishan, we went to the FUnan IT Mall... at Orchard there.. had our meal there.. we need not pay u noe! haharx. but yeah.. we had to do the practical now.... uh oh.. hahax. "Elbows off the table... hold ur cutleries properly..." blah blah blah.. quie tedious u noe.. we had a soup.. [delicious!!].. in normal time, it wud haf taken me like 5 or 10 minutes to finish..maybe shorter.. THIS time it took me like AGES! 20 minutes??? gdness! "scoop out... then bring it to ur mouth.. dun do da turtle dance..." g-d-n-e-s-s.... cannot make it larhx! then we had spaghetti wif chicken... second course... GDNESS...MORE tedious! we had to noe which cutlery go where.. which hand to hold..HOW to hold... ahhhhhhh.... tedious! and we took like 30 minutes??? wahahahaha tats long u noe..considering the fact dat the food came in small portion. wahahaha then at LONG last, we had da desert... ICE CREAM!!! it was da new flavour... and WE get to taste it first! the vanilla-lime flavoured ice-cream... HEAVENLY.. at THAT time, i REALLY took a long time to finish... to savour each bite... haharx.. nice u noe... then after tat we thanked the Swensen's company... the coaches... then before we knew it, it was finished!! but... it also meant we haf to go bak home ourselves.. uh oh.. we didnt noe tat was coming... but yeah... we walked..from Funan to Plaza Singapura... wahahaha...juz to see Mrs Sandra Ong... she has a shop there... nice shop actually! then from there..i went home..and spent tha time dunno do wat... lol anieways..i hafta go now.. see ya!

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Chingay 2005!! Parade Of Dreams

Whoah! Chingay rox man!! haharx.. so this was wat happened.. Agreed to meet at 3.15pm latest at Amk Mrt Station but tat Meche gilerr[crazy] was LATE!! as always... wif her quote, "a queen is nvr late oni we were early.." urgh! lol! but yeah....she reached at like 4pm... and we took the MRT to Orchard. Laughed and took pics in the train... Me and Apple sat dwn... she stepped on me foot!! Haiya! then took more pics and stuff.. then wen peeps got up to go off, Meche and Wina wanted to sit dwn.. Meche was abt to sit wen Wina asked," Aren't we going Orchard?" I nodded and looked out. To my horror, we've reached Orchard! Kakakakaka! We rushed out like bulls! lol! Then we walked, wanting to go to Far East.. but we stopped at Tangs... went to see Britney Spears' new fragrance, Curious. It was good actually. Real good! 50ml bottle cost 80 and 100ml cost 106... so yeah.. we didnt buy..juz messed around.. haharx.. Meche had da advantage of testing the lotion.. sheesh her.. den as we were getting out of the place... iw as buzy sniffing the slip of paper of Curious... dat wen i looked back, i saw who else if not Kaing You Hour!! me old crush!! Right behind me!! Lol! Embarrassing yes but i kept walking.. [u go gal!] then he walked in front of me.. i saw he grew shorter yet muscular.. *sigh* Told Meche tat tat was HIM and she and Apple strided across the street like women wif purpose of doing sth... but sweet fwens tat they are, they did nth to embarrass me.. Luv y'all! so yeah.. then Ckn called me and asked where we were wen we were taking Neoprints at Far East... Told Ckn to so called book the place for us... after all those stuff we hurried to meeting place.. Heard those Harley Davidson thingy...knew sth was up... but da road was closed and Ckn was on the other side of the road... we ran!! haharx... underpass thingy... wahahaha cute sia! den wen we reached, we were nt so front but nt so back either so yeah.. fair deal... But the Indonesian family in front of us kept pushing. Yes i noe pushing and stuff is bound to happen in cases like this but tat woman purposely pushed me fat belly wif her bloody bag over and over again!!! irritated but not angry, i kept quiet.. silent battle.. haharx.. then Apple kept poking me.. i turned and raised me eyebrow.. she pointed to the bangla behind her... he was coming too close to her.. *sigh* Banglas... so i put my arms around her waist.. [i am NOT lesbo..] and pushed his belly away wif my hand... soon.. he went away.. Nura's prowess! [watever tat is].. so yeah.. den FINALLY wen it started, i shouted and stuff... and tat indonesian family kept pushing.. *sigh*.. then got this one malay family..so poor thing.. all short then stand behind us..cannot see mah... so i told the small gal to stand in front of me.. but tat Indon family kept pushing her.. i cud feel da strength of tat woman pushin wen i put my hand in front of dat gal to sort of protect her... DEN...wen Deyi band came... whoah... i SCREAMED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really SCREAMED!! and dat Indon guy had the nerve to turn to me and go "Shhhhh" wat the TUT?!?! Chingay is where noises are made.. funs are had... if u dun like it, then leave.. watch Chingay from ur hse TV... is so freakin irritating.. so yeah.. seeing tat he's old.. i didnt talk back insted i.... SCREAMED!!!!! hahar.. even higher and shrillier.. watever... haharx.. den watched finish till da end... den yeah.. went onto the road.. it was opened to all by then.. walked around.. met Q Haw... and her fwen.. Rimah.. and wat else do u do wen there's music pumpin and ppl movin? U dance!! and we did juz dat! too bad Apple ahd to go away first.. her bro wanted her to go home wif him.. so yeah.. left wif Me, Meche and Wina.. and we danced!! til we saw Wina's mom! lol but she was cool..danced along wif us!! haharx.. den more ppl joined in.. we danced and jumped up and down.. so cool!! ppl watched and stared but watever.. was havin too much fun.. haharx! so cool ppl! Went home by Taxi.. Diddy already waiting dwnstairs.. haharx.. so yeah.. bathed then changed.. then mumbled to Teddy.. den slept.. haharx.. such a memorable nite u noe... :) So next yr... ppl, come dwn to Chingay.. alrite? we'll haf fun together.. so wat if ur legs ache? wen it comes for da time to party, wat do u do? PARRRRTYYY!!!! woohoo!! and three cheers for Deyi Band!!! especially Yi Qian!!!! haharx.. and to da Expressoz .. tho we were scattered, am sure we had great time yesterday nite.. haharx.. Luv y'all peeps! *huggies*

Master Parade [however u spell it]

Gdness... thk God Friday is over! School wen ton as per usual actually except for the afternoon part.. *sigh* Guides started earlier than usual... after they talked and stuff, i raised my hand and asked, "What time are we supposed to be changed [to uniform]?" Shun Ping said by 1.30pm we must be back here fully dressed and it was then 1.15pm.. and everyone was just sitting down. So i asked again, "Why is everyone sitting down?".

As if the words slowly sunk into their brains, all at once the girls got up and all rushed to the Ladies.. haharx! wat a sight to see u noe! Since all the juniors were sitting closer to the door, it's logic that they get to da cubicles first. But me and Kat we went into the disabled toilet [which was BIG] and changed. Lol! Girls! haharx.. so yeah.. changed and stuff.. Kat said her blouse seemed tight.. mine too... around da amrs area.. *sigh* my arms haf always been a big problem.. watever.

So after we changed, we rehearsed wif other uniformed grps and stuff... den after da real thing happened[ which was quite cool], we went bak and sang songs and stuff.. before we combined wif the scouts for Thinking Day [rehearsal]. And surprise surpsrise! who to read da message again but me! *sigh* i serously need to practice on it. I went on like chasing a bullet train last year. wat a laughingstock i was... pray hard tat things wud look better tis yr..

So yeah.. after tat went home and Mama suap [feed] me makan[eat]... haharx.. like she always complain, " Dah besar pon nak Mak suap," means Big aledi still want mama to feed. but mothers..their hearts are so sweet... she still feeds me.. even me dad.. haharx.. pampered gal... :P

so yeah then blah blah blah... cant remember wat happened and yeah.. Couldnt wait for Saturday!!! Chingay 2005! Deyi band gonna perform haharx! Go Yi Qian!!! [Drum major]

itz been so long!

hey...i am back again. its been a while hasnt it? anieways... itz been a few days since i returned from da Sec 3 camp... its was quite ok larhx... it was from 31st Jan til 2 Feb... You Hour's bday... happie belated bday boi... anieways... Vday is comin aight? lol 2 more weeks actually...but still..am feelin quite sad cos...well... no brian mahh... i dunno wat happened to him... seems like.. he's gone all quiet now.. *sigh*

nvrm..anieways...i've got nth much to say now..cant think of anythin to say so yeah..me betta go now..see ya!